48 hours passed,reached out to fellowship member after a meeting this morning,had a quiet day,stayed in, feeling okay, watching documentaries.
3 days and 3 meetings today, gosh being honest about myself is hard,.lots came up from the shares ,of my past addictions, (it’s not been just alcohol,), alcohol was used to resist feeling emotions and ‘used’ to be a ‘functional addict’… alcohol has kept my addiction going for waaaay too many years…
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Keep on pushing!
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Day 5, thought it was only 4…no meetings today yet,had a whole day of uni so brain needs a rest, gonna cook children dinner soon ,maybe get another hour of study,get them settled to bed then maybe a meeting later tonight.
6 days and 3 hours, wow, , most of the time I am calm and patient, but it’s not taking much to raise my voice towards my children. It’s not good, I need help on my temper, or reacting negatively too quickly. Consciously would like to work through this obstacle, as it’s making me feel ashamed of speaking like that to the children. Patience gets tested, I react to their resistance to my requests… that’s not how I should react if at all…maybe listen more.
Good meeting tonight,I shared and lead out with serenity prayer,.wow , powerful stuff.
So glad you are hitting meetings and checking in. Good job!
Wow Hazy you sound just like me, over the last few days! I pray to the universe to and it seems to listen!! I’m only 36 hours in after a terrible four day binge. I don’t want this anymore EVER!
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Meetings have really helped me this time,…I went back to NA because it hits home more,quite powerful, I’ve used many substances over the years,many and any…so addict.
Still here 
still sober
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Good job! Keep going!
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Nice are the meetings still helping I need to check out the online stuff still havnt
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I’ve been where you are for a long time. I stayed there for a couple years, because I couldnt admit it was an issue and didn’t want to face it because I knew it would be a challenge. Then I just simply could NOT take the hangovers anymore. Even if I wasn’t totally hungover, I was tired, lazy, and depressed. I got nothing done and was overwhelmed by something as small as the dishes. Sobriety is beautiful. I got my energy and my happiness back. I feel young again. It’s so easy to think “I feel better if I get a little buzz going.” I even used it to study sometimes. I’m telling you it’s NOT worth it. Real happiness is being happy, healthy, well rested, rejuvenated, motivated, and getting things done! Sober people get further in life and get to enjoy REAL happiness, not that fake “chemically induced” happiness you get from a bottle.
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Thanks for your reply.
I picked up a week ago, and again last night, both times I didn’t have the children with me for a couple of days and both times I’d done a piece of work or studied loads and felt good about it. Instead of staying in the normal feeling of feeling good about myself,I drank on it…it’s like not deserving to feel good…
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Another day 1, (4 day binge,it doesn’t work anymore) and done 6 meetings today,shared twice, reached out to 3 fellows and started step 1… .
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Day 2 done, somebody contacted me from a meeting and mentioned a sponsorship meeting, so did both today, got more numbers of women in recovery and hopefully find a sponsor soon.
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3 days and 6 minutes… Spoken to some women in recovery today and received messages from some too . That’s been really nice. Done a day on the laptop catching up on studies. Path is turning a different way today.
Hi.i just seen I didn’t reply.yes the meetings are helping, women’s meetings are really powerful and positive and have reached out and got numbers to contact . Putting myself out there to try a new way. I do NA cos I have used anything and everything to change my mood. Good luck.
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Oh wow i wasnt using the online meetings 19 days ago. Its all a blur now i love em too.
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Awesome day. All I can say… doing things differently.its a new world.