Oh guys you just made me cry. I have been so sad, but not been able to cry (wierd feeling). Reading these three posts just hit me hard. I know its focusing on the past and that gets us nowhere. I know i have to think forward and make changes now that makes me happy. Thanks for giving me the chance to just speak right out of my mind. I decide if im able to decide that, that today is the last time i will let the past have so much control over me and my thinking.
Im glad i could help anyone with just speaking my mind and being straight forward. Thanks for giving me the insights of being able to Change @Mno@Livinlife116
I will cry out now and then get some hopefully good sleep and wake up with new hope
Day 122
So happy to see the progress of people on here, and also so proud to see those whose slip get up again. I have never been much of an internet person, it is strange to care about people u haven’t met (for me).
Day 21. Was a lot of talk in the meetings last night about step 4 work and inventories. Got to thinking it’s time to start unloading my homebrewing equipment. Put the grain mill up on ebay. Jeez it’s not easy. One day at a time and one piece of gear at a time. Also this might be my first 420 not smoking. Don’t really miss it as much as the booze though. Did a power workout this morning and took a nap. Recovery is exhausting work.
Day 380. It is so quiet around where I live, so I am trying to get out at least once a day now, even just to get groceries or take a short walk. I still haven’t felt much need to drink, and am making projects to stay busy.
I lost my job because of the quarantine, but am in a stable situation so I am greatful for the safety net. Overall, I still feel positive. It’s amazing to have time to spend with my son and watch him grow a little each day.
Feel better @mno!! One of the common symptoms were finding with covid in the US is loss of taste or smell. Just something to keep in mind. Keeping you in my prayers and thoughts.
214 Days. Still trucking along. I went out and bought my husband some new comfy pillows. He’s been sick in bed and everything I’ve tried to do to help hasn’t worked. He was so happy and thankful. They made him feel just a little bit better. I know it’s something small but his reaction was enough to let me know he appreciates what I’m doing to keep things going around the house.
How was your first day of work? Hope it went well!
Check-in at day 74. Feeling good. I’ve been in the 70s before, feeling confident and that’s just when things started to go awry. I got complacent. I’m not letting that happen again.
Check in day 16. We moved to this new apartment in early February and I rarely went outside because I was setting up and nesting I guess. Then March came and we started sheltering in place. I was drinking a lot through all that time and decided I’d had enough.
Basically, I have been in my lovely new apartment for almost 3 months! Lol. Now that I’m sober, I’ve been totally focused on my health. Exercising, because I don’t have a hangover. Doing a total skincare routine because I’m not too drunk at night and sick in the morning to care. Feeling pretty optimistic overall.
I just cant wait to go outside and run. I live in a highrise, and I don’t want to go in the elevator at this point. Waiting it out. For now I am playing wii tennis and running tiny laps around my kitchen island and through my living room. Crazy.
Day 533. I’m feeling really tense and ready to snap, and suffering morale issues today. But when my head hits the pillow tonight, I’ll have won another day.
Thank you! It’s better sharing this stuff with others than doing this whole journey on my own. It helps me a lot!
Tomorrow may be good, it may be bad, but it will be something I can handle, and it will only last 24 hours. Those things I know. If I can remember that tomorrow, it’ll help.
@Beardy_McTallman I feel that way too. I worry that I am not making the ‘right’ kind of posts, how people pleasing is that? I also worry people might think my responses to questions or problems are patronizing, simplistic, etc. This overthinking is one trait I really want to improve.
Hang in there James. Sending you some peaceful thoughts. Praying you’ll get some rest & wake up tomorrow less tense, ready to tackle the day with a clear mind.
Checking in sober. Today is a little better than yesterday. Another school week for my kids and another work week for me. I’m hoping to have some clarity on a few things that are up in the air at the moment…patience
