I just wonder how many people that are low income have the same exposure to the concept of the energy of the universe? I just don’t see a lot of those same principals being taught throughout all classes and races…
I’m not disregarding all the people that have been thinking positively. And I’ve been reading about “the shift”. I’m just thinking about the massive general population that hasn’t been exposed to this idea and are probably not in a good frame of mind because they live pay check to pay check and have very few privileges.
What a rubbish start to the day. A regular daily disagreement of course ends with him bringing out the ‘u did worse when u were drinking’. Well of course I did, but is he going to use that card every single argument? And of course I haven’t had one word about not drinking for three months. I don’t need a gold star, but it seems unfair that he brings up things I did months ago, with no acknowledgement of current behaviour. Just feel I can never escape the cloud of drinking while I am with him.
Just hit 24 hours without alcohol and I feel like I’m losing my mind/wanna tear my hair out but I know this is the path I have to be on. This is /right/ to do, and I want to live a better, happier and healthier life. Onto the next goal: three whole days.
Ok so today is actually day 2. You think with a counter I would know this, ha! Anyway, all elective surgeries have been cancelled for the time being. This is good considering the shortage of masks, gowns and gloves. Prob should of happened last week. We did 2 elective cases this past week. Gave the option to reschedule at the end of April but they declined. Makes me dislike the area I am in even more, I’m also positive they are not looking at the bigger picture. I will still go to work next week, which is good. Hours will be greatly reduced tho. Anyway, it’s Friday, I have a fridge full of white claw and wine. I bought all of that before I decided to stop again. Luckily I can still re-play the pain I was in 2 days ago loud and clear. It’s not tempting at all. I think I will have a diet dr. Pepper in its place and homework it up the rest of the night.
I can’t speak for anyone but myself. But I do know that meditation is beneficial to everyone, regardless of their financial status. I also know it is an important part of life for many people all over the world, obviously the Eastern countries where it all began. I don’t disagree that living paycheck to paycheck brings its own stresses, I remember that time in my own life. All I can do is spread kindness and compassion in my own little corner. And hope it reaches others. The fact is, there will always be struggles and suffering in our world and money doesn’t alleviate that…it takes pressure off, to be sure, but $ does not protect us from pain and reality.
He is a real pain in the ass sometimes. To be fair, I don’t dash to post on here when he does something nice. Thanks for the encouragement, knew I could get it on here. Big thanks to everyone!
And I wasn’t trying to be dismissive of those who are losing their livelihood, obviously there many many people the world over suffering right now. Their suffering I cannot change. I can do my part as best I can to help people in my community and within my sphere of influence.
While everything around me is shutdown and the majority of the Tri State area is out of work, I’m still here, grinding out this work. This is one of the ways I stay on point with my Sobriety.
I agree, but I didn’t say it wasn’t. Originally what I said was a lot of people were going to be collectively thinking negatively. And that I don’t think a lot of people that are at the poverty line are exposed to the benefits of meditation. I wasn’t trying to spread negativity by stating it.
Yes It’s what I’m feeling myself and I’m struggling to stay positive and I don’t even think I “have it that bad”.
I don’t think money fixes everything, but I definitely think it can create a hostile environment when a large group of people are quickly in dire straits.
It kinda does seem like you are being dismissive but I know you and know your intentions so I’ll just assume I’m miss reading it. Hopefully my intentions aren’t being lost either.
I do understand what you are saying and my positivity is easy for me because I am no longer struggling financially today. I may be dismissive, I am not above it, clueless is likely more the case or just oblivious…maybe all of it. I can only tend to my corner. And try to improve and learn from your words.
I hope I haven’t added to your worries, that certainly wasn’t my intent. It was more to let you and others who feel down know that others of us are meditating on positivity and healing for our world…more of a collective…we can hold you spiritually while you are low. A collective hug that I guess didn’t come across well, my apologies for that. Wish you well and comfort during these challenging times.
2nd check in for the day. Feeling a little clingy. I went to the office, and I guess in a blackout I left a bunch of wine at my office. I was only tempted for a split second, like why waste it as it was quite a bit.
I marched it out to the dumpster behind my building and tossed it. Still not feeling great. A lot of regret and shame is starting to sink in. Weird conversation a few minutes ago with my Stbx husband that hurt my feelings and embarrassed me, but I took the high road, was kind, and let it go.
I have my 14 year old back with me now, so yay. 23 year old is at her boyfriend’s place. They can’t go anywhere. The whole state is pretty much just shut down and it’s super eerie. Reminds me of after 9/11.
I don’t want to hate myself, but I’m extremely disappointed. I saw this coming too, I just didn’t care to stop it.
