Half the day is done but for the other half
I HAVE GOT TO READ BOOKS ON ADDICTION!
For the life of me I can’t get myself to do it! I just… I don’t want to think about it, it makes me analyze my behavior and that’s just so darn unpleasant… But I have to, so I promise you dear sober friends, I will read the book for 1 hour, with a timer, right after writing this.
My reward will be reading The Two Towers for as many hours as I please 
Be easy on yourself. I read Quit alike a Woman…a wonderful book and I enjoyed it so much but it did take me about a year to finish it. The next book I picked up I finished in a week. It just happens that way. I figured I was eas soaking in the knowledge in phases lol…
Who says? You need to gather information about addiction and strategies for living with it. We all do. But you have many sources. Books are only one of them.
Thank you! I appreciate the suggestion to be easy on myself and I’ll take it 
Well, not too much though, I get carried away and get lazy. I just Googled the book you mentioned and it’s definitely going on my to-read list. Thank you 
@TS66 That’s very sensible, I didn’t consider that way of thinking. I don’t know why books seem like definate sources of information to me but they give me a sense of actiond and accomplishment because unlike the internet, they have endings… Well, many of them do. But I will accept your invitation to explore other sources: a YouTube cahnnel I found called Stope Drinking Expert. I do approach it with caution though. He says AA doesn’t work for many and I don’t know if he’s doing that to get people to buy into his program or not. I’ll take the word of my ST comrades (in a non communist way, lol). But I like the things he says about the experience. Goodness, that’s one long tangent I went on there, my apologies. Thank you again 
Also, I did it! What a book it is! Never Enough, the Neuroscience and Experience of Addiction by Judith Grisel. So compelling, so well written; her work is wonderful, enough to make me forgo my beloved Tolkien this evening. I don’t need a timer for her. I’m ashamed to say that I’m almost grateful she’s one of us so we can benefit from her amazing talent and intellect now that she’s recovered. It’s my second attempt at reading it but my first was in the brain fog of the first week so her brilliance escaped me. What a shame.
I came across this book in someone’s post a month ago when I came back here after a relapse. I wish I could remember who it was on ST so I could thank her. I do have a vague memory of having done that already but I’m not sure… oh well.
So this! I did THIS for my recovery today 
Sorry again for the length, everyone’s posts here are so short.
That sounds like an interesting book. Going to order it.
I have had this book forever. I bought it because I was interested in LeDoux’s work with neuroscience and the self in The Synapric Self. So, I serendipitously spotted this on the shelf this morning and decided it might help to better understand my anxieties.
So what am I doing today to stay SOBER. Well I listened to more of f*cking Sober, first episode of the second pod cast, already made it through the first.
I shared TS’s quote for the day on my FB, and out of the blue I get a text message from a friend. She has been sober now for 166 days!! So, I’m leaving work early, and going to an AA meeting, I haven’t been to one since 2013 and that was ummm, yeah court ordered to get my license back. How I lost my license, well, thankfully I’m alive to talk about it and I’ll leave it at that. But yeah I’m going to a meeting tonight, let me try not to cry lol.
I also got a message from another friend, she hasn’t drank since New Year’s Eve. All these people I know getting silently sober, like telling people will ruin it?? Ya know it just may. I’m not really telling people either.
Im Packing and spending the remaing day with the wife .im soon to go out of town for qork 3 weeks so i make sure the homefront is taken care of first and i can leave with a good peace of mind
Committed to starting 90 meetings in 90 days again. My sponsor and I discussed ways to make sure I get to in person meetings whenever possible and made a plan to overcome some of the logistical things that prevent me from getting to them.
Read some sobriety lit and a spiritual book ive been loving
Turned down an alcohol-based gathering even though I wanted to go, but knew I am not strong enough in my sobriety to do so.
Sound bath/meditation class
Tried to be of service to somebody (they declined but i offered so it counts haha)
Told another friend about my sobriety, in perhaps the most fully honest way I have yet. It felt good and she was happy for me and very supportive. And, she opened up about why she doesnt drink which we hadnt ever talked about before. I had assumed she had just never drank but that wasnt the case and it was so wonderful to have that conversation and become even closer, genuine friends
Going to bed sober so I can wake up with one full week of sobriety again 🩵
When I first got clean, just over 2 years ago, I went to this NA meeting all the time at the local Alano Club and this guy, “C” and his son, “T,” were both clean and I’d see them at this meeting, together, all the time. Then, about a year and a half ago, his son relapsed and “C” would always share about his son struggling.
I took a struggling acquaintance to that same meeting yesterday and this guy, “C”, was there and I found out his son died, recently. Fentanyl overdose. “T” couldn’t have been older than 21 cuz he was 19 when I met him.
Bleeping heartbreaking.
As a father, I was crushed and, as I write this, I’m crying because I know what I’m feeling is nothing compared to “C’s” grief. 
That said, today:
That is so sad and heartbreaking. Sorry for another life lost to addiction. Sending love and hugs to his family and friends 
So sorry for your loss. Fentanyl is literally destroying so many lives here in Canada as well. I lost a very close friend to an accidental fentanyl overdose in November . The coke he bought was laced with it. It’s one of the reasons I’m so determined to succeed on my journey. I will not let his death be in vain .
Sat down with Hubby this morning as he is not working out of town for a couple of weeks. My schedule has been presented for the next 3 days. 
no time for ugly thoughts.
Heartbreaking!! I’m so sorry that they’re going through this. May the Lord give his family the strength to carry on. It’s an outrage the number of lives lost to these evil drugs. It doesn’t have to be this way. Prayers for everyone 
I got a good nights rest.
Up bright and early.
Meditation done.
Checking in, writing.
Celebrating other peoples milestones.
More artwork!
Meditation morning and night
Gratitude journal
Reading through TS posts
Daily sober app check in
Reading 30 minutes daily ( currently atomic habits)
Walking
Self care
Cooking
Morning 3rd step prayer
Called sponsor
Read Big Book
Nighttime meditation/sound bath class
Journaling
Making plans for meetings the rest of the week
I think i opened this app about 10 times today 
i cant with social media right now so this is my replacement
