Mean, selfish, cynical, hateful, cruel, presumptuous, embarassing etc. I just become an arse hole.
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A complete crazy obsessed person. Obsessed to jump out of the pain and obsessed to jump back in. It depended on the clock: 8am,I would be sad, depressed, hated myself, quiet, withdrawn, scared and anxious to stop. By two pm I would be waiting for the deliveroo to get me crazy. Then my quiet stupid voice would get louder as I drank drop by drop and I would laugh and smile and feel brave and feel wonderful and silly and light and feel love. Then sleep happens in between these two of me until the darkness fell.
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