I watched Michael Pollen’s recent documentary on this. Fascinating. I hope it can help people with addiction or mental illness more and more.
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Sitting with feelings; my children’s dad got engaged on a trip to New York/Niagara Falls… I knew it was happening cos he told me back in September,we are mostly good friends and I’m happy for him as his last relationship was shocking…i still got a pang when I saw the announcement tho; probs to do with my ego. I am going to explore my feelings today ; I hope they will be happy together.
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second day of not feeling ill!!! Meditation done this morning, second cup of tea, gotta do some washing up and get on with studies.
Stop holding yourself back 7 day challenge on insight timer is my thing this week (day 2).
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My brain is wired from doing numbers and graphs; haven’t been this active for a few months, it’s good but at the same time I gotta relax my mind before I blow myself out again!!
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One day, after months of sobriety, I discovered this such stupid thing: I was able to fill up an oil bottle without throwing out a drop. Life is easier without hands shaking.
It is something fool but this fact made me very happy.
Kind regards.
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Feeling tired this morning so to combat this I have done a few exercises to get the blood and heat flowing again. Looking forward to work today and seeing my colleagues; last 2 days have been looking at excel; graphs and numbers. So on with today and conversations, laughs, music and a bit of hair cutting 
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Waking up I feel like I still have a cold, slight temperature raised; it maybe to do with premenstrual week . I don’t want to get on the paracetamol again 
been very committed to supplement intake yet something is lingering around in my body.
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Beautiful 
Brain up to the eyeballs in graphs and equations; I will be glad of the break this weekend and WILL NOT get obsessive over this assignment, does me more harm than good. Self care 🫶🏻
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Grateful for being sober this evening 
grateful for being. Just being 
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Lab report almost almost finished; 2800 words and nearly 8 pages 
keep going over it and it’s not making that much sense anymore 
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That’s normal I guess. Maybe taking a break from reading the same stuff again and again helps. I am always surprised how many bs I wrote in my PhD thesis noone corrected, saw or whatever. Even typos. No idea how often I read this. You’ve finished, gave your best and this is enough 
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What did you do a phs in @anon74766472 ? 6.06 am and I am finishing it today! My aim is befor 12pm
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Structural biology. Looooong time ago 
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Haaaa no way !!! That’s what I really enjoy!! I’m trying to get a junior role in summer with crystallography 🫶🏻🫶🏻
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Good luck with this. I started off with xtallo. I didn’t have too much luck and reproducibility with my xtals so we decided to do more research on complexes and SAXS measurements. I loved it and had to learn to push my frustration levels. 
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Awesome! No idea on what SAXS measurements are but I guess I’ll find out !!!
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gosh … and here i am again. day 7, in a different city. a lot has been past. I am here today, grateful with a stronger desire to live sober and clean 
. give myself an honest break.
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This is very similar to my experience and it makes it hard to identify triggers. Do you drink when you’re sad? Yep. Do you drink when you’re excited? Yep, and so on and so forth. We can do this!
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I had a similar experience, i first came here in 2020 and had a month or two here or there where I was active. I strung together some sober time but… well i forget exactly what happened. I must have convinced myself on a surface level that I wasnt an alcoholic. Or if i was thats fine. That was the year I lived with my now ex husband and was hiding bottles and baggies in the house…
I feel the difference this time. I had a rock bottom. It may have been higher than a lot of other peoples but it was plenty low for me. I am more afraid of drinking again than I am of my feelings. I am so desperate to feel happy again and figure out who I really am that im willing to do more for my sobriety than I ever was before. Im doing what long time sober people advise even if I dont want to.
Ive only got 28 days but im praying this is the last time. May it be for both of us 🩵 huge congrats on 7 days!!!
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