Things in my life haven’t changed at all, you here people say you can have a whole new life when you are sober and it’s going to be happy happy happy. Well that’s not entirely how it works bc everything is still going to go wrong when it is meant to, people will still say and do things to wind you up, your still going to be in situations you don’t want to be in but now without drugs and alcohol none of it matters, the world is not my problem and it doesn’t need my 10 cents worth. All I have to do is stand back and watch it come to its own natural conclusion, before my contribution would be to freak out but turns out the best thing I can do is absolutely nothing unless it is going to be of use in any way. Be strong be grateful and know when to be quiet.
Yeah that’s true, guess it’s trying to deal without self medication
Paul Paul Paul.
Nice one my man.
The world keeps on turning no matter how upset we get.
Nothing going on in the world is a reason to drink or drug.
Love you bro.
Yup. This sums it up. 🤷 life is still going to suck sometimes, but it sucks less when you are able to handle it with a clear mind and understand that it will do so and you don’t have to react by blowing things up.
Strange day nothing bad happened but did some meditation and cried for no reason really, must have been in there wanting to get out for a while. It was a bit of a gratitude meditation so maybe it was some relief to be sober on a daily basis bc it still amazes me every morning I wake up. Anyway be strong be grateful and don’t be afraid to let your emotions out.
Great day to be alive, sober and amazed by it. I hope I never take this for the new norm bc I know inside what my normal really is given half the chance and I much prefer this crazy emotional ride called sobriety. Be strong be grateful.
started the day with thoughts of what I could do for others and it slowly turned into what I could do for me. My daily program sets standards impossible to live up to at all times but that’s the good thing bc before I didn’t even know my character defects and now I see them on a daily basis it gives me the opportunity to try a little bit better tomorrow. I will never be perfect but I can at least try to be better than I was. The main thing is not to show other people what your feeling and carry on and smile through it. One bad word can ruin a whole day but one smile could make someone’s better. Be strong be grateful. Be kind even when you don’t want to be.
The days are going so quickly lately but it’s all work no play, need to get some me time in a bit more often. Got given a bottle of wine today as a gift from someone who died of covid, it was just a little thank you and I felt ungrateful for not drinking it bc I would have loved to have been able to raise a glass in his memory but his wife was an alcoholic who died so I think he’ll be proud of me anyway. So all in all a good day as far as sobriety is concerned and how far I have come bc in the past just one glass would have been OK as it is only this one occasion. Be strong be grateful be honest with yourself, we aren’t that kind of person to just have the one.
For Ron, Miss you my friend. 
I used to think I had a drinking problem but turns out I had a thinking problem. Thought far too much of what I wanted and never about anybody else, this didn’t bother me then and it doesn’t bother me now bc I cannot be held accountable for what my illness did to me. I heard someone say the other day that they finally have a choice about alcohol but personally I prefer the fact that I definitely do not have a choice as drinking is no longer an option for me, I can’t be that person any more especially now a higher power I choose to call God has entered my life. If God is just another word for waking the f£&k up I’ll take it any day. Be strong be grateful.
today was a nervous day having to phone another suffering alcoholic on day 1 and offering some support and a chat, feels good being in a position to maybe help in any way. Also was going to be a hard night for me with the boxing tonight so it’s very true that passing on the message keeps us on the straight and narrow. Be strong be grateful just be there for others.
Today I did everything I didn’t want to just for the benefit of other people, I realised lately that my mind had been wandering towards more and more selfish thoughts and a selfish me WILL drink. So maybe doing things with others was more about distracting myself at the end of the day but they don’t need to know that in which case we all get a nicer experience. Be strong be grateful be prepared to step out of your comfort zone more often.
I’m so proud of you, Paul. I know you probably hate to hear that but I really am!
Not at all, nobody has told me for ages 
Actually one person did and if she reads this she will point that out 
. Thank you 
Yes indeedy 
Off to bed early
Goodnight everyone
There’s only one person? Really? @adeygaga49 is claiming to be that one but I’ve sent you that same bitmoji. I guess I’m j just chopped liver over here. You got more people loving and supporting you than you realize.
you are never just chopped liver, by the way I’m now off to work to cook chopped liver . I meant no one said it recently bc I it happened more than 48 hours ago I would have forgot, my brain is terrible. But no definitely not chopped liver 
I’m just kidding with you because I know you can take it.