I’m so very sorry Jaz. I haven’t been coping very well, and you know that when times get tough I tend to retract. I have tried so hard not to do that, but my introversion is a really big problem.
I am so overwhelmed at home. You know about my eldest, I’m in A&E with him at least once a week. Paying through the nose for private appointments to try to get to the bottom of it. My youngest is costing us a fortune in supports for his hyperlexia. He needs so much support now. I’m helping my second eldest with his accountancy work for Uni, and trying to help him to not feel left out because my other three need me so much. My husband and I are struggling to hold it all together to be honest.
Remember a while back when I said I didn’t feel like talking because it would bring everyone down… ? It’s still the case. I just don’t know where to start at times.
I’m sorry I’ve not been in touch. I did uninstall the app for a while. I love this site, and everyone in it. I need better anxiety treatment than the last thing I mentioned, Sertraline doesn’t even scratch the surface. I need stronger anxiety focused medication, or I don’t stand a chance to stay completely teetotal.
I’m going to make an appointment with my doctor again, and I’ll put my foot down and ask for better medication. I just don’t know what to ask for, but I think I need to be specific. I feel like doctors play it too careful to be helpful at times.
In the meantime, I look forward to starting a new 100 day challenge with you 
Sending lots, and lots of love you Jaz, and to you all 