Day 45 finished…and Finished step one with my sponsor, looking at step two questions next…
…glad to move out of that step… fully acknowledged I’m an addict 
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Today I have had no desire to drink. I love these days.
Day 49… have 1/3 exam tomorrow. No idea what to do… been so tired from studying and work yesterday…I feel like I need a big long walk outdoors before doing last bit of revision today… washing has massively piled up and it looks like unmanageability…but it’s from studying morning til night.maybe a bit of house care and a long walk then tidying up my desk in preparation. (Yes Hayley,sounds like a good idea)
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Day 50… Just another day to get through. 3 hour exam to start at 12 today…I’m grateful I have clean time and I’m focused without a hangover or guilt or shame that I drank to oblivion the night before.
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Blooming amazing things have happened today for my children and me,It’s good to acknowledge those amazing things as I’m starting step 2…I’m ready to delve in and Investigate the higher power,the invisible thread that keeps me from picking up… lots of gratefulness for my lecturers and other members in sobriety groups.
Paul drinks bc that’s what Paul does but not today. Sobriety groups, addiction communities, WhatsApp groups, my sponsor and whatever the hell I am praying to are all greater powers than me.
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“Whatever it takes…”
Day 55…
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I’m grateful I didn’t pick up today. Was really naughty and had a steak. Bit rebellious really. But today I’d rather pick up steak than alcohol. 
57 days freedom from alcohol…I felt really good today,… Thinking wow I don’t want to drink,I’m happy with me today, I’m calm,I am balanced, I feel grounded,it seems a long time ago,like I am somebody totally different to where I am today,
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Love your check-Ins, Hazy. Around 60 days, there was a definite shift in me. Grateful to be on this journey with you.
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Fanks,…!..I got to 57 days just before lockdown,also by going to face to face meetings,tried for years by just using this app,but I needed to do more action…must text my sponsor Tonight,haven’t texted for a couple of days 
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58 days!..last year I picked up after 57 days,I’m grateful to be here today, clean…found some more defects in myself that aren’t very nice and I need to work on them pronto… talking without thinking about the position the other person is in…ego?..not being considerate, not being humble,not being helpful,but think I’m being helpful…? trying to think from the opposite position/direction is hard…watch my mouth…?
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Did an online meeting, was really helpful to my dilemma, thinking of the still suffering addict and Hoping they will find that addiction is the problem, and not other people,past situations,money,etc…I need to remember what it is like to be in that headspace,where I was,and hopefully I can somehow, without my ego,help my Friend.
@Hazy i just went back through this thread and watched your journey — it’s truly remarkable how you had several Day 1s back to back but you never stopped trying and now you’re almost 2 full months sober! that is HUGE!! i am Day 1 right now and reading your story as you shared it here is really inspiring so thank you for your transparency and consistency 
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Wow thankyou so much…this has made my heart swell…! Lol… opposite to the feelings of anxiety and panic,that I am thoroughly used to feeling but I do not wish to feel… Amazing thankyou so much…you CAN do it. One day at a time 
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Day 59!.. I did 2/3 exam this morning,glad it’s done…had the most amazing day out , yesterday, at paultons park with my two youngest,on all the rollercoasters again and again,no rows,I managed the children and myself pretty well…that would of no way happened on a hangover 
.I would of been stressed out,tired, argumentative, shouting at the kids,being mean, probably would of made us go home early so I could drink…not yesterday,I am so grateful for the amazing day,and my youngest has said on several occasions now,that was the best day ever. Just amazing . Thankyou Universe
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Ta day. Day 60…going out for my aunt’s birthday…been revising but also had picking up on my mind, currently wired on coffee and munching Doritos before I go…first time out,out…in clean time.
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So I might need to check in often… I listened to an online meeting on way to my aunt’s house so my head wouldn’t go off on one about going to the pub tonight…I feel alright…just gonna watch my self…I’m with my aunt,sister and niece so it will be a nice time…so long as there is tomato juice I’ll be happy.