This is my go-to song when I’m overwhelmed by emotions from addiction. It puts words and images to the jumble in my head. I’ll put it on repeat and let it wash over me until I’m feeling better. Anyone else have that kind of song?
Sun wakes me up, I think I’m losing everything I want to go back to bed I feel much better there The funny thing is you look alot like the devil Isn’t it strange how dreams can seem so real?
I shiver too much, I wait too much My struggle is my shame, I can’t let go I’m looking for my simple sense of mind I need someone to carry me home
Days go by… I still want to know what its like to be a butterfly
Tamed by fear and numb from sleep I wake My routine life is calling me again Another day, another thought gone by I need someone to carry me home
Days go by… I still want to know what its like to be a butterfly
For some reason this one comes to mind for me super silly but if you think about it from and addiction viewpoint it has some meaning. And, it’s easy to sing in your head so there ya go. Sorry if it gets stuck in your head, though.
Itsy bitsy spider went up the water spout (doing your DOC)
Down came the rain and washed the spider out (addiction)
Out came the sun and dried up all the rain (sobriety)
So itsy bitsy spider went up the spout again (relaspe)
Great song! I relate to the lyrics, love the music - a mix of rock & country, and I got a kick out of the Game of Thrones vibe from video they did for it!
No matter what emotion I’m feeling about all of this, I can always just blare this song. It makes me cry sometimes, but it also makes me feel so, so good. It reminds me how far I’ve come! The YouTube comments for this song are just as great and inspiring.
There is a wrestling in my heart and my mind
A disturbance and a tension I cannot seem to drive
And if I’m honest, there’s quite a bit of fear
To sit here in this silence and really hear you
What will you ask of me?
Will I listen to your voice when you speak?
Help me to move
Help me to see
Help me to do whatever you would ask of me
Help me to go
Or God help me to stay
I’m feeling so alone here
And I know that you’re faithful
But I can barely breathe
God help me
Sometimes things, they are black and white
But sometimes they are not and it leaves us torn inside
And in the middle we are left to wonder
Who we are, what you want and where we’re going
Oh, such a mystery
I don’t always understand
But I believe
Help me to move
Help me to see
Help me to do whatever you would ask of me
Help me to go
(Or) God help me to stay
I’m feeling so alone here
And I know that you’re faithful
But I can barely breathe
God help me
I don’t know the future
It’s one day at a time
But I know I’ll be okay with your hand holding mine
So take all my resistance
Oh God I need your grace
One step and then the other, show me the way
Show me the way
Help me to move
Help me to see
Help me to do whatever you would ask of me
Help me to go
(Or) God help me to stay
I’m feeling so alone here
And I know that you’re faithful
But I can barely breathe
Oh, God I can barely breathe
Oh, I can barely breath
God help me
Wow, so many great songs, so much emotion, I’ve added a number to my playlist. It also is encouraging to read the comments for these songs on youtube, so many others like us finding solace and community in music.
@littlemisschatterbox, this is my fave Band Perry tune. I was actually thinking of this song last night in regard to this post. A lot of my drinking was due to loneliness.
More a feeling I share with this song’s lyrics than fact. Especially the chorus is me. Maybe it’s more about recovery. Well that’s tied to addiction too.
I’ve seen myself with a dirty face
I cut my luck with a dirty ace
I leave the light on
I leave the light on
I went from zero to minus ten
I drank your wine then
I stole your man
I leave the light on
I leave that light on
Daddy ain’t that bad, he just plays rough
I ain’t that scarred when I’m covered up
I leave the light on, yeah I leave that light on
Little girl hiding underneath the bed
Was it something I did?
Must be something I said
I leave the light on, I better leave the light on
'Cause I wanna love
And I wanna live
Yeah, I don’t know much about it
Yeah, and I never did, no, no
17 and I’m all messed up inside
I cut myself just to feel alive
I leave the light on
I leave the light on
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I leave the light on
Better leave the light on
'Cause I wanna love
And I wanna live
Yeah, I don’t know much about it
And I never did
I don’t know what to do
Can the damage be undone?
I swore to God that I’d never be what I’ve become
Lucky stars and fairy tales
I’m gonna bathe myself in a wishin’ well
Pretty scars from cigarettes
I never will forget, I never will forget
I’m still afraid to be alone
Wish that moon would follow me home
I leave the light on
Yeah, I leave that light on
And I ain’t that bad I’m just messed up
I ain’t that sad but I’m, I’m sad enough
'Cause I wanna love
I wanna live
No, I don’t know much about it
And I never did
I don’t know what to do
Can the damage be undone?
I swore to God that I’d never be what I’ve become
I leave that light, I leave that light, I leave that light on
God bless the child with the dirty face
Who cuts her luck with a dirty ace
She leaves the light on
I leave that light on
