Thank you Sassy!! That is one beautiful number right there 
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Hey ups and downs as you probably already know I feel horrible because my poison is warm I drunk 12 small bottles of Merlot wine that is unbelievable and I’m so pissed at myself I pray everyday I can go 2 days maybe even 3 it’s horrible cuz I black out and then I don’t and I do stuff that I’m not supposed to be doing
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Congratulations I wish I can get to day five
Congratulations that is awesome I keep resetting mine so I wish I can just get past the day too
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Day 29. More sunshine this morning! That certainly helps to set the tone for a positive day. And I’m needing that little bit of help today. My arthritis is flared because of all the cleaning and chores yesterday, so I’ll do some knitting to warm up the hands before I do anything strenuous today. Navigating this pandemic is weighing on me. My dog’s seasonal allergies are back and while I have reserves of his meds from last year, I need to call the vet about refills. What if they want to see him before they’ll refill the prescription? Ugh. My other dog is due for a rabies shot in a few weeks, and they both need flea/tick/heart worm medicine. Ugh again. I have some health concerns and was about to get a new doctor before the crisis, and now I have no doctor and some lurking issues. Ugh ugh again and cue the anxiety. My husband always reminds me to ask, “What can I do about it right this second. What can I make plans to do?” It helps get back to a constructive view of reality before things blow out of proportion in my mind. And the main thing for me right now is that I can handle all the stress better while sober, and even better with a little bit of sober time under my belt. So, what can I do today? I can call the vets office and talk through options. I can call the 24/7/365 nurse line and ask questions. I can use my insurance plan’s website and even call them to get the names and numbers of doctors near me to call, even if I can’t get in until the pandemic is under control (is that even a thing? Until it abates, maybe…?) I can identify other sources of stress that lurk in my thoughts and address them instead of continuing to “try” to ignore them, since just because I’m not drinking to numb or avoid doesn’t mean I’m not still an avoidance professional.
Today I’m grateful for:
- more sunshine!
- a new knitting project with luxurious yarn - knitting myself a sweater, after a decade + of gifting sweaters and all manner of knitted goods to others
- my morning routine of setting intentions and identifying barriers and strategies for overcoming them.
Sending strength and loving warmth 
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Sorry to hear that. The first few days are definitely hard; your mind doesn’t want you to stop.
If you can just for today not pick up then you’ve got 1 in the win column.
Today, Tuesday, is a non drinking day!
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Checking in, Day 84 ( 
Weeks!!!)
Working on my Step 4, and it is clear I’m the classic ‘egomaniac with an inferiority complex’… Heard this yesterday and it describes me to a T: “Underappreciated in the world, over-appreciated in my own mind.”
Hope everyone is doing well in lockdown!
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I like the sound of that Thank you I really do and you’re right non-drinking day for Tuesday That’s why I tell myself I don’t want to go anywhere Don’t need nothing and that’s my thing I go out and then I go down that aisle I try my best not to go down that aisle and then it’s like come back home and then I have to go right back over there across the street so you’re right one day at a time
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Checking in. Just finished 4 days. Just a recap of how quickly binge drinking screws up your life:
I cant believe how quickly I went from
-Minorly depressed to severely depressed
-How quickly I went from liking myself to hating myself
-How quickly went from feeling healthy thinking “if I got this virus I probably wouldnt even notice.” To “If I get this virus I surely will die, I should write a will.”
-How one night of binge drinking turned into another day and so on cuz you feel so AWFUL you just want to feel better.
The list goes on. I didnt want to check in on here for a while because I didnt want to discourage anyone to think that relapse is okay. I was battling hard and I have noticed before each relapse I start pushing people away early on. So if thats you…reach out! Dont be like me.
I am now up in Utah in a cabin in the snow self quarantining away from my inlaws… listening to classic rock. Lucky I have this get away spot. Thinking of doing a media cleanse.
Love you guys, stay sober!
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Gorgeous figure.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Hi there, checking in today I’m 108 days sober. It sucks that can’t be in the recovery community (physically) but I’m finding a ton of virtual meetings and trying to stay connected! Crazy times we’re living in! Man, I feel like everything about recovery teaches us to connect connect connect and this virus has us all isolated. Definitely a challenge but I’m trying to reach out when feeling bad. Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday!
Thanks
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Thanks! It’s been quite well earned!
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Yes! It IS important for people to come back!! I LOVE how you said that. Because I was feeling like I didn’t belong here because I was such a failure. So I guess even if every day is day one (which I have been there, every HOUR sober used to be significant) … just keep trying!! Fight the good fight. 600 days coming soon.
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it’s great to see you about. It’s whatever it takes right now, It’s also great to see your days and to know your still at it. Like many I’m all over the place at the moment but not trying is not an option. Like you said, whatever, just thought I would say hello while your about.
oh and just for old times sake 
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Stay strong!! I always relate to your posts so much and I am rooting for you. Let the craving run its course… The other option is so much worse.
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@Clarity
I’ve reset so many times I cannot count. Every-time it seems to get easier for me. Probably because of the number of days. I cannot moderate and end up right back to tap fully open. I feel horrible and keep doing it in the vicious cycle. @Beardy_McTallman is right, keep coming back no matter what. We’ve all been there and understand when it happens. That is what I love about TS. No judgments, just support.
Hang in there, keep posting, and keep trying!!!
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So pleased your still getting sober days stacked up behind you, Every day matters and to get back to 5 shows me your still got what it takes, I’m proud of you and everyone else who won’t accept defeat.
I felt that drinking feeling again today bc I was out in the sun and quite content so I had to remind myself "PAUL, you only want to drink when your happy so this time just take a few minutes to appreciate the fact and not spoil it with some fantasy of alcoholic bliss. Nothing ever gets better by doing what we have done for years, it’s time to bloody wake up.
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