Day 3
Yesterday was a good day for my eating. I didnt even snack late last night (even tho I wanted to).
Today I am focused on not engaging in disordered eating. I am not able to get an actual workout in and so history has shown me that when I dont workout, i eat poorly. Going to do everything I can to break this cycle.
Have a great day everyone! 
Day 1857 : No binge today. 
@Jana1988 Congratulations on 2 weeks without sugar and 16 days without binge eating! And youāre making progress little by little, itās seriously amazing! 
I also hope you enjoyed your time at the restaurant! 
@Butterflymoonwoman Congrats on 4 days!
Thank you, @Aleyadaisey 
Yes! I am less afraid with every new day without binging as I can see that this life is possible and reachable for me 
17 days no binge 
14 days no sugar 
I had two big meals (lunch and dinner) yesterday and I didnāt exercise for a week today (except for one walk). Thatās super unusual for me. Maybe it is helping me not to binge because I donāt have to eat the extra calories and can concentrate on learning about normal portions for me. I feel more bloated without exercise though and I am now looking forward to start implementing some movement into my daily routine when I am back in the UK. Probably from next week on.
Yesterday after a dinner at restaurant, I still craved some snack when I came home. It was before 9pm and I donāt really fancy eating this late anymore.. I said to myself that in the UK isnāt 8pm yet and brought myself a bowl of roasted salted cashews and 95% dark chocolate. I had 2 palms of the cashews (I am now measuring how much I have of what for my notes for the therapist). I took the rest and the chocolate and put it back in the wardrobe because I felt SATISFIED!!! WHAT??? NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE 
It wasnāt because rationally I knew I shouldnāt have more. It was because I felt physically satisfied. Wow, thatās AWESOME! I feel so good, like I can trust my body and that if there is enough food coming through the day, I donāt have to go through cravings anymore 
After that my parents and my boyfriend were eating tons of milk chocolates, mum had some special edition of different flavours which looked really good and like something I couldnāt resist to before. Guess what, I drank my herbal tea and stayed not bothered. These things are so so AWESOME for me! Really things I want to celebrate
I am so happy with my progress 
Day 89 smoke free, 68 binge eating free, 23 snacking free.
I am struggling a bit with my food choices. Way too much carbs, which make my stomach hurt. I will work on that.
So happy for you, @Jana1988. I can share a lot of the experiences. Feels so good to finally step out of longterm patterns! Keep on going!
Well done on your numbers! I hope to have over 60 days binge free as well 
But first I need to get to a month 
I eat lots of carbs too. Theyāre easy to go to, filling and tasty. Itās hard for me to cut them down here in Czech but I will do better back in the UK.
785 sugar
649 UPF
Day 1858 : No binge today.
18 days no binge
15 days no sugar
Good morning 
As I mentioned before, Iām writing down WHEN, WHERE and WHAT I ate through the day and how I felt, any thoughts , etc. Itās a part of my therapy. So far it helped me to realise that I tend to have louder cravings and bigger appetite later in the evening when I was skipping my meals or not eating properly throughout the day. That is very helpful information.
E.g. yesterday I knew weāre going to have our lunch/dinner at 4pm so I didnāt want to eat too much and ended up having just āsmaller snacksā every so often. Once we got to the main meal I slightly over ate and craved something else since. I managed to stay on track but there was a moment when I brought myself two small milk chocolates and was thinking to have them. But at the end I felt bad about having to reset my counter and so I gave them to someone else. I canāt put my finger on why I even brought them to the table at all.
Today, I will make sure that I am not skipping any meals and I am looking forward to seeing the difference. I started to enjoy experimenting and learning about my body and mind - about what is needed to feel satisfaction in both.
This holiday time in Czech has been such an excellent learning curve for me. Not having to work gave me a proper time to dive deep and to be able to observe and experiment without distractions of work and day to day responsibilities I have back in the UK. First I didnāt think I am ready to be away when in recovery, but now I am grateful for this. I feel more ready to return to the UK tomorrow and to start building some routine and creating a new lifestyle. I am pretty sure it will be work in progress for a long time which will require more learning and experimenting, but I already got some useful information about how my body and mind work and that is a great start. I am excited and looking forward to having life in which food donāt control me anymore..
Wishing you all very peaceful Friday! I am going to enjoy my last full day in the Czech Republic with my family Iām missing them all already
@Jana1988 Soooo loving your developments and breakthroughs! Your thoughts and experiences give me so much to reflect on. Many thanks for sharing all of that with us. 
786 sugar
650 UPF
Day 90 smoke free, 69 binge eating free, 24 snacking free.
I feel grateful for many healthy connections to great people, here and offline.
Have a peaceful day everyone!
Day 5 free from disordered eating
Extremely proud of myself for how I dealt with a disagreement last night. I did not emotionally eat, binge eat, or harm myself with food in any way. I cant believe I handled that the way I did. Idk what switched in my head but something did.
Anyway, I am grateful to be at day 5!
Proud of everyone on here
HUGE congratulations on 3 months of no smoking!!! Omg thats amazing!!!
I am so happy to read these great news, Dana. So cool and I am proud of you.
Day 1859 : No binge today.
@Butterflymoonwoman Congratulations on 5 days, that is almost a week! 
Keep up the good work, and Iām really impressed with your wins too!
Thank you for your support, @acromouse 
It means a lot for me! Youāve got some awesome milestones so thereās been a lot to learn from you
Congratulations @Butterflymoonwoman It feels great when we break a pattern and manage to react in a different way (or not to react at all) despite the situation involving strong emotions and therefore the self-control is harder to pursue 
Itās indeed an achievement 
19 days no binge
17 days no sugar
Good morning all
I wrote about feeling of fatness and shared a graph not a long time ago. I feel fat since maybe 2 weeks ago and the feeling goes nowhere. Given how I eat here in the Czech Republic and that I donāt exercise at all - I am not surprised. I accepted this feeling despite it being very unpleasant, because I know that Iāll work on this once back in the UK. This vision of getting back on track is making me to be looking forward to being back. I am flying today and I am really very much looking forward to being back in my routines with some slight amendments. Thereās no way I could live in the way I am living here, I hate it. I canāt even look at my belly how disgusted I feel. Looking like in pregnancy. I definitely donāt have any positive feelings about my body right now. It really is not only the visual but mainly the awful way I feel inside my body. I feel disconnected.
In safety of my own home where I will have and eat only foods I want to, I hope to achieve some balance which Iāll be able to carry over with me whenever Iāll have to travel somewhere else. Being in the Czech is always very difficult for me in terms of eating. People cook for me here and over buy stuff because they think Iād starve to death otherwise and I feel pressure to fulfil the expectations of eating it all with a gratitude. Not mentioning that the food is not always healthy. Czech food can be fatty.
As said yesterday - it was good to have some time off and learn something about myself and food. Besides many other things I now know what I DO NOT want. Which is also good 
Happy Saturday to everyone!
Safe travel home for you! Then youāll be able to get back in your home routine and expecting you to start feeling better ..
I forgot what a gem this thread is. I feel a serious motivational kick only by reading your posts. And Iām happy to see youāre still fighting the good fight (although it would be nice to donāt have to fight at all 
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I donāt know if Iām ready to start the war with my binge/sugar eating just yet. I will try.
Day 0, morning
Mischa