Stay strong love. I dreamed about you, our feb group on ts last night, 
So our efforts are combined!! I had an emtional struggle yesterday and a crazy night of tossing and turning. but a new early day. the sun is coming up and we give it another go. Just from where we are no matter how shitty. Ohm mane Padme Ohm.
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I am so sorry for you. So really sorry. I hope you find the strength to get through this. My heart goes out to you and your friend. 
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What a beautiful picture Shay. And what a terrible loss. I’m so sorry. I hope you’ll find the strength within yourself to deal with this somehow. In my thoughts.
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I’m deeply sorry for the loss of your friend, may she rest in eternal peace. Thinking and praying for you in these trying times. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 126! Again didn’t do too much, but had therapy for the first time in a while so that was nice
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Another day planning on staying sober and binge free. My body is extremely tired and therefore also my thoughts Have been reading a novel about the apartheid in South Afrika all night since I was wide awake. Always a bit of a present when you find yourself reading a book that really sucks you in. I think I go out a bit now before the fatigue kicks in. Tired is one of my main triggers… so I breath. I hope you all have a good day
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- My weekend started. I woke up early and I’m going for a ride. It’s therapy for me. While I travel through physical space I also travel in my head. Something like that. Three years ago today I reached the pacific coast in the northwestern USA for the first time. It was magic.
It’s doing stuff like this that keeps me going. I thought that getting drunk and high was living the real life. That I needed drugs and booze to enjoy anything. Turns out the opposite is true. Too bad it took me 40 years to find that out but better late than never. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam and Waldport OR.
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It’s late here… I can’t sleep. The honeymoon part is wearing off I guess? My wife has an early shift at the hospital in a few hours so I’m gonna make her Breakfast.
I thought isolation would make it easier but now approaching 6 weeks it’s not so easy!
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So sorry for you’re loss Shay 
Keep doing the good thing, for yourself and for her remembrance.
Take care
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Have a good test James. Give the new meds time to do their “thing”. Hope you will feel better tomorrow. Keep you’re to do list small so you can be satisfied when done. Big hug from the Netherlands
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Day 577 
Going to be “Santa” today. I’m allowed to choose a few people/groups to give presents to.
My shop wants to say thank you to all the health care workers. So I’ve choosen some institutions near by to give boxes filled with nice products to.
Thankfull for the organisation I work for decided our shops can do this 
Ps, @Maria can you give me the title and writer of that book? Sounds like a book I wanna read.
Thank you!
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1ever post. If I make it to tonight it will be 7 days till my last drink, the longest I’ve gone in 2 years! Its been progressive and secret, only my husband is aware of my issue and it’s only since I’ve been sober that’s I’ve started being honest about how bad it was. The 3 weeks before I stopped it, culminated in drinking at 7am all day and getting through 10 bottles of gin! I felt so terrible last Thursday it had to stop. I had proper detox! Felt like crap for 3 days, sweats, seizures on first 2 nights. Then started feeling better! I never want to go through that again. Yesterday was the first day I didn’t have to want or even think about a drink. Very early days, buts I’ve learnt so much already. Had a tough start with the detox, and the thought of going through that hell again makes me look as the stuff as poison!! I’m so chuffed with my self. Hope I continue the journey 
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Congrats on being on your seventh day of sobriety NewMel! Welcome here. Hope this group can be as much of a support to you staying sober as it has been to me. Together we’re strong. So much to learn and so much support to find. Success in your journey!
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Welcome to the forum Rad.
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And you take care… the lockdown is tough… keep strong yourself. Plan a bigger celebration for your special birthday for when this ends. Uk are expecting another 3 weeks lockdown to be announced today. Weird times. Wishing you strength and resolve to cope with the depression…
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7 days is a start 
Take it day by day. Every sober day is a victory! We’re in this together!
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Day 99 for me. Almost 100 days. The last few day I’ve been thinking about how much my sobriety means to me. In’d never wanna lose it. I know it’s only been 100 days (almost) but I feel so strong about this.
Plus. I feel like I want to help others in their journey. I’m a good listener and I think I could do a good job in supporting others. So does anyone have some tips to becoming a sponsor or supporter?
Have a good sober thursday my TS sober family!
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You sound like a hero already! good for you and powerful to have come to decide this and apparently detox on your own. you can do this. Welcome!
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It is ‘De kleur van haar Hart’ bij Barbara Mutch. very beautiful. a novel from mostly women perspective but paints a good picture on the rise of apartheid and the townships.
Good luck today Santa!
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