This is so awesome to hear Jason! Don’t look back!!
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This is the first time I’ve seen this thread for some reason and I love it. I am so happy for you. You have such a gift of telling your story and giving a glimpse into your life. I also relapsed after a good time sober - 6 years and it took almost 5 years to regain my sobriety. I appreciate everything you’ve written here.
I love your photos on the nature thread and am truly excited to see your pictures of Kauai. I was able to go there a few years ago and it is the most amazing place I have ever been. I hope you have a wonderful vacation and a good, productive visit in SLC. Take care!
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@Bubonicphoniks i started this thread when i first started participating here. Maybe theres some info that can help you.
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Thank you! I will read this. It is so nice to relate with someone in the same line of work. “Go to a meeting” just doesnt work for us like others due to time away.
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Getting back to land is when my inner alcoholic tries to get me the most. Tired and thirsty!
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Being able to visit here while at sea helped me keep my strength while heading back to shore.
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I can relate so much with you.
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You got this! 
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Thanks man. It really just is such an annoying cycle. I come back feeling awful. Towards the end of the hitch i feel better and trick myself into thinking “just one”.
Repeat.
I have a great support group at home and ive told them my plans to help keep me honest.
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You’ve got a solid plan going! Nice! 
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I can really relate to your post. I drank after a couple years sober and its taken me 14years to really get back into the rooms✌🏻
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Super proud of you Jason! Keep up the good work. 
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I’m blown away by your strength and tenacity… Reading this made a difference to me; like it’s what I needed to hear. Thanks…
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Jason, love reading your insights. I too relapsed, after 15 years sober! I’m now on 91 days, after month long rehab last year. I didn’t drink through 14 yrs of disintegrating marriage, raising twins, ex-husband’s cancer, and other difficult things. But then once I finally got divorced, got a great job, and had more free time since kids were more self-sufficient, at a time when everything in life was so much better, I started drinking. Why do we do this! I tend to crave more at good times than bad, it seems.
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6 months 12 days sober.
Its my last night in slc. Flying to Hawaii tomorrow.
My inner alcoholic is alive and well. Its pulling out all of the tricks.
I had to pass through two airports on the way here. I took the bus to the airport and had a 5 hour wait for my plane to take off. I stayed away from the lounge.
It was pretty easy. My inner alcoholic played the cmon have a bloody mary card. No one will know…
I didnt…it was a short flight to portland. I had a 2 hour layover and it was easy to avoid the lounge.
On the flight to slc drinks were served and I found that very tempting but I didnt drink an alcohol beverage. I had a pepsi.
In slc opportunities to drink have been abundant. I have met with some old friends and when i shared that I’ve sober for six months, none of my friends who are normal drinkers ordered beers. I told them they could but they didnt out of repect for me which i thought was pretty cool.
I have had opportunities open up while I’ve been here to work and stay here while I jump through whatever hoops I have to jump through to see my kids.
Thats been awesome! I have a good sober friend who wants to help me make that happen.
I feel like sobriety is opening up really good things and i dont want to mess it up, so its a huge incentive to stay sober.
I’ve been really busy and its been hard to post. I just wanted to check in.
I feel confidant! Its an alcohol infested world and I’m navigating it sober. Im proud of that!
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Dude great post. Gives me a lot of hope and also shows me the challenges ahead. Enjoy your time man. We’re just pushing a load of 40,000 brls of oil through manhatten. Were down to freezing at night.
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Your life story is amazing, the circumstances of your life, I can completely understand your environment, maybe you could be an example for your co-workers in the future
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Thanks for the update Jason. What a great thing your co workers did! Keep up the good work brother! #SobrietyRocks
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I drank yesterday .i fuct everything up. Probably beyond repair. Im still drinking. I dont know how to stop.
I guess i do know… but that is the the predicament i find myself in today…
I fucked up… big time. .i hate myself!!
One drink… … started out awesome! But ended bad … i get to try and pick up the pieces again…
I am fortunate… i am alive…
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please don’t hate yourself. we’ve all made mistakes, relapsed, came out the other side. you’ve survived all the other stuff from your days past - you will get through this, too. put down the drink and start loading up on water.
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