Yup, it can be locked from 1 minute to 10 days and can’t be opened in any way during that time. I’ve only started using it today, but so far it ahs helped
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Goodnight TS. See you all tomorrow on my 2nd day of TV abstinence 
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524 days gamefree/1 day TV free
I survived yesterday without gaming or watching TV. I’m glad I did. I do notice I have lots more cravings for gaming. But they are incredibly weak. I’m pretty sure it was triggered by the fact I watched the office. I used to watch clips of the office whilst playing Forza Horizon 2. I also heard a song play a few days ago that also was in that racing game. And the podcast I listen to occasionally is the podcast I’d listen to playing that racing game. I remember a decent portion of the map again and saw many fragments of me playing it. And last night I kept thinking about Minecraft. I thought of a spider and tried to remember the name for the spider family and remembered there was an enchantment in Minecraft to do with spiders. And then what followed was a lot of fragments of me playing Minecraft and fragments of a Minecraft YouTuber I used to watch.
I don’t actually think they were cravings though, I think they were memories and nothing more. Yes, playing some Minecraft would be fun, but I’d rather do something else.
Today I’ve been making an inventory of all my lego sets. It’s lots of work, but fun stuff though. It keeps me from watching tv, youtube, Netflix or other bullshit.
I can honestly say that I can accept the person I am at the moment. And that’s great progress for me
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525 days gamefree/2(almost 3) days TV free.
Another day survived. The memories of me gaming are gone almost completely again. I’ve had some significant urges to watch youtube, so I looked at which sets I wanted to add to my lego collection instead. I’ve also had my best friend come over around 9:00 am, and then after he had worked, I went to his place. We mostly played board games and built LEGOs. All in all, today was a very successful day. Goodnight TS, I’m going to say hello to my pillow. See you all tomorrow 
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526 days gamefree/3(almost 4) days TV free.
Today was a pretty good day. I woke up around 13:15/1:15 PM, which is ridiculously late, but I don’t mind. I was well-rested all day. Work was okay; I had to stay longer and wait for the closing procedure to finish. The cashier doing the procedure didn’t announce finishing the procedure over the intercoms, so I had to stay an unnecessary additional 15 minutes. After having worked, I followed the TS meeting, which I highly recommend. It’s now 2:30 (AM), so I’m off to bed. Goodnight all.
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528 days gamefree/5 days TV free.
I’m angry; I feel left out and it’s affecting my self-image. And my stupid autism makes me smile when I’m angry because I suck at having a conversation when angry. After all, I have fucking autism or whatever is to blame, I’m simply not right in the head.
This is the kind of stuff my head consistently tells me. I am pissed about a small thing that doesn’t make a single difference in my life and my head finds an opportunity to make myself feel bad. I’ve even started writing about how horrible I was today, more or less implying that I’m a worthless swine. I’m not a worthless swine though, and my bad self-image can FRO. I know that today wasn’t perfect. I slept until 13:15/1:15 PM. But shit, I follow meetings late at night to strengthen my recovery. I haven’t watched TV in 5 days even though the finale of lego masters was on today. I was so fucking certain I’d relapse, but I didn’t. And to make it even better, it’s spring break. Weekends always fuck me up, but now I’m strong enough to survive spring break 
. I’m fucking crying writing this because it’s been so long since I’ve been genuinely kind to myself. I am going to get through this rough patch I’m dealing with. I may still hate myself, but it’s been getting better quickly this last week.
Today has actually been kind of good. Today started kinda bad because I was in bed for so long and felt like a disgusting pig. Then I spent the entire afternoon sorting LEGOs and listening to podcasts. It beats TV though, so it’s very acceptable behaviour during the early days. At 17:55/5:55 PM, 30 minutes after the start of the shift, the manager from my job asked if anyone could help them out as someone hadn’t shown up, so I said sure and worked this evening. Which resulted in that I couldn’t watch the finale of lego masters on live TV. And I don’t regret it at all. I think I’ll quickly write some compliments on post-its and put them on my wall as a self-love exercise now that I can appreciate myself enough to actually think of good things about me and now that I appreciate myself enough to even try to improve my self-image.
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I’m about to floss my teeth for the first time in my life. I am going to take the time to care for myself. That’s massive improvement
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529 days gamefree/6 days TV free.
I’m feeling worse again. I got out of bed at 13:30/1:30 PM feeling like a lazy swine again. I spent the afternoon sorting LEGOs and listening to podcasts again. And I spent part of the evening doing the same. Looking back, whenever I am doing something mindless, I turn on podcasts. Ever since I got out of rehab, I’d turn on my radio clock when sorting LEGOs. I guess that’s a potential addiction as well. I’ll stop listening to podcasts until I feel better. Otherwise, I risk podcasts being added to my list of addictions.
Anyway, tomorrow, school’s starting again. I’m sure that that will be a huge boost to my well-being.
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530 days gamefree/A week TV free
I am making a practice final for English, and out of the 13 texts I’ve had to analyze, 3 were related to gaming or movies and 1 is even romanticizing gaming addiction. What the fuck is this world coming to. Fucking bullshit. What if the actual finals are filled with texts about movies and games? I’ll be pissed when trying to make them when I need to be focused…
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I almost relapsed into gaming just now. I opened my PC and the first thing I saw was that stupid dinosaur in the chrome-browser that appears when you have no active internet connection. I almost pressed the spacebar out of habit. Oops 
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Good for you for staying strong !
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I made a total of 4 practicefinals for english today. I got an average grade of 9,075/89,775%/A-, which is fantastic.
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Nice job ! Glad you feel proud !! 
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It starts the 22nd of August. My plan is simply attendance and to make all homework at school.
534 days game free/ 11 days TV free/6 days of brushing teeth
It’s been a few days since I updated this thread. I suppose it could be bad news, but it doesn’t feel like it. I am on my longest streak of brushing teeth in years. I am on my longest streak of no addictions outside of rehab. (During my 17 days streak I occasionally watched youtube, moderately somehow, but it’s always moderately until it isn’t so the fact that I was “able” to moderate for a total of 5 days doesn’t mean apeshit). I’ve even flossed 6 days straight which is the first time I’ve flossed . I don’t feel like a worthless piece of shit. I don’t feel good about myself but better than a long time. Big shout out to @littlemisschatterbox @Andy_Charlie and @doug for introducing me to cologne, it has boosted my confidence big time, definitely worth the money. I think I’m going to start a water diet once I’m out of coke. It supposedly is better for your teeth and I’ve got nothing to lose anyway.
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Hey Jan, I’m very happy that you are doing well I’m so happy about the 6 days of brushing your teeth yay let’s go for more don’t put yourself down you are a great person . Remember what we told you about the perfume is the same with teeth. A big hug
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535 days game free/ 12 days TV free
I was up until 2:30 AM last night, listening to podcasts through YouTube. I’d put TS on another tap and just looked at the recent feed, whilst listening to podcasts for hours. I see a pattern where I say I’ll stop and then continue. Happened to TV too and look where that got me. I don’t think it is an addiction right now, but it could be. Do I really want to screw up another form of entertainment? No. Fuck that. No more podcasts for me until I’ve finished the 5th step, even though I haven’t even started the steps yet. I know my main struggle is resentments, mostly about myself.
On another note, I’m feeling really bad. My mom’s new boyfriend, I’ll call him Jacob from now on, and his brother and nephew are over at my house to put in a new floor. I’d never seen them and I was stressed about making a good impression. I walked into them working and I didn’t know if I should disturb them by greeting them, so I just sat down without greeting them, autism on full power and being upset with myself that I didn’t greet them. Made eye contact with the brother and said hi. So that was at least someone I’d said hi to. Then my mom just tells me, out loud, that I should greet people and that this is rude. Yes, I know that, I was busy hating myself for not doing so. She was right, but she straight up embarrassed me in public for the umpteenth time. She knows my struggle with selfhate, she knows that I have autism and she knows that it hurts me when she does that. So for the first time ever, I glared at her. I then went upstairs to my room. In her defence, she was trying to help me and she said it in another language than Dutch, but it is a language very similar to Dutch, so there’s a big chance they understood it. Jacob understood it straight away.
My mom followed me upstairs and I straight up broke down crying telling her that she knows how much I struggle with selfhate and social situations. So she told me that she tried to help and that I shouldn’t be upset, because she intended to help. Not a single fucking apology, she was just defending her actions. And eventually she walked away to later come upstairs again and ask me why I was still angry(I wonder where I got the autism from…). I told her she once again was more worried about defending herself than making up with me, so she then honestly apologized, so it was good. But I still had the situation with the people downstairs I’d been rude to. I waited on the top 3 stairs for 5 minutes until I had the courage to go downstairs and simply say hi.
My mom isn’t some asshole who embarrasses me in public intentionally. She’s socially clumsy and would never hurt me intentionally.
Fuck social anxiety and autism. I don’t know why I broke down crying over something relatively small, but I do feel relaxed now. Maybe withdrawals are fucking with me 
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I’m starting to realize that I don’t want to move to the middle of the country at all next year. My mom is jumping into a relationship once again. I don’t want to start my life over again. I’ve done it 11 times already, out of which 11 in the last 3 years. I find it incredibly hard with my autism to do that. I’ve finally settled. I’m starting to develop friendships in town. I’ve got a good job. My best friend lives here. I’ve got school here. I can’t lose everything again god damnit.
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Just remember, life comes at you from all directions, sometimes it’s fast and out of control. You are not the first person this has happened to nor will you be the last. You are not greater or lesser than anyone else.
The only constant is change. It happens with family,work, school, government, hobbies, spare time etc.
We all survive change, you will too.
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Nope, I’m over at my sister’s place. We went to my old job, where I had to quit because I had to move. The store is so beautiful. I’m thinking about the opportunities I’ve missed. I could have been a manager by now. I’m bitter. I want to change the past. So annoying.