I guess it’s been awhile since I posted here. With this move I’m lucky if I know what month it is. Never mind what day it is.
Anyway. Same ol same ol over here. I’m not naive enough to think this move would change anything. But we did have a nice honeymoon for a while. But the beast is back.
I have been to a few Al-Anon meetings since the move. It’s kind of hard starting over. The Scottsdale meetings were run so well. And after 2 years under my belt I kind of got to know people and make friends. Good recovery friends.
I didn’t want to start going to 7-8 meetings a week again. So I’m taking it slowly.
But why the fuck do I care so much? Why do I feel like I’m the only one who cares? And that my friends, is exactly why I need to get my ass back in the seats of Al-Anon or AA.
I was listening to the Al-Anon Speakers app this morning.
I listened to Tom W. Got just what I needed of course. It got me thinking.
There are tons of people in Al-Anon that work the AA program. I hear it’s a running joke that AA gets some of its best people from Al-Anon 
It’s a 12 step program. And it’s a great program for me. But every meeting I go to there is always. ALWAYS! Someone who says they work that other program as well.
Anyway. We are all trying to recover the best we can. If you are worried about someone’s drinking. Or frustrated because you have no control over people places or things. Then Al-Anon could help.
I really enjoyed this speaker Tom. If anyone is interested. I especially enjoyed part 2.
Why do I care so much? Why do I always feel I’m the only one who cares?
Anyway. Just thought I’d shared. Listening to these speaker tapes or whatever you call them has given me hope this morning. Where I could have just been sad and depressed. And played the victim card. But I don’t do that anymore. Instead I got to put that oxygen mask on first and get back to taking care of me first.
I’m powerless over my wife’s drinking.
I can and do find hope when I got to meetings. Hopefully I’ll get my ass in a seat tonight at 7.
Love you guys
