@Jana1988 In case this may be helpful to shift your perspective, long travels - plane, car, whatnot - different climate, different altitude, different routines, different movement patterns, and some more can impact your digestive functions. This happens to me every time I travel and I will feel bloated for days even when I have choice over my food. I treat it as part of the “travel experience” 
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651 UPF
Glad to see everyone keep fighting the good fight. 
I haven’t binged since the beginning of the year. As it is winter there are lots of white chocolate seasonal products, which I love, and have been eating one a day. I have been eating more wholefoods and working out, so I feel it is balanced for me.
Thank you for this. I hope you’re right and it’s just this and once I am back at my usual environment, everything will settle down again 
Its so lovely to have u on this thread! Welcome!
Great work my friend! Not bingeing since the beginning of the year is fantastic work!
I get how hard it is tho with the seasonal treats. Fall is hard for me due to the pumpkin products out there such as pumpkin spice latte and all the fall cookies etc. But ur doing amazing!! 
That sounds really hard Jana. Being away from ur routine, not being able to eat what u prefer, and not being able to exercise. I get that 100%. I am absolutely routine oriented too. If one thing is absent, i feel “off” and mentally it throws me for a loop.
To be fair tho, i think u have done incredibly well being in those circumstances in Czech. You havent binged in 19 days!!! Thats amazing!! Plus u have learned things about urself that can really make an impact on future relationship with food. Im truly very proud of you!
1st day successful.
Day 1860 : No binge today. 
@poppyfairy I don’t remember seeing you on this thread. If you’re new here, welcome! I hope you find this thread helpful/inspiring in a positive way.
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I was using other nickname, Mischa84. But yeah, I was usually more reading than posting 
Day 92 smoke free, 72 binge eating free, 26 snacking free. I feel grateful for this community.
Have a peaceful day everyone 
Aaa, hello Mischa! Welcome back 
20 days no binge
27 days no sugar
So I managed to go through my holiday without a slip 
That’s pretty big for me.
I really felt awful in my body every single day when I was there. I felt like I was constantly full and getting fat. What a huge surprise to find out that I lost weight 
I ate more, I ate “unhealthy food” and I didn’t exercise. Yet I lost weight. I am starting to believe that regular eating without restricting is ok. Because that’s what I was doing, mainly, because I was told to do it by my therapist. Keeping a track of the food, time and place where I ate made me accountable. So I made sure that almost everyday I managed to have required 6 meals a day, sometimes 5. I am feeling very relieved that I am not getting fatter 
BTW, I was always against weighting myself but it’s another thing I must do for the therapy. I even had to buy the weight scale for it as I didn’t owe any.
After I came back home and woke up today morning, I realised how nice it’s to be back HOME 
Today when I went for a run I felt happiness and satisfaction with my life over here. I didn’t realise until now how stressful it was for me to be back with my family. My feelings over there are anxiety from disability to meet everyone’s expectations. Because I am not there, everybody wants to see me and my mum wants me only for herself. She’s got a bit better but sometimes I feel like I can’t even breath because she just won’t let go. I know she loves me and it all comes from that place but it is hurting me big time, because I worry to go and see someone else because I am scared she will be annoyed or even angry. As I say - it’s not as bad anymore (her partner had to talk to her about this), but the feeling of anxiety is still there in me. It doesn’t help that both my parents are quite negative and they both feel like their life is 
and that it’s not their fault. They do nothing to change it, but complain all the time, putting themselves in a position of victim. I can’t live with people like this. It was really exhausting for me to be there and having to listen to it every day. One morning I even told my mum that I’d like to eat my breakfast in peace without anybody complaining about anything and she didn’t think she complains at all. She didn’t complain that morning 
My mum also gets stressed over small things a lot. She absolutely doesn’t have her own back and feels like she must do exactly in the way how she believes to be expected to act by other people. She would need a therapy herself. I think because she is unhappy she became a shopaholic, but a very very long time ago. She can’t hold any money for a long time. She’s the kind of person who no matter how much money she gets, she’ll always manage to spend it all.
Looking at my family, I am surprised that I turned out ok at the end. Except for that I didn’t. I was an alcoholic and I have an eating disorder, but given my circumstances, I am doing really well.
I am really grateful for my mindset and that I am managing to break through the patterns of my own family. As one of my favourite podcasters would say, I am a transitional character in my family (I hope 
).
Happy Sunday to everyone 
9 hours in
So i wasnt going to reset my timer initally, bcuz i was confused if what I experienced was disordered eating. BUT… when it comes down it, I felt very out of control last night with my eating. And that to me is a sign of a binge. I am struggling to see how it happened tho. Bcuz it wasnt emotional eating (bcuz I was fine). I was hungry after work and made the mistake of buying veggie crisps at dollarama. I ended up eating the whole bag once home. And I think thats what started it? Maybe after eating the veggie crisps, i felt like i already messed up, so continued on with overeating on supper, and then eating afterwards when already too full. I just couldnt stop.
So anyway, I felt like I should reset. But today I am going to do everything in my power to not repeat what happened. If anything… im grateful that I have had a mental switch in the sense of not continuing for days on end when i “fall”. I used to binge for days. And now, if I “fall,”, it lasts that one day and then Im back on track.
Im trying tho… I really am. Just trying to learn about myself and why I do this. Thanks for being here and being understanding!
I am sorry you had to reset your counter. I just learnt that I’m more likely to binge if I get to a point when I didn’t eat through the day and therefore I’m hungry. When I am hungry I make poor food choices and my body also wants to eat and eat and eat. The feeling of “I messed up already so it’s ok to continue” is also very well known to me. But when you think about it - it makes no sense and it’s not true. It’s always better if we can stop ourselves.
Closing day 2 happy.
Edit: intermittent fasting was something that helped me tremendously before so im trying to stick to it again. Not as strict as it should be but generally not eating after 6, max 7. 8 o’clock in the morning, sometimes 9, I drink my smoothie.
Day 1861 : No binge today.
21 days no binge
18 days no sugar
Good morning
I am thrilled with my 3 weeks without a binge 
It feels really good Yesterday after my dinner I was thinking of having some pistachio nuts but I was satisfied from the dinner so there was no need for more food and snacks. So I simply didn’t have the nuts. The thought about them came, I considered it, made a decision and with that the thought left and never came back. That’s like a miracle for me, because before it would bother me for as long untill I went and had the pistachios no matter how full or satisfied I was.
A new challenge is not to eat all my food. My therapist and I discovered that I still have this “I can’t waste food.” mindset in me. So now she wants me to prepare myself food and then leave some on purpose, probably just to show me that it is ok. It’s really against my inner beliefs so it will be hard for me to do that. I must trust the therapist and just do it and see how I feel, etc.
I hope you all will have a great Monday and successful start to this new week!
3 weeks is amazing! I am celebrating with you!
Keep on going Jana, you are doing so great
Welcome @poppyfairy
Yes, this thread is a gem. Glad you are here and contributing!
@Butterflymoonwoman So sorry you had to reset. But so glad that you are reflecting on it and being kind to yourself.
In my experience, sometimes there is/was an emotional trigger for my binge eating. Sometimes there wasn’t and I binged because I just was so familiar with the pattern to binge at night. I did it on autopilot without internal or external triggers. I was able to break the break the pattern with the same tools that I used with smoking. ODAAT 