Don’t know what happened yesterday but I didn’t check in, oh well I’ve got 250 posts to go through. Hope you’re all staying safe.
Blessings and sobriety y’all!
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That may also make his hair grow back. That’s some man shit lol
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OVER 2 YEARS SOBER AND CHECKING IN to share that I just bought my first house ever… 
holyshit… I feel like I’m in the twilight zone!
I never would have dreamed that i would be this stable in life… even though we closed in the middle of a pandemic.
. the stress and anxiety of it, I still didn’t think at all about using. I took it head on and was able to overcome those feelings! Thanks for letting me share my accomplishment with you all! Day by day! Start with small goals, then gradually work your way up to the big! Before the house, my first small goal was staying clean for at least 48 hours… and I kept failing and repeating that goal, over and over and over again… but one day I persevered… I did it… then a week… then a month… then 6 months… now almost 3 full years…it’s worth it. Don’t look back! 
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It happens to us oldies, lol. Mine is thin on top but I can hide it! 
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(@Knox Checking in at the end of day 6 as well 
if you want to talk on the day to day challenges of these early days I’ll be happy!)
I had a big moment of craving today. I was home doing some cleaning with my girlfriend and I was afraid that feeling (what was that feeling actually? Anxiety? Emptiness? anyways, it wanted to drink) - I was afraid I wouldn’t go away. So I started to see myself tomorrow, being afraid that when my girlfriend would left for work I would not be able to control myself once alone and i would go to the groceries… you know the drill
Then I told myself to just think about today. On day at a time, and that helped.
Then late afternoon we’re talking in bed and I still get this craving-feeling-ish. So I told her I was feeling like having a beer. Started romancizing the idea of drinking. That maybe a pandemic wasn’t a good time to restrain myself that much. All the usual BS.
But she listened to me, and then she asked me to listen to her. She remembered me the last month since the quarantine started, how Ive changed because of drinking and how she was afraid for the first time seeing me this way. She remembered me that just this last Monday I was dead drunk , hurting myself in the locked bathroom, without even remembering why I was doing so. She remembered me that even before that, she wasn’t aware that I had a problem but that I was telling her multiple time I wanted to “take a break” or do a sober month, but I wasn’t capable of doing so. She was kind and remembered me how this week end she had found back the man she loves. It remembered me all I could’ve lost if I haven’t woke up this past Monday in the locked bathroom. It remembered me that I have so much to loose to booze compare to what I could gain from it.
Today I’ve been honest about my feeling with myself and loved ones, and it saved my sobriety and therefore so much more. It’s so much more than that first drink: it’s all about what it can destroy.
Today, I am grateful about my honesty about my vulnerability, and to be surrounded by love even when we are a lot far from each other.
Sorry didn’t have time to cheer up individually, but saw some pretty great work going on on this thread good night / day everyone
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@Salty I can relate to your whole post. I have a stick up my ass too! Lol and the last time I drank my fiance yelled at me “WHY CANT YOU BE NORMAL?!?” "AND YOURE SO MEAN TOO!! "After I downed the whole jumbo sized bottle of champagne in one sitting and blacked out and threw up in his trash can… dont remember that. He totally resents that I cant just be fun and cute and have a few. He thinks each time it might be different. Like I used to think.
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Mine is thinning to perfection. I think it’s just the right amount. I’m 40 and have red hair so my biggest concern is gray.
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I understand what you’re saying, see you when you’re ready again. Be well, stay safe.
- Coffee. Back to work. That first day after holiday feeling even though I worked for almost half of it. I’ll be OK. Sober and clean. The day broke pretty anyway.
Have a good week all. Clean and sober that is. Love from Amsterdam.
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I understand. I mostly wanted to add that because there was probably just a disconnect between the us back then.
Also that post was more so just getting my feelings out but if it seems like I’m being hard on myself and looking for others to feel sorry for me, I’m probably going to take it down. Do you mind unquote-ing me so that way I can do that properly 
thank you!
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Beautiful figure, beautiful sobriety, congrats on 700 days.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Woo hoo… Congrats on 4 months of sobriety, keep on trucking ODAAT. Hugs to the bunny and you
Blessings and sobriety!
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138,is that full feathers or does it include ½ ones or ¼ ones? Howz it going my friend. Hope you’re staying home staying safe.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Congratulations Sadie!! 
90 days are BIG! 
Hi and welcome here @Elizabeth72 🙋 We are here for you when you do!
Every day is a good one to quit your doc. I think the isolation stuff can be helpfull in staying sober. No pub, restaurant, etc is open here
But crazy times it are @PaulH 
Keep going: you’ve almost 3 weeks in your pocket!
Congratulations @anon89892515, welcome to the club 
Thank you for sharing @ForGetMeNot! Congratulations with both That looks like a fine house to me! Hope it become a great home
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Day 567 
Had a great weekend, it flew by!
Catched my numbers at the right moment, day 566 done and day 567 has started.
Have a great monday 🙋
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Congrats on 90 days of sobriety, keep on keeping on ODAAT.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 127 ! On my way to work with shorts!
That must be over 2 years !
I felt like a college dropout …
From the backseat to hands On the wheel!
Have a good day y ’ all
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it’s all any of us can do.