I like LaCroix because A) there’s nothing in it and B) it tastes kinda bad.
For some reason, the weird taste tricks my brain into thinking in drinking something bad for me. So it curbs my cravings for other bad things.
Key-lime is good. Tangerine and grapefruit are my tops.
You nailed it.
That’s the best I can do right now so that’s the plan.
Sounds good man. Rest is good. Keep checking in whenever you need. We’ll be here.
Hi everyone.
I’m celebrating day 180.
Was with my family most of the day. Working gigs. Lacking custody of my eyes, but the cravings are not as severe. This too shall pass is true after all. Even if it’s only for a moment. Feeling good and hopeful today. Going to buy my wife some flowers right now.
Thanks everyone.
Hi @MrCade I’m sorry you’re going through this…
Maybe this is an obvious question…Have you tried letting go of trying to control how this/everything will turn out? Sometimes I get so caught up with what I feel should happen that I end up completely stressing myself out. The harder I try to hold on to something the more it slips through my hands.
When I decided to become sober, I guess I made a deal with myself that I wouldn’t let anything get in the way of my sobriety. Which I feel now that what I was really feeling was sobriety=who I really am…so if something was pushing me to the edge (drinking), I think it would be because I wasn’t being true to myself. Like I was trying too hard to hold on to an outcome that maybe didn’t fit who I was in the first place…it was either them(super general term for any problem I had) or me. Was I going to be true to myself or was I going to try to numb the problem to hold on to an outcome?
Letting go doesn’t mean the worst will happen. It just means you’re getting closer to who you are right in this exact moment. Who knows what will happen from there…
(Side note, I know you are going through A LOT, and I hope you know I’m not trying to down play what you’re going through at all by saying “let it go”. I completely understand it’s a heavy time. I have been practicing letting go (of the outcome) with every big decision or worry in my life-from relationships, my career, my kids… It’s really helped calm my anxiety)
Day 115!
Thank you for writing this. Your words are exactly what I needed to hear tonight. My anxiety has been through the roof but after reading your post I was able to take a deep breath. 
Checking in. A big big big 70 days. Thank you guys for all your help!!!
Off topic but related funny story. I knew a guy who went to traffic school in Spanish. He does not understand a word but successfully sat through the 8 hour course and received his traffic school certification.
I booked this trip on April 28th and have worked my effing A off for it.I cannot think of a better way to start it than by letting Gordon treat me to breakfast 
Have a safe flight.
Thanks Dan.
I dont like flying.
You deserve this trip! Have a safe flight and a great time!
Thanks @mleclaire I hope you’re enjoying yours aswell. Are you and your fella okay this morning?
Day 3 sober. I am going to the Church I need to listen a eord of hope and encouragement. I love you all 
@goBlue24 had to Google on Remicade. Thought it was a English word I did not understand but it is medication 
Hope your weight will improve soon after you’re taking those medicines.
Happy to read your positive story @ifs! 
Drinking will not save your castle @MrCade, you know it won’t. If you want to save your mariage maybe a counselor can help? Have you talked about your worries and anxiety with your wife?
Well done @Ish 
Have a good flight @anon84416494 and a great holiday!! 
That must be confronting, good of you you were prepared for it. Nothing more you can do then prove to him you can change the future by staying sober. The more you are sober, the less past with bad memories there shall be to look at.
Talking about those bad memories is healing
Congratulations with your 
days, that’s just awesome isn’t it!!
Indeed the work needs to be done Liv. But it doesn’t absolutely has to be done in AA. There are more peer support froups. I like NA better but still not sure it will work for me. And it can be done in therapy as well.
Funny thing is I feel both above and beneath it all. Not addicted enough or something. Not deep enough down the hole. At the same time my drinking is exactly what made me depressed as fuck. All the way down to suicidal ideation. I am happy to be clean and sober. But still looking up to the work I need to do like a huge mountain to climb.
BTW Letting all your stuff out, being open and honest, is half the work done I think. Thanks for sharing friend.
