Kids pulled a sicky,so had to take one of my two days off work off …
. I made them help me sort out old toys for eBay and got a parcel together for music magpie (old dvds, CDs and books for cash)…so productive , I am hoping they are going to understand that they have to be Real sick in the future for me to forfeit a days wage. 
. 85 days no alcohol.
Gotta get up and go to shop to get some coffee 
…ran out yesterday, whatever crutch I have is fine at the moment,so long as I don’t pick up alcohol,
88th day and I have overdosed on coffee today…found some ground stuff in my cupboard,not putting so much in tomorrow 
… gotta cut down… total addict 
90…I’m here. At 90
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U hit 90 days today? Wowwww thats whats up im 51 days in never hit 90 days in my life my gawddddd do I want this so bad ur diary is sick I like that . Congrats im just another soldier trying so hard to go that same path!!!
Well that was one hell of a 90th day,
A ‘Sargeant’ called my workplace this morning,and I shat my pants ‘what have I done now’!..
My children’s father was in a cell and couldn’t pick up the children, was quite worried about him but they wouldn’t tell me anything of course,but said it wasn’t because he was drunk,which I asked straight away…I had obviously made up a story in my head because of last weekend journal entry 
.my eldest daughter was home with the children so was all okay to an extent…
Later on I had a phone call from his current partner,she started by saying that he had had some sort of breakdown,he had had some moments of not knowing where he was and then had come to (just after a shower),and they’d been out for dinner and he couldn’t read the menu and his words weren’t coming out properly,then returned to the house he had just moved into and smashed the house up,blood,and police were called by a neighbor, mental health team was called and today he had been crying , confused,and scared and anxious.
It has upset me ,I had thoughts of drinking to be honest,but it’s not going to solve anything…
He has texted to say he’s okay and had sleep…
Pretty shitty and scary 90th day…
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95th day done, hadn’t done a meeting for maybe two weeks and grateful I got onto an online meeting tonight… I’ve been acting like an alcoholic without the alcohol last ten days…days have disappeared into each other,not doing much other than drinking shit loads of coffee…I’m an addict and I’ve got to arrest the addictive side of me. I surrender. I need help 
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98 days .
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Just amazing reading your journal! Keep going keep sharing 
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Half way through my 100th Day clean…I feel like I need to get back to spiritual principles cos I’ve got a little lost the last couple of weeks, smoking shit loads, drinking too much coffee,not doing much house work,Almost like a dry drunk but absolutely no where near close to shame and guilt about having a messy
house…Ive hot to stay close to other addicts and on this app as I have a day out and evening ahead with a best friend in active addiction and I need to be vigilant as I know addiction can be very persuasive…
Midnight and stepping into 105, at my best friends house this evening with his kids and my kids,was a bit apprehensive about it as he is a big drinker as I was, but it’s been lovely. I drank coca cola and I wasn’t tempted at all. It seems when you have days behind you drinkers want to know ‘how you did/do it’,seems drinkers want to stop and know they can’t stop and have tried to stop, same as I was. I can share my experience, show my strength and carry a message. That sobriety is possible 
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109 days and today’s addictions are the phone and coffee and cigarettes…boring not connected to anything spiritual, just detrimental.
112 days completed, all good in the hood,
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Beginning of day 116.
I’m good
I’m grateful
I’m noticing a stronger higher power and the little miracles that happen daily
I’m grateful I am sober
I’m grateful my children are all in my life on a daily basis
I’m grateful for the things I have
!(Wish I could get rid of a lot of things too)!
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Finished day 116.
Today other than now and THINKING about it I didn’t think of alcohol of drinking of getting wasted
of having a void i felt that I needed to avoid to fill with alcohol
I had no void today.
I am full.
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I am happy for you, you are doing great 
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This is my truth and has been a daily struggle…my mental health was not good last year…I clawed it back, I got sober but this is pushing me over again…I could literally break and go mental … just gonna have to do a lot of deep breathing.
127 days Sober, dealing with what life is and accepting. Changing what I have the courage to, . Some bits of life are heartbreaking. But my family and I are good 
, on the same page,…
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