Why do I do what i do when i know what i know

[Soli]

Also, there’s a post I really like and I keep going back to. Maybe you’ll find it helpful too:

Maybe Just One Wouldn’t Hurt

I hear this all the time from my “friends” who drink. And by drink I mean like a fish needs water. It’s their lifeline. I still have beer in my fridge for my dad. I have no intention of drinking again, but what if I did? What stops anyone whom has a lot of time sober? Being alone is the hardest thing for me