Just a reminder that natural sugars in fruit etc are perfectly good for you. It is what our bodies evolved to use for fuel. It might be chemically the same but whole fruit contains fiber and water and lots of vitamins etc. I keep berries, grapes, and apples in my fridge for a dessert or sweet tooth moment. Apples are SO sweet, they really do the trick.
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Day 1537 : No binge today. 
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In moderation. Nutritionally theyāre great w fiber and vitamins, true. But youāll still get sugar spikes and you can also gain weight w the natural sugars from fruits (if thatās an issue, I know some ppl are weight conscious) if you overdo it.
Best combine w protein and fat to mitigate the sugar spike thing. 
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Canāt eat much due to tummy bug. Food deprivation is somewhat triggering.
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Day 1538 : No binge today.
I hope you feel better soon, @acromouse. Sending healing prayers your way. 
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Sorry to hear you donāt feel well. Wishing you a speedy recovery 
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My tummy feels better already. Thanks for the well wishes.
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Good to hear! Numbers look cool today!
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Day 1539 : No binge today.
Thatās great to hear, @acromouse! Almost one year without UPFs too for ya! Keep up the amazing work!
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@Faugxh @Misokatsu @tailee17 @Aleyadaisey
@Jana1988 @acromouse thank you all for your replies to my post on 3rd Jan, when I finally had one day, and felt able to post after an absence. Safe to say I have not had one day in these following two months. My takeaway addiction has been so out of hand that I have now only Ā£300 left out of my entire life savings. Addiction is fkin terrifying how it takes and takes until thereās nothing left (in my experiences), creates multiple severe health issues (in my experiences), and yet
I still feel completely powerless. I feel insane.
Obviously itās my own fault, but my diabetes is still so out of control, despite having been on a total of three different medications for it since my last post 2 months ago. (I didnāt get the medication I was hoping for, but Iāve just had my quarterly blood tests yesterday, and I know for a fact my HbA1c is going to be really high still, because I am testing my blood glucose throughout the day at home.) so I am seriously hoping that when the diabetes nurse eventually calls me to discuss my results, she will agree to start me on Mounjaro, as one of the criteria is that you have to have tried three different diabetes medications and for the diabetes to still be unmanaged. I am the heaviest Iāve ever been in my life. Now over 18st and Iām 5ft4. I only leave the flat to attend therapy or medical appointments. I havenāt even been for a haircut since before xmas, because I just do not want to be seen. I have tried various eating tactics to try to stop this habit, but I am losing the will to live at this point. I was going to wait until I had one day before I made a post, but if I keep waiting for that day to come, I may die from this addiction first.
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Day 1540 : No binge today.
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Hello @CATMANCAM 
I knew that something is not right when you disappeared from the thread. Iām really glad that you came and updated us.
I understand that you donāt want to hang around here when not doing well at all, I think we all are a little bit like it. We like to share our success, not otherwise. Thatās how social media mostly work and why we have this mentality and approach even here - in the app made to connect people in recovery, which is a different world to a normal social platforms.
Iām not happy seeing that youāre totally isolating yourself from the outside world, because that canāt and wonāt make you any better! Iāve never been in such situation but I think I can imagine what leads someone to it and how you probably feel. I wish I was close to where you live to at least visit you if youād let me and hopefully help by at least talking or something.
If you isolate yourself at home, please, stay at least here with us You donāt have to share days of no binging to hang around. Iām on streak of binging now too and I am still here. Up and downs, no matter which one, be here, share how you feel and how youāre doing. Tell us about how desperate and hopeless you feel, communicate it out, let it out, donāt hold it. We can all rely, my friend, we will get you and we understand!!
I really care about you and I worry. What about your family, didnāt they notice that youāre not doing well? What about the money you spent? What does it mean for you? Are you going to be ok? What were the savings for? Do you have a job?
Maybe you feel defeated, like if you already gave up on this. I think you need some professional help at this stage. You need someone to be with you and help. Is there any possibility of getting a help like this where you are? Maybe joinining some programs? At least online if you donāt want to attend somewhere.
Man, life is beautiful and spring is approaching, I wish it would make you feel at least a little bit better. Donāt accept dying. Youāre way too young! Your body can still heal, bodies are amazing and can do unbelievable things if we let them
I am sending you all my love Youāre in my heart Please, stay here with us
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@CATMANCAM Good to see you back friend. Please stop shaming yourself love. We all do love you and want to hear from you. You donāt need to to prove anything to us or anyone, including yourself. You are not a mess. You are a lovely being. Share your light with us. We need you. We all of us need all the unicorns we can get.
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Had a very intense using dream with stuff popping into my mouth but me somewhat also wanting it, or not. Very strange. Was glad when I woke up.
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I was so happy to see you check in! I was at work hence the late reply! And I feel strongly your sadness and distress with you. Itās so understandable. Addiction can be this OG motherfucking bitch. I wished I could take some of it off you and bear it myself, I got off so easy compared to you w alk. My addiction was my latest symptom and I was mentally so open to therapy. I was just lucky in that respect. I still have my addictive tendencies w control, sometimes w buying things, but these things just arenāt life threatening.
How is therapy going? What are you guys working on, roughly, if I may ask?
I wanna remind you of all that you have already accomplished. You have quit coke, alk, nicotine. Great feats, especially if you look at how strong your need to escape is. Itās the same addiction, this one, and food is its OG motherfucking hold. You still need it mentally, the numbing. All you can do is try and try to confront yourself w your fears and pains. The more you do that, the less need there will be for the numbing.
Sending you so much love! 
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I am also glad to see you posting, and agree with Jana that if having no ādaysā to post puts you off, post something else, some veg you ate, or some movement you did, no matter how small, just so you can build some momentum. I hear your pain and frustration, and wish I could help more concretely. I also agree with Fauxgh that you have done so well with other things, take confidence you can apply the same things to food, though on this thread we all understand the way food is tricky in its own unique way. Always on your side. 
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I donāt have much advice but I am sending you so many supportive hugs and praying for you. Please donāt isolate yourself. If youāre able to, you can join overeaters anonymous or eating disorders anonymous. If you would like to continue venting here please do, weāre here for you and we support you no matter what. You donāt have to fight the addiction alone and suffer alone.
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Hey! I am so glad you checked in. I missed you. Sorry to hear of your struggles. I understand you donāt want to get out and be seen but here you can be present any and all times just as you are. Please keep us posted.
I really do love your posts as you are an honest amazing person.
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Day 1541 : No binge today.
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No binge today on day 3. Thankfully I am done with the intense and stressful work project that disrupted my sleep all last month. Did some grocery shopping and meal prep.
Iāve been having some memory and focus problems, so Iām trying to be more mindful. Harder than it sounds but I think it will help me with compulsive eating too. Iām trying to do one task a day where I am not distracted by music or podcasts or movies or TV or audiobooks. It makes me so uncomfortable! Iāve always hated boredom more than anything (even sadness or anger) so itās very hard to just exist with myself while doing something, and nearly impossible for me to not get distracted and then forget I did or didnāt do something. I also tend to go for snacks when I get bored, so it will help with this if I can learn to handle being bored.
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