Wow that sounds crazy! I am sorry you had to go through something like this 
I canāt even imagine how that felt. But man, 15 hours is soooo long 
I would have trauma too. Such things affect us. I hope you will soon feel a little bit better and be able to be in peace with your eating 
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So I am finally in Czech. But what a journey!!
The flight to the Czech Republic is normally just over 1.5 hour. We spent on the plane 7 hours, missed our last bus from the airport to my hometown and got only 50g of salted peanuts on the plane We landed after 9pm and were starving. But I didnāt want to eat that late so managed to go to bed hungry. And I survived.
Btw when they were giving the snacks away I thought they are only offering biscuits and was ready to refuse it. Which is a great sign!
9 days without sugar 
12 days without binge
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780 sugar
644 UPF
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Day 84 smoke free, 63 binge free, 18 snacking free.
I feel good. Have a peaceful day everyone!
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Just wanted to do a weekly check in here about how things are going with my ED.
This past week has actually been very good. I have not binged all week 
Meal prepping has been super helpful, as well as making sure I have a variety of healthy options to eat (especially those with high protein & fiber). I have been focusing on getting 10 grams of fiber and at least 40 grams of protein per meal (so 30 grams of fiber a day & 120 grams of protein a day). I find this really helps with not bingeing. If I feel full, I notice the cravings to binge are less. Its when i feel like Im not satsified, that I start scrounging around the kitchen, eating whatever it is in sight.
There were a couple nights where I ate over my daily calories by a bit. But not by much. I have also enjoyed making healthier versions of ice-cream with my new Ninja Creami. I used to binge on very high calorie ice-cream and this machine has been a game changer for me bcuz I can now enjoy low calorie/high protein ice-cream and not feel so guilty. Not feeling guilty stops the binge cycle for me.
Im happy about how things are going so far. Mentally I sort of feel a slight switch in my thinking about my relationship with food. Whether that stays with me or not, idk 
. But I absolutely have to continure being consistent moving forward.
Monday is my ED zoom group and Im excited to attend that. Just hoping to get thru the weekend binge free and it should be about 1 week since Ive engaged in my eating disorder I actually (FINALLY) bothered to start a timer for this, since I feel like Im capable of gaining some recovery under my belt now. I used to never keep track as I was constantly stuck in a cycle. But i feel things are diff this time!
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This is gteat progress! Thanks so much gor sharing!
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I am so happy for you! I love all the steps we are making and how each one of us finds their own way!
Keep on going, I am cheering for you!
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Amazing, Jana. So happy for you. Itās a huge relieve when the binging stops. You got this 
!
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Day 1853 : No binge today. 
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781 sugar
645 UPF
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Day 85 smoke free, 64 binge free, 19 snacking free.
I am grateful that I can come here daily. You all give me so much support. Thank you, again
Have a peaceful day everyone!
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This is amazing, well done! 
I am happy for you found something what works for you! 
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And you give so much support to us Thank you, Daniela 
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13 days no binge
10 days no sugar
Wow, wow and wow!
I am in the Czech Republic and I am not binging, nor eating sugar, and itās not like here are no triggers!
Yesterday, we were celebrating my mumās bāday at a restaurant. It was a big family meet up for a dinner. I had my dinner and nothing else. Mum sat opposite me and my partner next to me and both had a dessert after their main. God, it smelled so so so good!! And it looked super delicious! The feeling I had wasnāt exactly temptation and definitely not a craving. More like a thought that it would be probably nice to have a spoon or two (and I could) but at the same time I didnāt want to trigger myself by the taste in my mouth, because it could cause that Iād want more than a spoon or two. Secondly, I didnāt want to break my counter. So I didnāt have any.
Today morning we had some family visiting for morning coffee to say goodbye before leaving back to their homes which are a bit further than where I am staying. My mum put Xmas sweets on the table and again, I had none.
I think my mind is stronger now when I came to Czech being off sugar for a week already. I think that if I started fresh, I wouldnāt find it this āeasyā. So good for me.
There was also one hugely stressful situation happening to me and it didnāt make me binge, or want to binge. Another big win for me.
I noticed that I am slowly getting used to the fact that evenings are no longer for sitting down and stuffing my mouth with food. I enjoy a nice cup of tea instead. I donāt care that I put a dash of milk into my tea at the moment. For me that bit of milk is ok and much better than binging on tons of sugary things like before.
Interestingly I feel like my belly is getting bigger rather than smaller as Iād thinkā¦ 
Maybe itās just a feeling and not reality. I donāt really know. But I am trying not to get bothered because I just want to live peaceful life. And if it means to have more fat in my belly, then be it.
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How are you doing in Czech? I know it can be challenging to be with people who show their love by offering food and sweetsā¦ Are you using your tools and is it working?
Warm hugs to beautiful Czech
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I just posted above 
So far so good. I have my therapy session in 15 minutes too, so thatās an additional support for me Thank you for asking, itās lovely here!
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Amazing work! I am so happy for you.
Give your belly time! Chances in eating can cause changes in the guts and microbiome. I am pretty sure itās not fat.
And itās very healthy to focus more on peace and sobriety than on appearence. You are doing great
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13 hours
Soā¦ yesterday I posted something on here sooo positive about what was working for me. This does work for me on a ānormalā every day basis. But what I didnt prepare for was the emotional eating Id experience.
Long story, shortā¦ I got upset bcuz my husband was frustrated. I allowed these feelings to consume meā¦ feelings of being āsmallā, dumb, and worthless (I should add that he didnt say these things or anything, its just how I felt about myself). And that lead to overeating on supper, which then led to me continuing eating random snacks in the home all evening. I was overfull and then felt feelings of guilt and shame.
I changed my timer name to from āFree from Binge Eatinā to āFree from Disordered Eatingā bcuz i think emotional eating is actually the main root of the problem. Coping with my emotions thru food leads to Binge Eating.
I reset my timer and Im now at 13 hours in. Now normallyā¦ my pattern is to feel guilt and shame for days which also involves days of disordered eating. I am NOT doing that this time! I have packed a healthy lunch for work and then will eat a ānormalā supper later. One day of poor eating is not going throw me off my weight loss goals either. Multiple days will tho. So back on track I go!! Thank u for everyone on this thread! Im grateful this thread is here
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Day 1854 : No binge today.
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Iām sorry @Butterflymoonwoman . I read your post yesterday and it was positive. As you say, sometimes weāre doing well and then something unexpecting hits us and we do the one thing we know the best - go to food for comfort. You were doing that probably for years so cut yourself a bit of slack, because itās very deep rooted habit (coping mechanism) and you will naturally feel the desire to follow it every time when some of your feelings appear.
The great thing is that you noticed the pattern and realised the fact that you are trying to eat away your emotions..
Did it work? Did eating make you feel better?
Thatās what I started asking myself, because I have the same problem. Answering these questions before eating when feeling something helped me to stay away from food. Because for me it doesnāt work and all I am left with after eating is dissatisfaction at least.
Iām pleased to see that youāre checking in immediately and not giving up. I am supporting you big time! Let us know how you feel today and how your eating goes.
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