Sobriety does not promise that life will automatically become easier. It does not promise that bad things won’t happen. It does not promise fairness either.
What sobriety does promise is that, if you are doing the work, you will be able to handle anything that comes your way.
For anyone who has been here a while you’ve probably heard me talk about my job. You probably know that I love my job. If you’ve been here for a really long time, you are probably aware of how special my agency is to me. Prior to working there, I was a client of the syringe exchange program. And eventually, when I was ready, they were instrumental in helping me get to rehab.
I started working there about 8 months into my sobriety and I’ve been there ever since. Over the years I’ve used my passion for the work we do to be given several promotions and now occupy an upper management position that I really love. This agency is so important to me, both professionally and personally, and I bring that with me every day when I go to work.
Yesterday, a little after noon, I was given notice that due to poor fiscal health that the agency was restructuring and that my position was being eliminated. I was given a 60 day notice and an opportunity to apply for a new position within the agency, although it is unlikely I will get it.
I write this not for sympathy, but for a relation to sobriety. My first call was my partner. My second call was my sponsor. Not even for a split second did I consider a drink or a drug. I went straight into my toolbox like it was as natural as breathing air. I was able to do this because of the work I’ve done.
I know it may seem like bullshit when I preach all that “put in the work, get the results” stuff, but this is just evidence that it works. I learned how to deal with these moments because of what I learned in AA by getting a sponsor and working the steps. I’m sure other programs can probably teach these skills as well, but I don’t know anything other than AA.
So when you see me really pushing for AA, it’s not because I get a commission, or kickback, it’s because I know it works and I know that someday you might just need the skills that it teaches.