Craving…going to sleep
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Do what you gotta do Stacey. What ever it takes.
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you’re gonna have to get through the initial withdrawal stage. It’s tough, and it could last a couple of weeks. you’re doing great though. Making yourself to get the support you need.
You want to get sober. I know you do. It’s just that your unconscious mind, the part of us that control our decision making, still wants to get it’s fix.
Every day, reach out. Call your sponsor, log into TS, get to a meeting, read NA literature. You’ll need everything in your arsenal to get through this. Every day, several times all through the day.
And again I say. Never give up, never.
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Right now its having a nap lol cause I’m tired as hell and I am getting like cravings. So I’m gna have a nap then wake up and tackle either the dishes or the bench I needa clean and hopefully get to the supermarket.
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You can do it I believe in you.
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Sorry team i got my counter wrong. I’m on day 3 now. But 2 full days clean still. I went to an NA meeting. I shared. I listened. Just for today, I am grateful for my relationship with God, who cares for me. I am grateful for another day sober. I am grateful for the pain it took to want sobriety. I am grateful for the despair that lead me to need God, who loves me to a degree I will never understand. I am grateful I cried and hurt and learned to want more for myself.
Soldier on my sober friends. A shootout to @anon12657779 @ThajokerNL @Matt @SoberWalker @Dolse71 @crystalclear @Sober30Free @KevinesKay and there will be more I’ve forgotten to mention.
Thank you all for being in the trenches with me and pushing me in my deepest moments of agony.
Love you all my beautifully fragile indestructible companions. Here’s to another day sober…just for today xo
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stay strong Stacey. Keep praying!
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This is the other thread I post to sometimes if anyone wants to have a read - usually just tangents to be honest 
Continuing the discussion from Checking in daily #5 :
Yes, JUST FOR TODAY!!!. We ask for no more, we need for nothing tomorrow, we’ve got everything we will ever own in our heart right here right now.
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Let’s buckle up for today, we can do it Stacey!!
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Its 1.45am…I cant sleep. I’m craving. Fighting hard for day 3 right now. But day 3 is as important as day 1…or day 100 or day 1000. Day 3 is something worth fighting for…guess today I’m one of those people spring cleaning at 2am…
But one of those SOBER people cleaning ag 2am
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we’ve all been there. Stay strong. Each day won is so worth it. The cravings will pass. And you’ll be glad you stayed sober in the morning.
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I’m counting on it “this too shall pass” right?
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I’m taking life by the horns and making it my bitch. 209 days without a drop. Yeah, there were some struggles with cravings, but I didn’t cave in. Zero relapses! Ive got this! I can’t wait for my year mark!
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Thanks for that little spark of “go get em tiger”. You’re a legend and an inspiration!
Keep at it!
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It’s a shitty feeling falling off the wagon. I swear it’s worse than whatever it is that drives us NOT to drink.
I used to do competition shooting and there’s a bar with a row of (6) steel plates that you knock down one at a time. If I rushed and missed, I went back to pick up the one that I missed, which threw off my mind and I had to realign my sites. My coach used to tell me, on the range and as my life mentor, when ever I got bogged down on something I had done, he said, “The shot was fired. Move on.”
You can’t take back the shot, but hanging around on that one thing that already “happened” can distract you from running the rest of the course clean and focused.
He was a wise man. Lost him a few years ago, but his wisdoms are alive and well.
The shot was fired. It’s better to have a bunch of “Day 1’s”, than Day None. Fall off, wallow in it, screw it! Then figure out a different technique. You’ll find it! I am inspired by those that have done it, as well as those on Day 1…
I have faith in you…your honesty will carry you far. Good for you! Truth is freeing of the spirit to let us live guilt-free.
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You are a legend. Its 3.32am I’m gna try sleep again. And your words will resonate with me probably forever. You missed the shit move on. great respect for tour input thank you!
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Much love to you too Stacey. You are a sober soldier. Sober sergeant 
- wishing you a peaceful night tonight. Take a bath, rest, sit with yourself. You are enough 
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Thanks Matt. I managed to hop in bed at like 3am. 
tbh I feel like resetting my counter cause I use food and other stuff to compensate my no drug use. But I didnt use my DOC or abuse mg meds so I’m unsure if i should 
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Thank you so much for your encouragement. Have an awesome day!!!
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Don’t reset. Your brain is adjusting to life without the dopamine and highs and lows of using. Chocolate or cookies or whatever is just part of that reset. There are lots of other people in recovery here who have been through the same thing - I’ve seen people sharing about their cookies, their chips, their whatever. It’s ok. Be kind to yourself. Be forgiving. As addicts we tend to hold ourselves to these unrealistically high standards of behaviour (and this perfectionism feeds our addiction, feeds our sense of unworthiness and our desire to escape). Cut yourself some slack. It’s ok.
And who knows man. Do you like baking? Why not make yourself some cookies? Enjoy them, if you like. There’s nothing like some chocolate chip cookies and milk
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