I’m sorry to hear that the move is going so badly. We’re you able to find a different place to stay?
Wishing you luck in finding your way back home 
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Yes i found a way better place to stay but still costing me alot of money ugh that i don’t have and thank you
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Hey Ms Jasmine!!! Thank you so much for the thought 
I am doing well, and have to get back into checking in…even if its just quick. The change of working (and it not beinf at home) has been a huge change this last month but i am so far loving and so grateful each day. I think part of me feels like if I dont gave half an hour to check in then I dont have time, but really 5 min is all one needs Ive been scrolling, but by the time im checking out on my app Im about to pass out. thanks for checking in and hope youre doing well too Jasmine! Xo.
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Good to hear from you. Glad you are doing well with the new job and totally understand the schedule getting busy.
Always love reading your posts… check in when you can 
I’m doing well- thanks for asking 
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@19801 I hope that you are well, I just realised that I haven’t seen you around in a good while!
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Hello lovely! Im all good thank you very much 
still sober …getting ready for Christmas with my little family! Cant wait. How are you @Tragicfarinelli? Much love 
xx
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All good thanks. I’ll pm you in the next few days. Miss you 
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Ok my dear that be nice xx
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Kelly! My fellow rockstar, I was actually thinking about you the other day, and I’m so glad to read this update.
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Back to day 3 on moving on from suicidal thoughts. And day 9 of no sexual impulse. It’s hard moving on from something that “helped” get me through so much. Hard to separate those feelings from my own self worth. I struggle with Persistent Depression Disorder (dysthymia) as well with still trying to find medication that works. I feel like my world is crashing around me. I’m on the verge of losing my family because I tried to break away in the past and failed. I’m just scared I’m going to fail again. It brings back all of those thoughts again and it becomes an endless spiral.
Trying to get through the days. The hours even. Idk. I’m trying to be here. I’m trying to be me. I just don’t know and I’m scared if I’ll still be loved by the people I love the most. I feel so broken, like who would want me? I say affirmations out loud though. I do what I can to not say the negative parts out loud and only the parts that are there to
help me. I am not my negative thoughts. But hard to say that they are not me
Aww thanks Amy! Yeah things are great! How are you? Much love fellow rockstar xx
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Good morning @JazzyS and @M-be-free49! Thanks for thinking of me! I am doing good, still sober, 1535 days and some change. Staying busy with life and all that comes with it. Hope you are both doing good as well
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Great to hear from you and glad you are doing well .
All good here …still working happily in my sober journey 
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I must have felt you asking about me Jaz thank you for asking for me, you’re an amazing woman x
Me… Well that’s a longer story. I know I mentioned before that we were buying a new home, but I don’t remember if I mentioned we have moved in? The house and settling in has kept me preoccupied, as has my family. I sadly have not been sober, and I have been struggling with it. As usual, it’s not day time stuff, it’s at night. I love my husband, but at the mere mention of some wine I have been folding. All my resolve gone. I know I have to be personally accountable for my own actions, but I could really do without the temptation. As he is the one that drinks with me, he also is a problem drinker, but he’d never admit it or say it aloud. I have been sticking my head in the sand rather than come here and talk to you all when I’m being tempted. I am here now nonetheless, licking my wounds a bit. Stress and anxiety has been very high, those are my kryptonite. I haven’t thought too much about how I’m going to manage that going forward, but I expect I’ll have to see the doctor to help get my anxiety levels down. Checking in here today is my first baby step in the right direction.
How are you Jaz? I hope you’ve been well sweetheart x
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You have made me so happy today. Was beautiful seeing your name pop up. Congratulations on moving into the new home ( I think you were still closing on it the last time we chatted).
I’m sure all that along with your son’s health and your anxiety is a lot to deal with. We have to remember that the sense of relaxation or relief we get from drinking is false and riddled with so many other issues. It actually keeps the anxiety high and messes our sensory system so we can’t actually really relax. I know you already know this my friend. You deserve to be living your sober best life. Maybe read back to your earlier days in TS and see how amazing you felt. I have faith you will get back there.
So happy that you have come here. No shame my friend. We have all been in that rotten cycle and need the support from our peers to get out of it.
Maybe ask your husband to not ask you to drink at night. Have your own beverages in hand that way you don’t feel the urge? It is harder when your partner is drinking. Sending strength to you and hope that he can respect your desire to become sober and hopefully do what he can to support this decision
I’m doing well enough. Have some hard days now and then but staying in the sober track. We have not chosen a easy road but I do know that this path is the better choice.
Much love to you my friend…hope I see you around more.
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Hello! Thanks for thinking of me
I am fine. Life is pretty hectic and I’m either parenting, working or sleeping. I definitely need to slow down a bit. Hope you are still doing well!
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