I hope you enjoy the rest of your holiday that you have been saving up for in sobriety and enjoy it sober 
I have followed your posts and you are very honest, I’m 24 hours plus aswell, 
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How YOU feeling today, don’t say a little hazy, have you had anymore urges or do you think you’ve got that moment out your system. There is no such thing as a bad relapse if eventually it teaches you to remain sober. My last one was the best thing ever to happen because as you know it really doesn’t make anything better, eventually that sinks in and enough becomes enough, you get sick and tired of the merry go round. Eventually…
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All we have to do today is not take the first drink! We got this!
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Physically like shit. Better than yesterday. Mentally im being less harsh on myself. I’m feeling grateful to not be paying far worse consequences for my drunken actions… alot of remorse but feeling positive
Another reminder of the severity of my alcoholism. Im paying attention.
I ate good yesterday. Got good sleep. I forget to eat when i drink. My body and mind seem to think alcohol is the only fuel i need.
I grateful to be alive
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You can go days without a hot meal if you got alcohol for sure, you sound like you really hit it hard, do you think it was worth it, do you think it’s made you feel different about drinking, I know everyone says it but if you gained absolutely nothing from the experience then there will be absolutely no point in doing it again. I’ve had my last relapse because it was fucking pointless, I hope one of yours will be the eurika moment.
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Feel remorse and sincere apology to your lady and let it go; it’s just life and we’re doing the best we can damn it, lol. Carry on!
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Lol, no not hazy! Thank you for asking… I have had, and have, no desire to drink alcohol today.
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So proud and happy to hear this, I do try and keep up with your journey where do you live.
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Thanks, I keep an eye on your journey too! In this together… 
UK…
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I don’t know why but I thought you were in a different time zone. Where in Britain, if you don’t mind me asking. Next I’ll be searching your Facebook, oh and what is your bank account number. Just in case you are as gullible as me don’t tell me that. You may laugh but people do do it. Not to me, oh shit I’ll shut up, I’m digging a hole.
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Sorry I won’t say where in Britain…Facebook isn’t for me either 
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Find a meeting bro
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That’s cool I’ve not got time for FB either. This is the only social site I go on and I doubt it’s really classed as that anyway.
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No. It wasnt worth it. I feel reassured that my alcoholism is deadly. I risked alot. I drank and drove. I could have hurt somebody, possibly killed someone or myself. A driving intoxicated ticket wouldnt be good but i deserve it.
I guess i wasnt prepared when she put that drink in front of me. I accidentally set myself up by not telling her the severity of my alcoholism.
We had a great day. I feel sad today… emotional. I got alot of feelings to process.
Alcohol defies all logic.
Even today as i saw people enjoying a cocktail I wished i could be normal and enjoy a drink. It doesnt make sense that a drink would even sound good.
My body is craving it. I know its detoxing. Six months no booze and my body got physically addicted right away. I couldnt stop. I remember that in my blackout haze… i felt like i couldnt stop.
I didn’t drink today.
I
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Maybe start with accepting that you can’t drink normally, if there is such a thing. It sounds like this might be the thing that’s keeping you stuck. We’ve all been here, and I still get thoughts like that, but very rarely these days. The truth is, I can’t, and I’d rather live knowing that than repeatedly being hurt and upset about the fact that I can’t.
Much love, brother. Telling your girlfriend more about your drinking problem is a huge step forward!
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I accept it. It just find it insane that after all I’ve been through and done that a drink could even sound good.
48 hours no alcohol. The beginning of day three…
I feel a little better. Gonna stay busy today and try to ingnore what everyone else is doing.
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Yeah, my mind is blown all the times when I get that thirst. Like all the hell that we’ve been through just disappears. Fucking cunning addiction!
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I’m rooting for you Bud. The booze just isn’t worth it. One day at a time. You CAN do this.
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Today was a really good day!
This island is a special place. Today Kauai took me in. Everywhere i went opportunity knocked.
We went on a dinner cruise. They served free drinks. I was the only person not drinking and I felt ackward.
I even had a long debate with myself about having a beer. My inner alcoholic was working me. I had pepsi.
A dolphin gave me a show. He stayed with me the entire time. It was a big boat and he only swam with me. The captain and crew said they have never seen anything like it before.
Could be just coincedence, but I think Kauai was congratulating me for not drinking. It felt that way.
I went to art galleries all morning and made connections. Im going to go to a big art show tomorrow.
The people here are very friendly. My girlfriends knee gets alot of attention. An older Hawaiian gentleman told her that the island is very protective, and her knee was injured to protect her from something worse happening. The island gods work like that he said.
I was by myself in a gallery and i met an elder Hawaiian couple and they just seemed to know my biggest issues. Without disclosing anything that has happened in my life they said they could tell the island knows i carry a heavy heart. They said i should move here to be healed.
It was a strange, beautiful day!
Feeling connected to the universe! Grateful to be sober.
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My daily meditation reading today reminded me that I no longer subscribe to the “myth of eternal leisure”. The identification of that trait was given to me by a counselor. I honestly wanted to be on the beach all the time, to not work, to be released from responsibility for myself.
Thanks for your sharing about what it takes to stay sober in paradise. We just don’t drink. No matter what or where.
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