Hey, glad you’re here. Always remember no one is ahead or behind.
Just glad you’re taking time to put Jesus in your heart..that’s all that really matters.
But, i love your answers.
“You hit the nail on the head.”
This is that literal deep connection with the Lord.
Very proud. 
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Matthew Chapter 6
Awe thank you!! I absolutely love that passage 31-34. It brings a sense of peace into my life 
Part 16. In Jesus mighty name.
@JazzyS
@Butterflymoonwoman
@Jette
@Amelie
@WCan
Glory to the Most High, Jesus.
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In the last two weeks, well more like the last 2 months. Life has been moving up quickly. In the last month. Everything God has changed and done, he took hard things and fixed them with ease. I felt this in my soul. Without Jesus, most things are dead. All the money, all the love, the care. Nothing competes with God.
I felt that rush the last 3 weeks in my life. Hunting, fishing, making money, hanging with my son. You name it. God changed everything.
But, i woke up today and truly asked myself, did i give thanks, did I praise Jesus in all that is in the last 3 days?
I have not.
He brought so much in the last 2 weeks, and I haven’t truly said Thank you.
So I went to Church today, and I felt bad.
This is something that since I have corrected, and will do more. 3 days and no deep bible study? No deep talks, no prayer??? Hmmm..
Even in the best, we give praise to the Most High. Or before you know it, all feels dead, or all is lost.
To humble ourselves before God, to realize just how far He got us. Because if we could do it by ourselves, and have it all together… i don’t think we would be here..
No one is perfect, not me, im far from it. But Gods grace, love AND direction is more powerful, and more fulfilling then anything in this world.
He has it all.
The past 3 days I haven’t woken up and brought myself to humbleness, a balance. Just kept wanting to feel higher on life and God.
There is 2 choices, humble myself, or ask God to help me. Or watch it turn to nothingness, because without the Glory to God, its all nothingness, all vanity, all being lead astray.
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Lets get to one of the toughest parts now…
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Lets get to it.
Once again you need to admit the past hurts - what others did to you and the harm that you caused others. Explain how holding on to your past resentments and guilt has blocked your recovery. Be specific.
Next you are ready to make your list.
List the names of those to whom you think you owe amends to. Then list those who have hurt you and who you need to forgive. Keep this on your mind for the next 30 days, and see what God, Jesus has revealed in that time as well. Begin praying and taking an honest account over time within our savior Jesus.
Who do you have on your recovery support team to encourage you as you make your amends and offer your forgiveness?
What does the phrase not for them mean to you?
What does the phrase “don’t expect anything back to you” mean?
Timing is important in this step. List individuals who could be possibly injured from your making amends and why?
Go back to the “start living the promises” section of amends. List some of the promises of recovery that are coming true in your life!
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Take your time. This is all between you, God and one other TRUSTED person of God, Jesus.
Just wanted to say, if you decide to get back more into the Bible. I’ll be doing another deep dive into The Book of Daniel, truly, one of my overall favorites about loyalty to God first, and His power.
Anywyas, have a good night. Sleep well.
Yes the Book of Daniel is a great one. 
This song reminds me of the Book of Daniel. Anyways hope you have a great day!
“I will go before you and make the crooked places straight” Oh I needed to read this. What a beautiful sentiment 
I am slowly working on my part 14
Good to see this thread show up again 
Oh, i got a whole book i can send you for free and ill pay for shipping costs.
Its a pretty cool book, its my favorite.
So many beautiful sentiments.
Part XIV
I have invited Him in and want Him to guide me through my life and stay connected to me each and every day!Always know, God accepts and loves you Jazz.
Your honesty, is what is truly beautiful and your desire to see and want to change through God.
I must say with everything going on, I had forgotten about how I said I would do part 17..
Let me get to it.. lets draw a plan, lets talk Jesus, the bible and Hope.
Just getting home here in about 20 minutes.
Bring Jesus to the center of the table.
. Thank you for saying this. I am feeling blessed with His love. Like it is very real and visible to me. I am so very grateful for that.
Lol…yeah days seem to be moving by very quickly. No worries…glad you still have time to make good on your word
I love it! A great plan and talk awaits
@JazzyS
@Butterflymoonwoman
@Jette
@WCan
@SoberVigilant
@Amelie
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PART 17.
Well, here we are, gathered in Jesus name.
It’s been a crazy long 3 weeks that Jesus brought me too. I filled my heart with anger, my body stressed, and my emotions high. Ive yelled, ive swore, ive been far from peace. As time went on, I prayed to Jesus..
Please help me let goo. So I can move forward with Jesus closer to my heart. Anger, all these emotions only caused separation.
As time went on, I grew more calm. Those who I felt disrespected by, Jesus helped me let go.
I forgave, I dont want it to hold me. All is done, all is forgiven..
What is interesting here, is I wasn’t angry.. i simply felt abandoned. Then the only person who was there, left today.
But, I let it go. I had the whole job to myself. I spoke the name of Jesus and a wave of peace came over, not resentment, not anger. But, joy..
Abandonment is tough. In my childhood I didn’t know it affected me a lot until I was 24 years old. One day when I was 24, everything came crashing in. Like a jolt of awareness. It fucking sucked. I never thought that it had that much of a hold on me.. then I realized a few things..
I never held people close, never formed long lasting relationships friends or more.. never got vulnerable, never let people in to far.. and beyond all, my hurt made me use others.
Hurt people, hurt people.
There was more in my childhood then abandonment, way more, but, all I can say… all I want to express, is Jesus brought His power and healed me so much in these 9 months.
Over time, over prayer, over it all. It was Him and only Him that guided me and lead me out of my own Exodus, out of my own prison.
The power of Jesus, is like no other.
Without Him, non of my life would be at its best.
It’s all His. I gave up, so He could do His work..
All Glory, Our King, Jesus Christ.
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Lets get to it..
As you look at the three kinds of forgiveness, which one of them was the easiest for you to accept? Why?
Which area of forgiveness was the most difficult? Why?
Open your bibles, what do the words of Christ found in John 19:30 mean to you?
(This is just me writing, to this day it such a random question they writer wrote in.. I would suggest reading all of John 19, or skip)
What hurts from your past are you still holding in? Do you have new ones?
How are you trying to let go of the hurts?
Do you owe God any amends? When will you give it to Jesus?
How have you been blaming God for the harmful actions that others took against you?
Have you forgiven yourself? What past actions in your past do you feel guilty and shameful about?
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Closing..
Tonight, I had a Church event. Jesus, The Bible and Fellowship.
To talk, to laugh, to cry, to be vulnerable, to feel free. What a blessing, the biggest blesing a person could recieve.
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I forgave it all, so I could be free in Jesus’s care. I forgave it all, because, I was far from perfect, because at one time or another, I worked for the devil. But, the devil no longer has my heart, doesn’t have me.
Life goes on and everything is so new, I pray that Jesus bears with me as I let go and see what He has to offer, so new, so beautiful, so many changes.
Good night
Bible study tomorrow, bright and early..
Interesting read… A few year’s ago I decided if I want to be forgiven for it all I have to be willing to forgive all. I had even thought about writing my alcoholic abuser in prison and even felt in my heart that I should visit him. I truly thought I had forgiven all until my little sister OD’ed and died back in March. I instantly thought her blood is on his hands now and was and still am pissed. Why does he get to live and she’s dead. That’s what I wondered. The poor thing was simply not able to live a clean and sober life because of the way he treated us despite of all her efforts she had to find an escape from those memories. I know this because myself and my middle sister was in the same exact boat and he’s doing 113 year’s in prison. My cousin said something interesting to me which is sometimes you can’t love other’s the way they love, you got to love how you love. Anyways it made good sense to me. I read somewhere once that the final act of love is forgiveness. I can’t imagine everything Jesus went through and still able to forgive it all. I hope to one day to be able to do the same. I’ve definitely got a bitter spot. But this is my go to song for peace. Didn’t mean to blow up your thread lol. Hope you have a great day at Bible study.
Thank you for tagging me on this. I love reading your book, it gives a new perspective on the 12-step content that I’m familiar with. And it made me laugh to think: I have to make the rest of my life into a living amends to God! One day at a time.
Oh… fuck. I’m sorry that all that happened..so close. But, thats so sad.. 
There is another idea to add to this, you will love a way, i will love a way. But another level is understanding how a person likes to loved, or of course as friends, cared for is another good word.
That deep understanding of what a person needs and brings joy.
This is what this thread is about.
All the healing, anger, sadness, hurts, pain, love, joy and tears. The questions, the vents.
This thread is here for those who want a space, in Jesus name.
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I appreciate you, Melissa.
The laughs, the jokes, the oppeness, the vulnerability, the smiles.
You’re a wonderful person. I’m glad to have met you. Thank you, for your time.
Indeed, God is life.
Everyday, all day.
Not just for our sobriety, but everything else too.
Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. I’m glad I met you too Andre. 
One thing I’ve learned from being on here is most people have or have had problems and I’m not alone. Side note… my therapist earns his money with me lol 
Yeah lol, im not God, but im pretty sure everyone on here has problems. Its why we are here.
No one wakes up and says, Im going to get addicted to something that will ruin my life! Well, i never did.
