Sounds like a really balanced approach you have there 
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Day 1167 : No binge today. 
Youāre doing great so far, @Misokatsu! Keep it up, youāve almost made it a full week! 
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93 sugar
49 UPF
11 overeating/binge
Had intense cravings yesterday afternoon. Hormones once again acting up. Felt the physical hunger. Ate something but did not overeat. Had the clarity that there is nothing that will make the hormonal urges go away. Not food, nor anything else.
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@acromouse sorry about those damn hormones 
19 days no takeaways.
18 days no sugar.
16 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
I was craving a takeaway last night but got through it. Itās not worth it, I donāt need it, and I donāt want to go backwards into any spirals/cycles.
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A full week of no binging! 5 biscuits eaten while watching Labyrinth, but that was all.
And got out to do some running.
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Day 1168 : No binge today.
Yāall are doing great, keep it up!
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94 sugar
50 UPF
12 overeating/binge
Hormone levels took a hard dive over the last days. Iām having real trouble registering hunger and satiety signals. I hope adjusting the dosage of hrt will catch up soon. Canāt even think straight.
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Iām going back on track starting today. Weekend is a good day for me to start (please life donāt prove me otherwise 
), because I usually have stuff and activities to do which could keep me and my āhungryā mind busy.
I wonāt put day 1 until I achieved it I decided. Otherwise Iām just making myself a fool.
I admire @CATMANCAM , @acromouse , @Faugxh @Alisa and @Aleyadaisey (youāre totally nailing it and are a huge inspiration to me). You guys are doing well and keep hanging here and even if you slip a little bit, you donāt give up, very well done! 
Itās not easy, I know. I was doing well for about two months! And look at me, so hard to get back to it, and struggling now for weeksā¦
Well, Iām also not giving up. Never!
I want the life where food and thoughts about it are not driving my day to day. I want freedom from addictions and cravings.
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TRIGGER WARNING : FOOD
If this goes over the boundaries by actually talking about the foods, then just report the post and moderator if you come by just remove it, itās fine.
Thanks for this partā¦ I had a rough week this last week. And here and there more so than usual.
I donāt know what it is that turns the switch onā¦
I think itās something in the food, ( like the type of carb etcetera) not emotional so much.
But emotional could be the cause also.
I appreciate your acknowledgment and I get lots of inspiration from you @Jana1988 and from
everyone else ā¦
Every single person
We all have the same demon out there.
One that ānormiesā arenāt even aware of, donāt know that it exists and canāt understand ā¦
ā You ate the whole pack of cookies???ā
Answer: Well, Yes!
For the most part, I donāt eat sugar.
I donāt have hidden sugar in my food.
I do eat natural fruit.
I have a storage room and I have nice chocolate bars out there and some in the freezer. For guests.
I maybe eat one a year.
I have three or four or five bags of store bought cookies out there for children when they come over or for guests if they come over and I want to give them some cookies.
I am a long way from a grocery store.
I would say in the last year that once I opened a bag and ate half of them, and then I ate the other half later in the week, thatās not so good.
Lesson, donāt open them, and in general, I donāt even think about them and donāt open them, so theyāre right there, but they are safe for some reason.
Tomorrow I am going to open up a bag and put some cookies in some bags for children who Iām going to see.
I decided Iām going to use the whole bag of cookies up and give everybody I see a bag of cookies that way I get rid of the cookies and donāt have the open bag.
I might just give bags of cookies to the street people out there.
I donāt know truthfully, Iām going to see two children and three adults and Iām gonna divide the cookies up where they each can get a bag and I get left with no open bag!
I have Cliff power bars. Iāve been eating them when I wanted to for 20 years or something.
Usually itās a lunch replacement that I can eat in the car while Iām driving.
Or if Iām out hiking or something like that, traveling, but legitimate reason to eat it. And just one.
I keep them in my car in general and I wonāt go out to my car and get one.
They are safe in the car.
I have them in the storage room, and I generally will not get them out of there to eat.
What happens this week?
I got two boxes of 12 from Amazon and they were in a box on my back porch.
One night I was kind of upset? , because trust me, I was not hungry, and I thought Iāll just go open the box and get a Cliff bar. I can just eat one.
Well I didnāt, I ate three, I couldnāt believe it, and then not only that, but I did it the next night.
What did I need to do? I needed to get them off the porch and put them in the storage room and the car.
Then I did another awful thing. Two or so weeks ago I bought 4 little containers of Hagen Daz coffee ice cream.
I wanted to have them in the freezer in the storage room so when my girl friend came over, we could each have one at 210 cal a piece. Not the end of the world.
What did I do? I ate one and then I ate the rest of them. Why? ???
Why couldnāt I just be normal and eat one???
I have four frozen pecan pies but thankfully Iām not interested in eating them and I have I think four Apple walnut ricotta cakes out there and thankfully theyāre too frozen to be able to easily cut into.
So, in general, I donāt eat any sugar, but when I do, I do.
I donāt keep any in my house
I donāt eat pasta and I think if I did, it would trigger me to want to eat sweets
Most all of this is later at night, so like some of yāall have decided to have a cut off that would be a good thing for me to do.
I have known since I was a child that foods like sweet rolls, scones, breads, cookies, pasta and foods like that pacified me and made me sleep better. Iāve known that since I was 5, 6, 7 years old.
Iām leaving out the really bad thing I did.
OK so earlier this week I was riding my bike out there. I usually ride 100 minutes 21 miles and sometimes I eat peanuts while Iām doing it. OK thatās all right. Peanuts have antioxidants.
I canāt even believe Iām going to admit this, it was two or three nights ago.
I was not well rested, and I was not into riding the bike. Usually I very much am, but I wasnāt and I had a hurting shoulder and neck and the riding was making it worse, so I thought I want to snack on something, whatās out here?
I said no to the cookies because I know thatās a disaster.
I said no to the cheese because I know that is a disaster
Big confesssion. I have fat-free generic Cool Whip in the freezer so that I can take it places when I take or serve the pecan pies.
I also make pies with it, key lime type pies for guests.
I have not in 40 years of having Cool Whip in the freezer ever ever ever gotten in the freaking Cool Whip.
What do I do?
I go get a container of frozen fat-free generic Cool Whip and a plastic spoon that unfortunately could easily scoop the cool whip to have a bite and I looked at how many calories it was going to be, 20 calories for two tablespoons, and I thought well not so bad but then I ended up eating the whole container. 750 calories.
So @Jana1988 I do fail. But I do end up right back to eating healthy and ānormalā
I have lots of admiration, a tremendous amount of admiration for all of you, and I have lots of respect for all the personal research that you have done Jana in trying to figure out the madness for you personally. And the rest of you who have done the same trying to figure out the stimuli and the work arounds to not trigger it.
. What I need to pay more attention to is that I eat regular meals at regular times.
This all seems like a lot and itās all been the last couple weeks except the cookies that were a couple months ago.
Thanks for listening and thanks for joining in on the struggle, as they say, the struggle is real.
You are all heroes in my book and @CATMANCAM its so good to see you over here.
Best wishes, big hugs and sugar free love to all of you.
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I had the boy over I am seeing. I made a baked meal w cream inside (first time) and cheese on top. which to my 8yo selfās heart speaks: special occasion 
because anything w cheese on top became available and fashionable when I was a kid and we never had that at home, only when we went to like a bday party.
I was proud of myself for making that. eating w someone is not not a big deal to me. and making highly palatable foods is nothing I usually do or consume so, win.
in the night time I got upset. love stuff, right. so I totally ate a big ass portion of that food after midnight. plus chocolate.
in the morning I was still and again upset so I couldnāt eat breakfast but I ate some chocolate instead again.
I feel better now, because I managed to deal w my feelings aside from eating at them. my eating will now improve and normalise over the day. emotional eating is still totally a thing. and itās not a big problem. I can afford to fall back onto that every once in a while - much more important is that I address what upsets me and ask myself what is going on and find ways to deal w that, emotionally, which is TOUGH doing that with another person! let me tell ya! 
I feel pretty humbled by this huge learning ability on many levels. pretty grateful tbh.
just wanted to share.
love to yāall.
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@Alisa The struggle is very real. I could totally relate to a lot of your post. Having actual children in the house means we have a lot of snack chocolate bars, little packs of crisps, etc, for after school, having friends over etc. The amount of times I try to eat a few, overeat, have to rush out to buy replacements so it isnāt noticable how much I ate, sheesh.
@Faugxh For sure, even normies overeat, or emotional eat sometimes. As you say, the point is to go back to regular eating straightaway. Thanks for sharing. And I love stuff with cheese on top too!
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@Jana1988 thank you and well done to you for not giving up
@Alisa very relatable, no need to feel ashamed here thank you for sharing š©µ
@Faugxh sounds like you got yourself right back on track AND found a healthier way to deal 
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20 days no takeaways.
19 days no sugar.
17 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
I am craving crisps so badly this evening. Iām hoping I can fall asleep early so I can just be done with this day.
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Knowing your tenacity I donāt think the crisps have any chance at seeing the light of day 
Stay strong friend!
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Fuck em crisps!! 
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Day 1169 : No binge today.
Thank you, @Jana1988! Iām glad you have been getting the inspiration from us to keep going. Youāre doing amazing work, keep it up!
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95 sugar
51 UPF
13 overeating/binge
Hormones got better yesterday and hunger and satiety signals too. I did some mindless eating at my motherās yesterday. I realised and stopped. Eating really is soothing and it was one of those situations. I was tired and in a low mood. I went to the kitchen to make coffee. There was food conveniently laying around and I just grabbed it. It really shows how important the food environment is.
And as all of you wrote yesterday, everybody does that: grab convenient stuff, eat for emotional needs, eat far more of some food than they wanted. Most edible products are designed (including the packaging) to make us crave them and overeat, to get hooked.
The important thing I learned for myself is to have a plan, realise what Iām doing, being nice to myself about it, and getting back to the life I want.
Keep going everybody
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@acromouse @Faugxh thank you both for your replies last night, they really made me smile and laugh and seperate myself from the cravings 
21 days no takeaways.
20 days no sugar.
18 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
I have had a day of peace from cravings and urges today, itās been more of a background noise.
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Day 1170 : No binge today.
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Good morning
Again, today Iām going to try and start my day 1 not eating sweets! Yesterday, I over ate on doughnuts. I did it a bit intentionally so theyāre not here anymore, tempting.
I know that from beginning itās easier if sweet stuff isnāt available. Once I get used to it, then it shouldnāt be a problem. But first week or two are the hardest for meā¦
@Alisa Thank you very much for all above you wrote! I read it on one breath. So much trueth in there. I want to read it again and again and soak in all the wise words and experience properly. I appreciate your time you spent sharing from the depth of your heart 
I feel that today could be the day D - the start of something new. Time to send Ed* back āhomeā wherever it is.
#Ed = eating disorderd and also how I named it.
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