Story of my life!
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I just got caught up on your thread @Amy30. That doctor sounds like a real whack job. Glad to hear you’re looking out for yourself and looking for a new doctor. Fingers crossed you find the right one fairly quickly.
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Thank you!
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Just to summarise, my shrink isn’t taking me seriously. My counsellor thinks it’s the end of the world. I have massive anxiety over world events triggers yet found myself reassuring her. And I’m supposed to be the crazy one here! These people make me feel normal, that’s concerning
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It’s funny isn’t it, we almost expect them not to be people, to be always right and be able to understand each of our individual circumstances perfectly. Something I’ve been working through in my own frustration with GPs anyway 
Glad sertraline is helping you. It made me suicidal. Took over a year to realise that was probably a side effect of the meds. Cos I wasn’t planning on acting on it, GP kept trying increased dose etc and I just gave up trying. Now I’m on Venlafaxine, an SNRI, and it seems to be doing the trick. So grateful that the second thing I tried seems to work, I know lots of people have to cycle through many more combos.
Also have been working on my ferritin (iron storage), recently found out I’ve been iron deficient for at least 10 years but never been mentioned by the GPs as my levels fall within the normal range. They just don’t prioritise it, despite it being associated with a ton of physical and mental symptoms. So I’m reading up on how to get ferritin, vitamin d and b12 up to optimal levels, rather than the normal range, to see what happens.
I don’t have BPD, so not saying my experience is entirely relevant here. But just wanted a moan I suppose 
and offer some solidarity in frustration at the services that are there to help us!
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I had an appointment with my GP when it felt much more like he was unloading about his mental health.
Tried to be compassionate, I know they’ve got a hard job etc… But still very unprofessional! The realisation that we can walk away and find someone else to help has been an important one for me.
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So the shrink put me on a cocktail of drugs and I don’t know how I feel. I have an antipsychotic in the evening, SNRI in the morning, zolpidem to sleep and lorezapam when I’m anxious. Finding someone else is more challenging than I thought it would be.
I think I had a full on nervous breakdown in the past few weeks. I can’t focus, I can’t sleep, I don’t function, I don’t work. I cry. When I don’t cry, I think about how everyone will be better off without me. I don’t drink. But I want to. I eat too much. It took me a week to get to season 5 of Buffy. I’ll never get better. I’m a lost cause.
Sorry I’m such a Debbie downer today.
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I just caught up on your situation. OMFG… Your psychiatrist. Do you have a psychologist that you talk with or is it just the psychiatrist? The health care industry has been overwhelmed since 2020, so it can take months to get in with someone else a lot of times. If you’re able to find some people who are taking new patients, but it’s months down the road, get yourself on wait. At the very least you’ll have something lined up while you try other roads.
I can’t believe your psychotic legal drug dealer wanted you to stop your SSRI cold turkey (actually, I can). I don’t think I have anything to say that’s useful–just pure sympathy for what you’re going through.
You are not a lost cause. You have a lot of powerful drugs in your system that are likely making your situation worse, but you don’t have someone who knows how to properly ween you off what you’re taking and give you the support you need while doing so. Don’t give up. Try finding other people. Get on the waiting list of several people if you can. Then when you get that appointment, you interview them. Tell them your situation and see what their take is and how they might try to help you. If you don’t feel comfortable with them, go to the next one, whenever that appointment opens up.
This kind of thing from the so-called “mental health professionals” infuriates me so much. You deserve better than this. They’re taught how to put someone on drugs, but never fully and adiquately taught how to take someone off, or even that there would be a problem at all with taking people off them. They weren’t told there would be. No autonomous thinking at all.
I mean, if these drugs are going to have a major impact on someone’s mental health (even if it’s to the positive), then it stands to reason that by removing the drug that there would also be a major impact.
Okay, I’m done ranting. I’m so sorry you’re in this situation. I wish I could do something for you.
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Thanks! Your rant made me smile, it’s a nice relief from my state of despair. 
I’m working on finding a different shrink but it’s not easy. This one doesn’t take me seriously, just keeps throwing drugs at me. And I keep taking them because I just want to feel better. But I don’t feel better.
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Not a downer at all. I am sorry you are struggling so much, that sounds really frustrating. I do hope you know you matter, we care about you and your doctors are messy.
Chiron said it all so well!!! 
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That makes sense. When you feel terrible, there’s always that hope that maybe today, when I take this medicine, it will fufill its promise. I hope you’re able to find someone better sooner rather than later. I’ve dealt with a lot of doctors who didn’t take me seriously, and it’s a horrible feeling, especially when you feel down and desperate.
Also glad I could make you smile. Hang in there. 
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Thank you for saying that. 
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I have enough tablets to top myself now. I kept writing help messages and deleting them. I don’t think I want help right now.
Is that what you want to do with them?
I hope not. I know you are having a rough time but you have said about how amazing your husband is. So I know you’ve got at least one reason to keep going.
Could it be the meds settling in that’s making things feel so unsettled? I know it can take a while for just one to bed in so I imagine a cocktail would be a real head fuck.
Is your husband around at the moment? Anyone you can talk to? Or anything nice you can do just for the next few minutes to keep you out of your head and in the here and now?
You’ve probably seen me post this before but doesn’t hurt to have it there again 
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Sending you big hugs @Amy30 
If anyone hasn’t told you today that they love you, I do and I care about you. You matter!!
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Which one? It’ll probably make you crash for days. But some meds have “secondary uses”, like anticonvulsants for stabilizing the mood and humour.
No one is taking me seriously. I’m not a joke
When you say no one, who do you mean?
My shrink. He keeps throwing pills at me and they keep making me worse, and I’m reaching the end of my thether. My husband has had enough, I had enough. And yet I keep waking up and crying every single day. I can’t take it anymore.
That sounds so frustrating. How long have you been on this current set of pills? I know it is trial and error with meds but it sounds like they could be doing more to help you feel supported through it.
Do you think it would help to have someone at your appointment with you, your husband or someone else? I don’t know what advocacy options are available. But might be something to think about if you haven’t already.
When is your next appointment/ review scheduled?
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