I always dream a lot, no matter of I’m asleep or not 
The difference for me is that I can’t handle nightmares and Flashbacks way better now than when I first started.
But I’ve been here on and of for a while. (Around five years)
14 days after the last bleeding, guess what my body decided to do?
Another bleeding yay 
Including slight pain, but almost not noticeable.
I think it’s an ovulation bleeding 
Perimenopause sucks!
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It’s such nonsense. My last period lasted five days proper and then an extra five days just because. I think I’m still in the queue for the Gynaecology department however as they sent me a message asking if I still needed help since my referral almost a year ago. Yep, my reproductive system didn’t disappear just yet…
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And bleeding again. Wednesday and yesterday combined with a migraine.
And still no Gynecologist in sight who prescribes me what I need. Not even a sick note because “that’s what all women have to go through since centuries”
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I feel you Sabrina… After my weird ten days bleeding last month I’m now 6 days late with this month’s period… Did they consolidate?? 
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What do you mean with did they consolidate?
The last bleeding I had could’ve been a very long ovulation bleeding, the one I have now is my regular one…I think 
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Sorry I meant because last period was ten days, maybe I won’t get this month’s period? Maybe they were together.
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Attention Attention!
Special Deal ONLY for today!
Get 2 periods instead of one!
Attention Attention!
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Gah. My cycle is between 19 and 38 days for about nearing two years now.
Last month I had a week long period with an extra five days added on the end with just occasionally bleeding but intense emotions and pain. This month I had a fake week long period before my actual period and now my period is just plain weird. Stop start, heavy, then disappears, then heavy. It’s so annoying.
Honestly fed up of this crap.
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I HATE being perimenopausal! It’s 7°C outside, it’s cold! But my body decided “Lets BURN that girl”
I could go outside in shirt and shorts and wouldn’t even feel the cold. I’m a walking power plant.
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This explains my crazy craves the last couple of days and my ‘meh-ness’. Just got my period. 18 days cycle this time around after a 36 day cycle previously. No warning 
no tenderness, normal kind of, just restlessness. Fuck this. Being sober is hard enough as it is without the extra extra we get on top. Must be nice to be a sober man, not having to deal with hormones on top. 
Women are fucking heroes.
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I have always struggled with severe pms but now that i am almost 42 in December it has legit become almost unbearable. It’s like being sick 10 days or so of every month… ugggggghhhhhh!!! Just venting here!!! Cant wait to be post menopausal
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Exactly 
Right now the hot flashes are the worst for me. It’s cold here, 2C and yesterday we got our first snow.
I can’t wear any winter jacket bc I’m sweating.
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What gets me, and I know I keep going on about this, is the aptitude I have for mentally gaslighting myself EVERY SINGLE MONTH that I’m crazy, insane, irrational, losing my mind…
How is that?
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I do the same thing. It sneaks up on you and can be hard to pin down. I honestly don’t know how I get to work during it. It’s a nightmare!
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It’s not just us gaslighting ourselves.
If you don’t operate as it’s demanded (work, family, friends) others start to make unwanted comments like “you should see a Dr., looks like you’re depressed, why do you behave like this, my favorite: if you think about this all the time you’ll get worse so ignore it!”.
I’m glad I’m kinda alive today. Temperature did rise from 2C up to 16C including storms 
And I started bleeding Saturday evening.
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Today is such a day. And I’m full of rage! My coworkers said “go eat something, breathe, then come back” 
Everything makes me explode today.
Maybe I can use this rage later for working out 
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My type of mandala drawing sometimes!
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I now know why my performance in working out was so bad yesterday. I didn’t sleep this night, well, a little bit but not much and not good.
This month the bleeding was almost 10 days late, and when it’s that late, it’s very painful.
So I’m still laying in bed at almost 1:30 pm, bleeding like a maniac.
And the only thing I can use are pads because tampons make me so sore
I hate pads
Ok, I stop crying now and try to get up. I need to bake a bread.
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