@Juli1 I’m doing good.
Monday evening I was sitting at home on my couch folded together like a shrimp and nearly cried. I had so awfully dark thoughts. I literally cried for help.
Yesterday I was myself again. Seems something listened 
Also today I’m good.
And about the food thing: I feel better when eating more healthy. Less bloated, like you. I try to stick to that 
Thank you again for your PM 
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My bleeding started yesterday evening, 4 days early. No problem with that, so I can enjoy my 1 week off without this masterpiece of evolution 
No migraine this time but a headache that’s still pretty annoying. I slept since coming home from the hairdresser.
Now I showered and am still inhaling some food and pineapple juice mixed with water.
Over and out 
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https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=cfb23QrZOFE&si=_x6OcTTrkloNH2Y4
I was thinking of you when this song popped up today in the gym 
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Hell yeah. I just got around to listening to this and I can say I’d never heard it before. Rocking anthem, lots of energy. I approve. 
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9 days until my bleeding starts.
The worst today is rage. First I overslept, then several trains were late, we had an 1,5 hour meeting I didn’t know about, coworkers bitching like maniacs and the worst was, when my coworkers told me about a picture of me that was shot on Friday.
And I look pregnant af 
I feel awful and fat and I hate everything and everyone rn 
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I was so ugly today to some coworkers ugh 
Damn pre-period mood 
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Had another lengthy cycle of fucking 46 days. Everything was fucked up this time. My major unprecedented blood sugar issues. Then, finally yesterday, I thought, yeah. But then no? Only cramps and diarrhea? No. A bit and more cramps and diarrhea. Don’t like it. I am not a fan. I’d like to unsubscribe.
As I don’t have a gynecologist here and it is next to impossible to get an appointment without making an Excel sheet and tracking who I called when and when I could try again, I was thinking if I could read obituaries and call the gynecologists around the cemetery and tell them that I could replace a former patient. My colleague said that older women don’t go anymore. Which then brought me into thinking how they even track that they cannot take new patients anymore? It’s a mystery.
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Came to this thread to vent somewhere that it sucks that women, EVERY month have to ‘get on with it’ whilst their body is desperately in need rest and gentle care, bleeding. Being expected to go to work and still do all of life’s chores whilst exhausted and fatigued …often accompanied by cramps, headaches, body aches, and unruly emotions that are outside any rational norm and seemingly uncontrollable. It SUCKS. Women should be able to rest and nurture themselves during these days. No wonder so many are depressed and or burnt out. It’s insane.. to not have any considerations. Imagine .. if women could actually sleep and rest for two or three days a month when their hormonal system is literally effecting everything and changing levels estrogen and progesterone!
Well, all this to say I’m tired and frustrated that I had to go to work and please others today instead of resting, sleeping and nurturing myself 
my body felt like it was pleading for rest, but no rest for women. No no. Go to work and pretend everything’s fine. There’s nothing wrong. Losing all that blood doesn’t affect your energy.. 
those hormone changes shouldn’t be an issue. What’s wrong with you!?!
Urgh.
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Women have to suck it up, endlessly. I still feel guilt for caring for myself, every single time. I’ve been taught not to value my time or health or dreams. Unlearning it all now. But I damaged my health first. Never again!
Good post. It doesn’t have to be this way. 
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Amen 
I would add that perimenopausal woman should be allowed to slap sense and consideration into their significant others, family, friends, coworkers, bosses or whoever is ignorant of the straining bullshit we are going through.
Greetings from the funny side of decreasing physical performance and shorter temper in my 50s 
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Women in general get a bad rap. They have to deal with so much more than men yet if they ever say a word or complain they’re crazy or too emotional. When a man shows emotion he’s sweet and sensitive. I feel for you ladies. The worst part though is women rarely back up other women. They’ll be the first to pile on the trash talk.
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I have been musing about a couple of things.
First, my increasing irritation with things means that a certain someone is even more likely to just dismiss my thoughts and feelings because ‘Oh, it is the menopause’. I cannot get him to understand that while menopause is making my delivery of the message a little more harsh, it doesn’t negate the content of the message.
Second, is there any research/information about menopause in completely single women vs those who are married / in long term hetero-normative relationships?Because I sometimes feel it is less the hormones and more the decade and a half of being in the aforementioned hetero-normative relationship that is just getting on my nerves.
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I don’t know about specific literature but may go on a search, the topic is quite interesting.
Tried both, married and single and can say, perimenopausal life living alone, being single is faaaar better on every aspect exept I’m missing on the intimacy part (which I missed in my marriage too, now it’s easier to bear as I know there is no other to share together time).
I felt neglected, ignored and not supported with my perimenopausal shenanigans in my relationship allthough I really tried to explain and talk about it.
Now I talk with friends, have fun and we state: hormones suck.
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Good morning 
Day 3 of bleeding, this morning it was a damn blood bath 
And my emotions are all over the place. I cry when happy, I cry when hungry, I cry when tired, I cry 
And if someone’s standing in my way I turn into a little monster 
I love being a woman
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I had a 30 day long (26 or 27 was the place to be last 2 years lol). Think it was about this special moon we had. The night after he was there it started. Enormous but short period of cramps. The time when I drove to the dentist appointment. But sometimes I feel like doing normal life stuff is also a good thing to not focus too much. I go with you about the crying @Sabrina80 
Hope it gets better now.
Good thing is that the period after day 2 is about getting glow and strength back normally to me.
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Some days have passed and I’m back to my normal me
Yesterday I started working out again, the 1000th time I guess hehe. A mix of animal flow and bodyweight workouts I pay for. No YouTube trial, this time I take it seriously and together with my body, not against it.