Makes me very happy to read this. You keep moving forward one day at the time.
Altho, how is it possible that you can finish school a year early??
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I am dropping a level.
The top level is 6 years.
The level below that takes 5.
All levels below that 4.
I’m dropping from the highest level of education to the 2nd highest level of education.
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Ah ok! A different system to what we have, that’s what I was thinking.
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The peace has gone (temporarily). My shower wouldn’t become hot, so I had to take a cold shower, which I really dislike. But then again, it’s not the end of the world. In a week I will have forgotten about my cold shower
I am filled with serenity again.
I nearly made my deadline at work. I am really proud of myself for that. Deadlines at work are nearly impossible to make, because they don’t properly take in account the time it takes to stock first in first out. I have never worked so hard. I was really motivated.
This evening, I wrote a poem for my secret sinterklaas(dutch version of secret santa which is on december 5th), which we will finally be celebrating tomorrow after a lot of postponing because of the big bad, “covid”. We will be celebrating my birthday at the same time as that will be next week Tuesday. I’ll be a legal adult then…And my best friend will come over to celebrate my birthday.
Wednesday I’ll sleep at my dad’s place. Really looking forward to that, eventhough he will try to manipulate me constantly. I just don’t believe a single thing about what my dad claims about my mom. I am finally able to recognize his manipulative behaviour, which includes saying he would never manipulate me 
Really happy I can finish school this year.
I am really grateful for all of you guys. I hope you guys can experience the peace I’m feeling now.
Good night 
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February 21st 2021
Today is the day I’ve been waiting for for over 2 months. It’s finally time we celebrate secret Santa. And it’s always fun to see my family again. Though I am worried about my brother. He’s at my dad’s place even though, he really hated him for quite some time. He hated me for making up with my dad and now he’s there himself. I hope my dad won’t be stupid enough to manipulate my brother, but he probably will. So there is a decent chance my brother will hate my mom’s guts the next few weeks and my dad will probably talk shit about my sisters too, so fun times today 
Further, I’m filled with peace. My cat took a shit in my room at 2 am, I didn’t get angry with my cat, not even annoyed, I just accepted that my mom didn’t think the idea of not having a litter box whilst my cat isn’t castrated through. I am not letting my cat go outside during the night to risk him getting an STD from fighting or impregnating another cat. And I found cat turds behind the couch as well, just accepted that my cat took a shit and cleaned it, no hard feelings. Murdock is finally becoming more affectionate again after moving, really makes me happy he’s not scared of me anymore, it helps me forgive myself.
I am looking forward to today. We will do a Jeffrey(my brother)-bingo where we cross of things he usually does. My bingo-card contains things like: “homo”, “pussy”, sexist remark, racist remark, anti-blue remark, staring at women and being obsessed with sex. Those are things he actually does daily 
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Hi Jan,
I hope you have a nice day. Hopefully you are underestimating your brother’s ability to make up his own mind about other members of your family. Also it was nice of the cat to leave you a present but it sounds like it is rubbish at playing secret Santa. 
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Thanks Graham, let’s hope the past won’t repeat itself indeed. My cat should probably stick with his “who can sleep in the weirdest position” games
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The past didn’t repeat itself apparently, my brother was not upset, with my family, at all today 
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Today was a good day. I felt peace again. I won “Jeffrey-bingo”. This means he was misogynistic, racist, homophobic, belittling and anti-blue, so nothing out of the ordinary. I received a game for my birthday, which should be quite fun. For secret santa I also received a game: carcasonne. I really love that game, so quite happy with it. This evening adobe acrobat decided to screw me out of €20 euros by writing off money on the 7th day of a one week trial, so I went full pro on finding out how to get my money back.
Step 1. Google “How to cancel adobe subscription” and follow the instructions.
Step 2. Get your money back…
I panicked for nothing lol.
In 25 hours it will be my 18th birthday, can’t wait
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February 22nd 2021
I’ve finally started reading “atomic habits” by James Clear. Big shout out to @apes2020 for suggesting it
It said that if you want to end a bad habit or start a new one, start with identity.
I’m not trying to stop nailbiting, I don’t nailbite.
I’m not trying to be a tidy person, I am a tidy person.
Those are the habits I’m changing for now. I’ve already spent a few hours cleaning my room today, and not done yet
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Hey buddy isnt it your birthday today? If so happy birthday man! Finally a legal adult! At least here in the US anyways. All down hill from here lmao jk
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Almost, it’s the 23rd, but thanks for the congratulations anyways 
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Haha ill have to slip it in tomorrow 
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Amazing 
love this for you.
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February 23rd 2021
In 2 hours and 12 minutes it will have been 18 years since I was born. I am now officially a legal adult. Almost no one will visit me on my most important birthday because of covid. And I accept that. It’s a shame of the money I’m missing out on, but money isn’t everything. I’m just going to celebrate it with people who actually know me and don’t show up once a year to celebrate my birthday. You guys and my best friend who will be coming
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Happy birthday big guy! 18 is a big one. Feel like an adult yet?
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18!!! YAY 
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Nope, never
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Haha wait till you start waking up with a back ache lol.
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