Day 15 Check in. My heavy drinking buddy is murmuring about cutting back, fingers crossed! She is also my workout friend, so we upped the ante in the exercise dept today, which is making me feel buzzy and on track.
I like what you shared about the grieving process. My addiction was all that I new. Uncomfortable to leave the world I’ve always known (no matter how lonely it was) and to embrace a new path; one based on reality.
Wanted to act out last night. Just one of those nights. Kept pushing the urges aside. Read some on TS. That helped a lot. Feeling exhausted. Finally went to sleep. Feeling better this morning. Glad I’m choosing a different life. Thank you everyone.
I know exactly this occurrence of feelings. It’s like a flood of sadness and loneliness and just all around despair. I’ve had it since I was a kid and I believe that’s where it came from. I wish I had better advice… Do you ever meditate? That seems to help I guess. Also trying to reflect on the past and the ways it’s affecting me presently really help as well. Evaluating what in your life brings you Joy and and honest look at what is maybe going against what you want might be a good way to start. I dunno, I’m just as lost when this happens and it feels like there’s no way out when I’m in it. I’m sorry
Thanks, Mel. Means a lot. I care about you as well. You’re a great friend and an inspiration.
I’m being forced to confront some things I don’t really want to.
I love that you ask this question, if people go back to their previous answers they’ll see growth and that in a nutshell is my answer. A commitment to personal growth that I’ve not known at any point in my life.