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[JazzyS]

Great to see you Martha.

[JazzyS]

@SelfLove_42
Hey E - how are you doing? Hopefully we’ll and enjoying your vacation. ( Think it was coming up around now)

[Jasty2]

Hey @Marlowe. How you doing Rob? You still around?

[anon68572606]

@RobZombie and @SleeplessMoonlight

Wishing you both all the best this New Year. Hope you’re both doing well.

[happyfeet]

Hello @Daniellegurl haven’t seen you on your thread in quite a while.
Wishing you all the best and a happy New Year.
Hope you’re doing well

[JazzyS]

@Nursewrachett how are you doing? Haven’t seen you in a while. Hope you are well

[Crazy_Dutchie]

Hi there
I’m still alive and kicking! Thanks for thinking of me
Due to the nature of my addiction I’ve decided to follow a path that can’t be considered sobriety. Since I have great respect and admiration for the people and the community, I’ve decided not to share anything about my path. I don’t want anyone with a substance addiction following my path since physically it’s usually a lot more painful than my technology addiction and potentially lethal.
Though, I must say, I miss this place. It gets lonely out there…

[Noshame]

I know that dutchie there

Stay strong

Nice to hear from you

[Noshame]

Just incase you don’t recognize me

Its matt
The man behind the stickman figure in my old profile pic lol

[SinceIAwoke]

I respect your decision, Jan. Blessings on your house .

[Crazy_Dutchie]

Hi Rosa
At the moment I’m doing pretty good
Though I’ve really started to hate my manager again For some reason, I always have manipulative unprofessional managers
I’ve started working with the professional help, though I am quite a disaster… She, nor her colleagues knows what to do with my inability to just brush my teeth
I’ve started working with my dad, which is interesting to say the least… He denies the years of abuse, doesn’t believe everyone from our family is traumatized, doesn’t believe I have ADHD nor autism, is extremely right wing (which is not by definition a bad thing, simply the complete opposite of me, so dont go make this political y’all) and straight up dumb… It’s a hoot and a half
Luckily I know my struggles and I know they are real, so it doesn’t affect me too much. But, obviously my family isn’t exactly excited that I’m working with him…
And like a alluded to in my last reply, I’m getting lonely. I’ve been on dating apps for 2 months now and so far only one person actually chatted with me, so that wasn’t too great for my ego.
My coworkers are very chatty with me at work, but they never invite me to their parties.
I don’t do much social outside of work since I don’t know where to start.
It’s really been hurting my self esteem to be honest. I thought putting myself out there would be a good thing. But instead it has done more harm than good. I know I’m boring to be around until I get out of my comfort zone, but damn, no one even gives me a change to get out of my shell
To be honest, I’m not doing pretty good, I think I’m heading towards a new depression.
Oh, and I don’t have a lot of people to talk to which you probably noticed from that info dump

[Crazy_Dutchie]

Of course I remember you Matt! Great to see you
How are you doing? Are you staying off the devil’s grass and avoiding the bad influences in your life?

[Crazy_Dutchie]

Thanks Dan, I appreciate that

[Noshame]

Yes sir

My circle is small but strong

The devils lettuse is over-rated
No fun

243 days no alcohol
13 days no weed
174 no vapes or ciggs

[SoberGuyUSA]

Can you maybe just interact with others here to support your mental health?

[Crazy_Dutchie]

I could, but I don’t want to unintentionally influence newly sober folks to think they can live in active addiction.

Potentially triggering text

If I somehow found out someone relapsed after reading me talking about how my life is legitimately better in active addiction than in recovery, it would mess me up for a long time.

I don’t want to take that risk for me nor do I want to take that risk for them.
I’d rather suffer in silence then be a burden, one of my greatest defects.

[Curtis-81]

Hello. Thank you for wondering about me😁. I’m doing ok I guess. I just haven’t been very active lately.

[M-be-free49]

Good to hear from you! Been missing pictures of your “office”, not to mention your canine colleague.
Hope all is well in your world.

[Curtis-81]

Thank you. I get the winter time blues and haven’t been in much of a mood for pictures. It’s that time of year when my work is cold and miserable and I try not to go. I don’t ski or snowboard so my mountain fun is shut down till spring and my dog is pissed at me for it. My program got all screwed up for a while and was doing more harm than good. I made some major changes to that with my therapist so hopefully I won’t struggle so much.
I do appreciate being called out for hiding away. I have a bad habit of disappearing when my brains feel broken. I love this community and you guys are my friends so I will try not to isolate from here.
No matter how tough the struggle I will not stop fighting and I still own every second of my clean time.
524 days no booze
142 days no tobacco
Thanks again my friends for thinking of me and I’m happy to be back.

[JazzyS]

Great to see you Curtis! I totally understand those winter blues… glad you are going to try to keep checking and working with your therapist to make some changes.
We missed you and looking forward to seeing you around