Day 74.
Since I’m not sleeping well… 
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@LuluOnTheBridge That is amazing!!! I need to do something like that. And such a great reminder of the journey. Love it. 
Made it through Day 13!
Recovery didn’t grant me a one-way ticket to Heaven, but it did grant me a one-way ticket out of Hell! 
Glad I have been sober today!
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Thank you. I’m almost to 21 days and she’s still struggling. When she struggles, I struggle. I’ve been working on that with my therapist. We’re taking steps to get her some more help and all of the steps are scary. I’ve resorted to eating my feelings which isn’t much better. But I’m fighting one battle at a time.
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So glad for you!! Way to stay strong.
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Congrats on day 5!! Doesn’t it feel great to remember what you said to your kids the night before?? Keep checking in here through the weekend and the work party so we can encourage you. I think it matters that you’re even concerned about how to get through the function without drinking! That’s a great step. Being prepared mentally beforehand will help tons!
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Checking in day 187.
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Checking in towards the end of day 20. Another emotionally exhausting day because of issues my 14 yo daughter is having. The best thing I can do for her right now is to stay sober.
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Checking in on close of Day 19
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Checking in day 3. Feeling a little meh today. Only got about 4 hours of sleep despite trying to get a lot more. Knowing that people around me are still drinking is a tad confusing and frustrating. My boyfriend and I live together and he is still drinking. He is not drinking in front of me but I can still smell it. My sister is still drinking too but looking to quit. This is my sobriety and my responsibility so I will have to manage it. This is just part of the journey i suppose. Tomorrow is a new day. Well wishes for all 
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Congrats on making it to day 3 with alcohol close by. I can imagine how frustrating & confusing that is. Not sure I would have made it as far as I have if I’d have had access or people drinking around me. I think that means you are well on your way to sober life. Keep going. Don’t let someone else’s actions define your future.
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Hey TMAC, I commend you on seeing why the biological clock is an important factor. Yes many women have babies and they are 40 or older. But, 35 is considered high risk and the chance for conceiving becomes harder. I knew I wanted kids. I did however go back and forth a lot. Some of them were the reasons you stated, I like my freedom, my quiet time, my “I can do whatever I want” kind of mentality. Anyway, around 34 I decided to actively start trying with my now husband. I am 40 now and the harsh reality is I can’t have kids. That’s my story anyway…just saying your head is in the right place when it comes to timing. Good Luck to you on whatever decision you make and as stated in many other posts we are never truly ready to be parents. There are so many “what if” scenarios it can drive you mad.
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Day 59. Two days until 2 months and 2 days until music festival. All those positive thoughts I had yesterday about making it through the weekend are starting to slip. I was bargaining with myself on my drive home today. I spoke with a friend today who is having a baby shower in a couple of weeks and he asked if I was still not drinking. I told him I was not, and he said he was still going to offer me a drink. I told him I would still decline. He doesn’t get it. We were two weeks apart in IVF treatments. Theirs took and mine failed…again. I don’t even want to go because I should be having my baby shower too. But, I’ve got to ge over it. This is big for them as well and I will go even if it stings. Just effing triggers everywhere. Then, I passed my math class, official word tonight and how I would usually celebrate with some drinks. I’ve got to get my shit back together mentally before I blow it. All these events coming up are unavoidable. My true strength of will is about to be tested. Rant over…thx for listening. Night all.
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I feel like I should understand this.
Yet, I dont.
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Sorry to hear you’re feeling this eay @LAD, is your father passed away or out of your life a different way? My father choose to left all of us 15 years ago. I don’t know were he lives right now. It’s hard to deal with especially with your birthday coming up 
Did you know @Kater that your profile name means hangover in Dutch? 
If your “friend” is going to offer you a drink at his baby shower I wouldn’t go definitely @Quitter02
Why should you? It’s confronting because they are expecting ànd they are jeopardizing your sobriaty by offer you a drink. Two times a no.
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Day 381 
Was triggered yesterday by seeing two little plastic bottles of wine at the table with friends. That were the kind of bottles I used ages ago to secretly drink. They were easy to hide
Glad those days are over.
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I love those little moments of realisation! It’s like how did I ever just get used to that, or allow it to get to that point.
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- I didn’t know that one Josh. Thanks. I’ve been triggered a couple of times in the last days and this idea helps me to see them for what they’re worth. Today my holiday started and I should be happy. Worried and unsettled instead as my very close friend is in hospital on oxygen with a so far unknown condition and I’m at her place looking after her 10 year old. Lots of booze around. Happy I’m sober and clean. Drinking would just be stupid. Have a good sober day all. Love from Amsterdam.
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