Alright, deal 
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You are always welcome, head above or under water, never mind 
Keep going. Back to basics is always an option, back to babysteps & minitasks too. I do it constantly and it helps me through days that are tough or when I’m not at my best.
Don’t forget HALT. It became my goto for all life challenges big and small.
Thanks for the update 
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@Gorden where you been? 
Haven’t seen you on here or on strava
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Thank you so much 
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Hi! Thanks for checking in. My classes this semester are somewhat grueling and I’m not on here too much. I made it to 90 days!!! I still have a constant nagging mental craving.. I did start back on 150 mg bupropion and it’s helping my mental state/ adhd focus a bit. (Weed was my self medication for a loooonnngggg time) I have been painting when I can, and we are getting yard ready for garden. Are you doing any art these days?
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Of course! I’m sorry to hear your classes feel so grueling, but I’m so glad to hear that you’ve made the choice to not use cannabis to try and change that feeling! Congratulations on your 90 days, that’s a huge accomplishment, especially considering how long you’ve self medicated with weed!!! 
Also good to hear you’re trying a medication to help with the cravings. I hope it helps!
Any fun projects you’re working on? I’ve been working on my Warhammer models slowly but surely, and attempting to create new collage pieces! It’s been nice getting back into the swing of things! I just planted some carrot seeds in my garden. I’m looking forward to a bountiful carrot harvest this year! What are you planning on planting this year?
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My husband usually does all the tomatoes, we usually have peppers, herbs, and this year we’re making a large container for potatoes and sweet potatoes. I think we’re going to cover crop a few of the beds with black beans to help replenish the nitrogen. Zucchini, cucumbers and arugula. Just got a hook up today for horse poo so I think the beds will be doing really good this seaso
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Yeah, these last 90 days have had a lot of tears. No numbing out. Feeling ALL the feels.
Making art without weed is different. These are what I’m working on now. I started using oil, on top of the acrylic these are about 1/2 way through I think
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Wow that sounds like a great variety. I’m definitely looking forward to hearing how it goes! There is a gardening thread already created, if you ever want to share your garden I’d love to see!
I can relate to crying on an almost daily basis during the first few months, I was a leaky vessel for a while as well! For me that did subside after some time, I hope that it will for you too! As cathartic as crying can be, crying “too much” is difficult to handle over a long period of time.
These look amazing! I love all three, but I like the frog so much. I can’t wait to see when you finish them! I know creating art sober is different and at times difficult, but it seems like you are tapping into your ability pretty well so far! 
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These are really lovely. You certainly are a talented artist. Thank you for sharing them.
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Thank you so much! I’m having fun doing them, the idea came through right before I quit weed and it’s based on something I was doing in childhood with crayons. The frog will eventually have some gold on it. The dreams after I became sober for the first few weeks were full of animals. They were amazing. I’m still having some animal dreams even now. Day 93!!
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I love that the animals are guiding you thru this part of your journey!!
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Yes!! Yesterday or the day before, I had a dream that I had a large pet raven! It was behaving sort of like a dog, that likes to cuddle. Super weird and cute! I looked up the meaning of that interaction and it checked out.
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A little update on my mishap for you Sassy and @Alisa,ive found the colour that I expected to have the first time around, i got a sample this time just to make sure, im half through painting my bedroom now so ill finish the hall off next week,first effort top 
,how its gonna be bottom,have a great Easter weekend everyone 
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I like the sagey green color!!
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@Desire2ChangeToday haven’t heard much from you after your slip. I hope all is ok.
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Guys… 
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Anyone have any Tomi updates? (Rain666). Hope he’s well
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He’s active on Strava still.
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