59 no binge, no sugar
15 UPFs
15 dairy
I definitely eat more when my hormones are down.
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Working on day 1 again of no binge eating
Yesterday was a suuuuper off day for my eating. I had good intentions upon waking up to eat well and follow my scheduled eating plan, but at some point in the afternoon i decided to have chocolate (whoch wasnt planned). I foolishly thought I could moderate and have like 2 pieces but I ended up eating like 6 pieces or so instead. I could hear my thought process after eating them. I remember thinking, āF it, ive strayed off my eating plan anyway, might as well eat what i wantā. By the end of the night I had eaten 18 chocolate pieces and over did it on supper (which I wasnt even hungry for). Anyway i didnt feel well obviously. And now my body is not liking me this morning. But will return to my eating plan and make sure to hydrate as well. I shouldve come on here first when i had those thoughts. Just like recovery, if i intervene beforehand, the outcome is usually different.
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Ah, yes, the dreaded āI need chocolate in the afternoonā situations. To me it really often feels like I am having a normal day, and suddenly some food literarly ambushes me.
I just read in another post someone saying āI was never able to figure out drinking.ā Thatās so on the point. I absolutely cannot remember ever being able to figure out certain kinds of foods, like forementioned chocolate.
Honestly: Really good job on realizing what actually happened!
I have been in this situation soooo many times. And I most of the time did not ask the questions.
Somehow out of the blue deciding to have chocolate (who made this decision? which part of me? do I even remember?).
Thinking I could moderate (is this my experience with chocolate? that I can moderate?)
The thought process after my first piece (why does straying off my plan equal to āmight as well eat what I wantā? and who is I in this sentence? and why does I want to eat all the chocolate pieces in the world?)
Overeating later in the day (why does this happen after already having eaten all that chocolate?)
Anyways: Welcome back on the trip 
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Day 1134 : No binge today. 
Sorry to hear about your relapse @Butterflymoonwoman. Donāt give up, you can get through this. Sending hugs. 
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60 no binge, no sugar
16 UPFs
16 dairy
Three sixes. Must be good 
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6 days no sugar.
3 days no binge-eating or crisps.
0 days no takeaways.
I had a small takeaway yesterday. I regretted it from the moment I ordered it, but it wouldnāt let me cancel it. I didnāt get fries, and I didnt get a shake or sugary coca-cola, so thatās progress I do recognise, I still feel really bad though. Hopefully now, I am on the right track, when I next crave, I will be able to remind myself that I didnāt enjoy it this time.
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Hey, i hope itās not triggering but is there food that you enjoy and not feel guilty about? It helped me a lot having satisfying healthy foods because my binging is mainly fuelled by guilt and restriction. Though i still overeat with a healthy diet i feel less out of control and have diminished the relapses that way. Tell me if my remark isnāt welcome, i do not yet have the ropes of this group 
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Everyone has a different way of approaching their eating behaviors. Iād say do what works for you. Not binge eating is the goal, regardless of how you reach that goal. 
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Day 1135 : No binge today.
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61 no binge, no sugar
17 UPFs
17 dairy
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Hey, dont worry itās not triggering. Unfortunately I cant even buy healthy groceries because if I have anything in my fridge or cupboards, I just binge until itās all gone, I literally canāt stop myself or sleep until there is nothing left. Iām waiting for therapy and Iām really hoping it helps because it is scary. The only food I donāt feel guilty for eating are my meal replacement products, but I do still feel guilty if I have an extra 1 or 2 some days.
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8 days no sugar.
4 days no binge-eating, no crisps.
2 days no takeaways.
At the moment, I have no urges to go and buy anything to binge, this is a huge relief and I feel peaceful for a change. I am still having cravings for the takeaway that I have, but I am reminding myself how bad I felt about having even the small one, and that helps me to refrain.
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That sounds very hard. I understand perfectly. Iām a bit better now, bu there were times where i prayed that someone would just keep me away from food and just give me ready balanced meals so the torture would stop. I hope therapy helps you. It helped me, though now i cannot find another psychiatrjst where i live (mine retired). I use apps and online services when i really need to and continue the work on my own. Though itās a slow process, it looks like thereās improvement. Iām still scared of relapses, especially in stressfull periods.
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Day 1136 : No binge today.
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62 no binge, no sugar
18 UPFs
18 dairy
@CATMANCAM Feeling peaceful about food is so great!
@Elissa Sounds like you already put a lot of work in your recovery.
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Day 8 : first hard day. I havenāt slept well and iām under a lot of stress. Hope i hold on until tomorrow at least. Every hour is hatd but feels like a small victory. If anyone has self care ideas, i would want them 
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When Iām stressed out and short on time or low on energy I like to do a few conscious breaths, focusing on making the out breath longer. A short prayer, looking into nature, looking at some calming scenery or colour, a few minutes of mindful breathing, make relaxation, a few stretches, happy memories.
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Thank you, the hours passed and even though i had bad thoughts, i did some of these. Now iām a bit better. I will try to go to sleep early. Tomorrow is another day 
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Day 1137 : No binge today.
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I hope you sleep well, Elissa. If you feel like you canāt sleep and your anxiety is bad, you can try chamomile tea. Iām recommending chamomile tea because itās non habit forming, doesnāt mess with most medications, and can help with sleep and anxiety.
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