Half way through my 100th Day clean…I feel like I need to get back to spiritual principles cos I’ve got a little lost the last couple of weeks, smoking shit loads, drinking too much coffee,not doing much house work,Almost like a dry drunk but absolutely no where near close to shame and guilt about having a messy house…Ive hot to stay close to other addicts and on this app as I have a day out and evening ahead with a best friend in active addiction and I need to be vigilant as I know addiction can be very persuasive…
Midnight and stepping into 105, at my best friends house this evening with his kids and my kids,was a bit apprehensive about it as he is a big drinker as I was, but it’s been lovely. I drank coca cola and I wasn’t tempted at all. It seems when you have days behind you drinkers want to know ‘how you did/do it’,seems drinkers want to stop and know they can’t stop and have tried to stop, same as I was. I can share my experience, show my strength and carry a message. That sobriety is possible
Beginning of day 116.
I’m good
I’m grateful
I’m noticing a stronger higher power and the little miracles that happen daily
I’m grateful I am sober
I’m grateful my children are all in my life on a daily basis
I’m grateful for the things I have
Finished day 116.
Today other than now and THINKING about it I didn’t think of alcohol of drinking of getting wasted
of having a void i felt that I needed to avoid to fill with alcohol
I had no void today.
I am full.
This is my truth and has been a daily struggle…my mental health was not good last year…I clawed it back, I got sober but this is pushing me over again…I could literally break and go mental … just gonna have to do a lot of deep breathing.
127 days Sober, dealing with what life is and accepting. Changing what I have the courage to, . Some bits of life are heartbreaking. But my family and I are good , on the same page,…
Feeling exasperated, worried, stressed. I just would like the lodge in the garden finished so my eldest can be in there . It costs so much money just have a couple of plug sockets in ,that I feel I’m being ripped off.
A few days from 7 months sober… l let go and the universe has carried me to today. Incredible. I don’t struggle to not drink, I don’t desire to drink, I had had enough and asked for help, searched for help, used the help , , I’ve got to work on helping others ……it’s not all for ME!..
IT (universe power) is all about (around) me though. Can’t deny it
house…Ive hot to stay close to other addicts and on this app as I have a day out and evening ahead with a best friend in active addiction and I need to be vigilant as I know addiction can be very persuasive…
, on the same page,…
…it’s not all for ME!..
