thinking of you bud.
That’s nice Menno. Very peaceful.
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Day 131.
I had a birthday this week and I find that always makes me miss my mum a bit extra… just memories of getting a card in the mail, old photos… nostalgic stuff. But I get sappy & emotional if the wind blows a certain way 
This was the first birthday after losing both parents. There was the temptation to drink but I did not. I wish hubby would have at least written “HBD” on a post-it as an effort 
although no such luck. But my little guy told me he wishes he had a piñata for me so that made my heart happy.
More snow today. I could use some greenery & sunshine. Have a great day 
Thoughts going out to anyone struggling today 
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Thanks 
.day 17 
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Thank you! 
Hoped that I could read it with my Kobo plus account, but it’s not on it. Maybe I can find it when the library is open again.
Have a great day too! 
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Try and hang in there. If there is anything we (I) can do…
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Hang tight, my friend. Sometimes it is just one foot in front of the other, getting through the day and hitting the pillow sober at the end of the day. You are never alone. 
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@Jane.c so sorry to hear you are struggling, is there anyone you can talk to? Sending you a virtual hug & 
As @Maria says hang in there, wishing it passes for you soon as possible.
Marie
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Day 3
Off for a long walk in the sunshine with my Son and dog, desperately need different scenery.
A job I applied for, received an email saying they want to interview me (Skype) next Tuesday, panic set in initially as did not expect to even hear back, and plus I think it is a demanding role. But I took a deep breath and am just going to try my best, and at least I am getting some interview experience again.
It is for an IT Applications Manager for a Rail Company, so lots of technology revision over the weekend, but this will keep me grounded . There is a lot of tech stuff not used before so what will be will be.
As always wishing you all a strong day, as many are certainly being tested at this time 
Take care
Marie
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Shay, I am so terribly sorry to hear about your friend. Sending you peace.
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Good morning awesome friends. @Salty happy belated birthday :). @GVLNative hope you’re feeling a lil better today man, and @Mno that road bike is wicked, I kind of want to try one bc I wanna be able to go far, but I also like my mt bike bc it’s a good workout. Day 73, it was a good day yesterday made super bouncy balls with my girls. I was very super calm and happy and not on edge, just took it all in and enjoyed every moment. My mom was on edge tho, and snapped at Addie while we were making the balls, which I said “MOM” it’s enough…bc I was perfectly fine with wat Addie was doing, she tried to justify herself that well she listened and I wasn’t yelling. I said if I think you’re yelling, so doesn’t she, and if I’m not scolding her to plz stop doing my parenting. She actually took it kind of good, and there was no fight. So I thought that was pretty good progress. I haven’t jogged in a while bc it hurts my lower back, but I hopped on the treadmill and ran a 5k in 36 minutes, not the best but I was happy. Its weird, I’m not out of breath or like getting tired, but I’ll stop running and start walking lol. Idk rambling on here, it’s a good beautiful morning and I can’t wait to get home to my girls and do something nice today as well. Have a good Thursday all, keep up the good work everyone
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Good morning 
So I am about 10 hours in after a 6 day relapse. I have reset basically everyday and yet everyday I find a way to get out and get pills 🤦I don’t get it, especially because I had recently made it to 2 weeks and was feeling great. I’m just stuck and don’t know why I can’t stop. I just got sick of this lockdown stuff and said screw it, I’m an American and if I want to leave to get pills then that’s my right 🤦🤷 stupid addict brain, it really is an ass and so am I for listening. So here I am trying yet again. I’m going to stop being on the go so much, since technically I should not be and then I won’t have an excuse to go get anything. I want to be free from this but I also want to take pills. The funniest thing about it all is, I don’t even get high off them anymore, it’s just a waste of money and sober days down the drain. I always think I’m gonna get some pills and use them in moderation but we all know that’s not how it works. So here I am starting day 1 again. Have a great Thursday everyone 
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Looked at my calendar to see the To Do list for the day and saw that today is Day 
for me being sober! Where does the time go? Seems like just yesterday that I was amazed I’d made it to 1 week and now I’m in triple digits. Couldn’t have done it if it weren’t for Fellowship - the amazing people here on TS and the supportive people I’ve come to know in AA. Thank You!!!
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Oh wow look at you!!! So, I quit smoking long ago. Probably around 21 years or so ago. I remember the first three weeks being hell, and then like magic the cravings completely disappeared and I became the most obnoxious ex-smoker on earth lol. You’re rounding that three week corner! How do you feel?
I smoked heavily, 4 packs a day back in the day. I only smoked for around 13 years though 
… and great sober numbers! You’re killing it 
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Shay, I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
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@Hopeful777
Sober twin…throwing some hugs your way.
Great job on Day 3!!!
@Maria
Tired is your body telling you to rest. Go with it. I had debilitating fatigue when I first quit. I thought, how am I going to work with this? Over time, it dissipated. I still have periods of extreme fatigue, but not nearly what it was in the beginning. A good nights sleep and right back at it.
@Mno Meno, preach on brother!!! Cycling is cathartic!!
@Ken37
Great job on 37 days!!!
@NewMel
Welcome to Talking Sober and congratulations on 7 days!!
You found a great group of people. Keep reading and posting and stay sober.
@Jonachav123
1 day away from three digits!!! Great job!!!
@Salty
Salty, hang in there and hopefully some sunshine will make it your way soon.
@Jane.c
I hate you are stuggling. Hopefully you find some peace soon.
I am pulling for you. Hugs
@anon60334405
Ramble on my friend. I am happy you are finding peace in exercise and time with your girls.
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Day 3 sober. I have difficulties to rest well. Thank triggers me a lot, I fell cranky and moody.
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Welcome! Keep staying strong! It might help to journal the nitty gritty details of the detox, because it’s super easy to forget. The good old alcoholic brain is very manipulative. How wonderful to have 7 days! Congrats and looking forward to your future posts 
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