Hello
This is Sam, I am a 30 year old guy who had everything going on for him. Work, life, gf, starting my own business. I lost everything becauze of drinking. Drinking and Driving is what ruined me. After my 3rd dui now I am on a house arrest, which led me not starting my business because i have to spend 20k in legal, fines, classes. I have decided to never drink again and I am 5 days sober today. After my ex and I broke up I went down hillā¦ it was cociane and drinking every weekend to overcome this lonliness. Going to bars and picking up girlsā¦ i want to stop everything now. Drinking doesnt fix anything, you spend more and once you are sober you feel like hell and still have your problems to deal with.
I am looking forward to spending time doing more productive things. Pay off my debt and start my business if no one else has come up with the idea. I want to be sucessful. I like this fourm and the support it offers. I am here for anyone who wantz to talk, share stories.
If I go out I normally only took enough cash to buy me 2-3 drinksā¦ leave everything else in car or give it to your friends who you can trust. If you dont want to completely stop then this will stop you from blacking out and eventually move to virigin drinksā¦ my really good friend all he drinks is ginger ale
Hello, my name is Alisha and I canāt believe that Iām back in this same place AGAIN! Like the first time recovering from painkillers and pills in general wasnāt sufficiently difficult and painful enough that I thought, hey letās try this addiction thing again. Smh. Iām very disappointed in myself and pretty astonished by how crafty and cunning my addiction truly is. I like to think of my addiction as an actual entity, who is a part of me and always will be but how much I let him participate is ever changing. When I am strong, confident, sober, positive, etc I am starving him and therfore he gets weaker and his voice and presence becomes meek, softer and actually easier to ignore and keep grounded. But when I engage in negative self-talk, use drugs, treat myself poorly, etc these things actually feed him and help him become stronger, louder and much more powerful, which is much more difficult to ignore. Right now heās as strong as ever and Iām realizing that denial was his choice of weapon. He knew that I was finished with opiates and pills such as benzos, and he couldnāt gain control that way, so he looked for another point of entry. I would tell myself every time I did another drug well itās okay bc Iām not doing pills so Iām okay and can control my usage. I canāt believe I could be so foolish.
Iām going to cut this short bc Iāve already written a novel and havenāt even braised the surface of the entanglement that is me. Buick extremely grateful for this app,. /forum and really hope with your help that this time sobriety sticks and I never have to go through this ever again bc addiction is a prison and I would never wish it upon anyone. My prayers and thoughts are with anyone suffering from this truly insidious disease first hand or affected by it in some way. Stay strong and stay up! Believe in yourself. You can beat this bc you are amazing and so incredibly brave. Stay with us, please. Xoxo (Iām also talking to myself) xoxo
Iām Ju. Thatās not my real name but that doesnāt matter. Iām 20 years old, and I have struggled with substance problems since 15. For the past 5 years I have tried about 20 different drugs, including but not limited to lsd, weed, opiates, benzodiazepines, 25i-nbome, doc, etc. etc. It starts out cool, you think youāre in control (āI wonāt end up like in the movies or those freaks you see on the streetā), then shit starts to snowball and before you know it youāve got a bigger problem than you know how to deal with. Depression, anxiety, depersonalization, suicidal thoughts, borderline psychotic episodes, obsessions, racing thoughts, the list goes. Iām scared. Iāve struggled with mental issues since I was only a child, which leads me to believe all this monkey business is a form of self medicating. Whatever, Iām stoned, drunk and zombied on the benz. Sobriety starts tomorrow, wish me luck.
Hi, Iām Denise Iām 26 with two small children. Iām married, been so for going on two years. I had my first drink at age 13, didnāt drink again for about 4 years. I started dating an older guy and had access to alcohol whenever I wanted. I have drank almost every day since, I think when I first left that relationship I went for about 3 months without drinking but thatās the longest Iāve gone. My decision to quit 7 days ago came after a huge argument between myself and my husbandās sister. We were all pretty drunk so things escalated rather quickly. Things got ugly hurtful things were said and I realized that I was tired. At 26 Iāve been through so much unnecessary crap due to my drinking. Iām very new to this but I am ready, this is a great app Iām loving what Iām seeing and I appreciate the support that Iāve already been given.
@Ju_Hao, Welcome I hope today was good and you have succeeded on your goal for today. If you need anything IM me. Remember your higher power and always be thankful for the blessings that have been bestowed on you and the things that you have accomplished. So your higher power grant you another day of Great accomplishments. Another thing you will find if you keep your hands busy and your mind will follow. The mind is the devilās workshop so we have to keep her hands busy so the devil cannot play. Good luck and I will be praying for you.
Hi Iām Jamie 25 I was addicted to Xanax for about 3 or 4 years everydayā¦ I just recently relapsed on cocaine and lost the love of my life but I can come back and willā¦
Hi Iām Chris
When I seperated from my wife 11yrs, alcohol became my new relationship, but I didnāt know at the time, or didnāt want to know.
When I finally admitted that I did have a problem, things began to get worse.
After 3yrs of relapses, I know now itās part of the road to recovery.
So Iām here, after relapse numberā¦, I have no clue, determined to get sober, to accept myself, instead of pushing away the hurt and pain to meet it with kindness.
Anyways thatās me for now.
Thankyou all. Have a great day.
Hi everyone. Im Will. I am 33. I am addicted to opiods. I have 3 beautiful children and a nice house. A great job and a decent truck. I am blessed. Yet through all that I still fight with depression and feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness. Im going thru a lengthy divorce. Luckily I have my kidsā¦they are the reason Im alive and the reason Im hereā¦trying to stay sober. I started dabbling with percocet over 10 yrs ago. Before that all I had done was drink. But looking back i have always had addictionsā¦just not always unhealthy ones. Highschool football, weightlifting, bodybuildingā¦stuff like that. When I was that age I looked down on addictsā¦considered them weak and stupidā¦nowā¦here I amā¦2 months behind on the mortgageā¦all because I said ā¦heckā¦why not? Over 10 years ago. My use really increased to a very problematic stage about 6 yrs ago. I kept it at bay for a long timeā¦my good paying job allowed me to keep up with my habitā¦15$-20$ a day was doable. Then as the law cracked down and demand went up so did the price. Now it was 40$ a day. Thats getting tightā¦As time progressedā¦so did my habitā¦eventually I began dabbling in heroin but it wasnt my preferred drug. Thank God I never shot up. Oxy is my kryptonite. Last years holidays were particularly rough on me. My exes problems and demands for money forced me to cash out my 401k to help her keep the lights on and to let her buy the kids Christmas. So I gave her her half and used a bunch of mine to feed my addiction. Then I developed a 100$ a day problem. In February I was at the end of my rope and I begged my parents for help. They already knew I had a problem but couldnāt prove it or know how to approach it. It was very difficult because ive always been responsible and self reliant. Luckily they were gracious and helped me out. I stayed clean a whopping 10 days before I started back a little at a time and before long was back to 100$. Now here I amā¦I took my last pill Sunday morning. Its Thursday now. I got a suboxen strip to help the withdrawal(I dont recommendā¦just really delaying the imminent withdrawal till the long holliday weekend. I took 4mg sun. 3 mon 2 tues and less than 1mg yesterday. Its long half life should keep me semi-normal till tomorrow. Then the hurting begins. I say bring it. Ive beat the physical pain before. The sickness I can handle. Its days 8-10 that I get stressed that always make me falter. I āneedā just ā1ā. Then you know where that leads. This time Im doing it different. This time I have yall. You all understand. You have been here. Im also going to start na. I need physical contact and accountability. Thats about it. Any questions comments or snide remarksā¦Lolā¦will be appreciated. I cant beat thisā¦but we can.
6 days sober and going strong! My addiction to alcohol controlled the last 10 years of my life. Starting with weekend long benders, spiralling into dependence. stress, depression and anxiety would set in if i didnt know where i was going to get my next drink. Ruining relationships and leaving me with massive debt, i didnt care, i either wanted to get loaded or die.
Yes. I have. It works pretty well. But Iām just trying to be done. Period. I know me. And I know if I take enough kratom I will get a mild euphoric feeling. And then ill take more and more. By months end ill be buying 150$ a week in kratom. This is day 3 of no subs day 6 of no pills. I feel great. I know I still have many rough days ahead of me but Iām just going to rejoice in this moment today with my wonderful kids.
xoxo
Congrats on taking the first big step.
Unlike some of us who wasted decades in a destructive cycle.
