I have been considering this many times but won’t start it. I am now 44 and could well be in perimenopause and die to my diabetes I am in all high risk group for YYZ blaaah.
Finally, after 39 days…made it to a new cycle
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Day 25
Selfhate going through the roof.
Trying to stay calm somehow.
Already did my activities last days without listening to that voice.
Don’t know.
Just want to be skinny.
All. I want.
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Day 27 and waiting
Amazinig balloonish feeling 
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Can you try to change your feeling to wanting to be active? Nourished? Skinny has no value outside of some random societal system. And focuses on what you are not rather than what you are doing. Easier said than done, I know.
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I was lucky this month that the cycle was not as long as it could be. I notice then that my mood is not so bad bad like it is when it’s not ending and also my sugar is less turbulent before or for a shorter time.
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Thank you so much… Indeed this is the right perspective. I am working on it. Just started the book “the body is not an apology” yesteday. Had a day at the hot springs / Sauna and came into a very balanced body feeling. Even happy. Even loved. Cycle started 
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I’m glad. It is always strange when the cycle starts and the storm clouds clear. Let us know about the book!
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I am grateful for a podcast about perimenopause which I am listening to regularly. As no matter where I talk about my problems and raising the word hormones, all they do is look at the fucking screen, check my birthday and then make a grimace meaning that I am too young. The fuckers. Well, only some more years and they might take it more seriously.
These fuckers. May they suffer from everything what decreasing testosterone levels has to offer. All white men. 
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They will just buy Viagra. It’s a white man’s world my friend. HRT has literally saved me. I’m glad I started it at 45 despite the looking down on me and my age. I just wouldn’t stop annoying them until they gave in…
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i started by 42 full blown all in and started fading out perimenopause bullshittery around 50. i hope i am finally done with 53, bleeding gone for good (hope so 
) since my last birthday and shenanigans are low or faded out or acting up rarely. It was a horrible decade.
and i would nobody allow to belittle this shit, i was a fury most of the time and i would still kill everyone who doesn’t take the horror serious 
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I think I’m on the perimenopause (age 45)
Had anyone else experienced insane levels of blood at this stage of life? I’m talking apocalyptic levels of blood that no tampon or moon cup or multiple protections at once could protect against.
Worst thing was, I was caving at the time. With 5 blokes! I was worried I’d come all the way through my legging + fleece onesie + cave-suit (which thank goodness was red). It was like two hours of continuous flooding.
The caving certainly didn’t help, it was very acrobatic. Legs scissoring, full body contortion, you get the idea.
I had to pretend to the guys that I was “tired” and then “wait behind for them” in a chamber whilst they went on…. The reality was that I’d spotted a small underground waterfall, and so whilst they were gone, I stripped down and washed my clothes and self. I had no choice! Otherwise when changing back at the cars I would have been like a scene out of “Carrie”.
I am mildly amused that I must be one of the few women to have washed clothing over 50m below ground. But not amused that this could happen again.
BAD!
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Oh no what terrible timing! Way to roll with it! I had that and my Dr put me on birth control. It helped keep it down to a more manageable level.
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I also went on a gestagen birth control pill and it helped a lot. It’s exhausting to deal with different symptoms. I hope it will get better for you soon 
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Wow, you are a fucking hero.
A birth control pill might help def, or if you can get HRT started (based on being in peri M) then I got the Mirena coil inserted and I take Estradiol gel on my skin daily for the oestrogen side. My periods are way way lighter since I’ve had the coil in.
I’ll be 50+ by the time the coil needs taking out and hopefully thru the worst of whatever witchcraft was happening to my body.
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I am grateful I finally went to the pharmacy.
Hello, I need a Fungizid.
For your feet?
Silence.
Looks at me.
Staring back.
Going away and giving me what I needed.
Besides, I feel more emotional. Having urges to delete my profile here. I am grateful I’ll forget about the why soon. I can rely on my forgetfulness. 
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I would be sad to see you leave. Your contribution would be missed!
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Now I have a shortfilm in my head 
you rock 
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I would miss you Franzi.
You kick ass. 
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Why would you want to delete your profile? You would be missed.
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My period is LOOMING today. Achy breasts, irritable, tired, constant hunger, gas that can clear rooms. Fuck it.
So far the hardest perimenopause symptoms for me have been the build up to starting a period. I used to feel like this for one day, wake up the next day feeling energized and skinny and then BAM, period.
Now this lead-up can drag on for a while.
I’m going to tackle this scientifically.
In 2026 I’m writing a few sentences in my habit tracking planner about how I feel in the morning and how I feel at night. So far the trend is I always feel better at night. It’s hard to get motivated with two achy water balloons strapped to your chest.
I haven’t had a period in 2026 but I printed out some hormone tracking charts that show highs and lows of sex hormone levels at different times in my cycle. Then I can match my moods to those swings and figure out which hormone might be most beneficial for me to add in to a hormone routine and which to avoid.
If it sounds complex it is, but I have always struggled with moods and hormones and I’m a scientist. I will crack this shit.
This post is dedicated to a certain @Puzzled friend who I admire for always telling it like it is. We are all in this together. 
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