It’s gorgeous at night! I’ll post pics. My favorite is when they do pink on the buildings!!!
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Made it to my 90 days. Didn’t think i would. My first 30 days was the hardest days in my life so i know it would get easier. Now to my 1 year hopefully! Wish i knew where to get a chip because I’d love one. Just had to share my little accomplishment 
I will be trying to check it on here everyday cause this quarantine has my anxiety out the roof so msg me if u want just for daily convo? 
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Checking in day 93 no drugs or alcohol notta zero zip.
Sticking with my routine. I prefer to check in early, some days just don’t allow that. I hear my higher power laughing as I attempt to plan 
Did my readings, prayers breakfast all that good stuff first thing this morning. Had a 10 am zoom was great. Went for a good walk it’s gorgeous here in southern Ontario today. Simcoe to be exact born and raised here.
So I am feeling judgemental today can you tell.(notta zero zip) Keep attending zoom meetings or reading posts and hearing about people trying the pot maintenance program or quitting only one thing cause it was their real problem. I wish you luck with that I really do. For me complete abstinence from ALL mind and mood altering substances is a huge key to my granted early success. I also tire of the covid-19 drama and people wanting to maintain control. Wake up life was uncertain before it’s uncertain now this was directed at a group that has more experience and time in the program than me. I get it its right in our face more than ever so what does that mean for me. dig deeper work your program longer harder and stay connected with your HP family friends. #whatever it takes If something isn’t working fix it. I could keep going I won’t. I have to remember to step back and focus on me. When myself friends and family are effected by drug use right on screen at meetings making them want to use or like what has happened are now are back in there addiction. Steps have been taken to hopefully correct this issue but damn it sucks. its a selfish program but you still have to think of others. My rant is done. I wish you all 
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Wow! Amazing! Keep at it, friend!
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Hahaha burn that MF doooown!! 
Word er nog naar van als ik eraan denk 
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93 is a wonderful number. You got this now. You’re in control now. When you say “ALL mind and mood altering substances” do you include sugar? I quit cigarettes 19 years ago and I quit alcohol, caffeine, and sugar 8 months ago, but during this quarantine insanity I started bingeing on peanut M&Ms a couple of weeks ago, graduating to sugar cookies all day long and I immediately gained ten pounds. I quit the sugar three days ago and fell into a funk very similar to when I quit drinking, grumpy the first day and sleeping all day yesterday. Today, day three, I’m starting to feel “normal” again. I was fooled by sugar like I was by alcohol, nicotine, and caffeine, so I’m classifying sugar as a mind/mood altering substance now. How about you?
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Exellent said Joseph. And even better done. Huge congrats on 100 full days of glorious sobriety!
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Thanks alot i know most of it comes from my own insecurity. Im so insecure half would be enough. Its just thought like im a looser, when i was 17/18 years old my life was so promesing. I was intelligent doing intellectuel studying. Got a degree in microbiology and medicinalbiology. My family was so proud and i was to. No i just feel like a failure, i havent finished a study yet and im 29, the last 5 years has been all about my sickness and now i just feel liked im the biggest looser in the world. Wish i could redo alot of things.
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Wonderful!! Proud of you!! 
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Double dipping on my check in today. At my noon AA meeting I was asked to chair 
First time doing so, and on Zoom no less! Well, I survived. Did a brief history of my “qualifications” (i.e. how I’m a drunk 
) and even picked the discussion topic (resentment). It felt good talking, getting out things I’m feeling and things I’ve been hiding because I’m ashamed of what I’ve done. It was nice seeing others’ heads nodding and hearing I’m not alone in how I feel and what I’m going through. After the meeting I did a 15 mile bike ride to get out of the house. Stay strong, everyone!
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So today started out great , i woke up worked out and had breakfast was feeling good cause after yesterday i felt super productive. I had a few jobs to take care of today for clients of mine that they needed done during the stay in place order . Im a carpenter . Everything went great took care of the jobs and on my drive home which is usually a very weak spot for me as thats were i would always somehow end up in a bar on my way home and the usaul sparted with my head … go get fucked up started to repeat itself over and over in my head . So came home had some lunch and just sharing it . It happens so fast for me like that i could be driving along and then bang it just takes over out of nowhere even after ive worked out … doesnt seem to have a clock with me . Then my mind was saying it ok wait to everything opens again and go for one last bender … which god only knows how long they last , ive had way to many “last benders” … this is when it usually starts to tell me daily that im ok lolk you feel great again, your fine , it will do you know harm to have a couple and then it usually happens but its never just a Couple of drinks …and its never just drink . I dont know anymore if that voice will ever just be silent . Sorry for the long rant im just venting . Hope everyone has a great day and stays clean and sober .
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Heyyyyy everybody I’m richie n I’m richie, a gratefully recovering heroin and crack addict. I’m so blessed to be given this day and to start another week on my road to livin my life!!! (Pun intended haha). I had to check this app out after seeing it off of a recovery related website I was on. I decided why not?! What can I loose and I have used other apps and still do, but I know the more support and accountability I’ve got the better. I’m grateful to know I can reach out at anytime durin the pandemic we’re all going through and talk with people like myself, and be of service in anyway. I want to quickly thank all of you and the ones who created the app for helpin me to feel welcome and PROUD OF RECOVERY:bangbang:
. I am hangin out today at home and will probably work out 
and finish up a little college work for a class I’m taking toward getting my drug and alcohol counseling certification. Big miracles happenin in my life everyday, without my recovery I wouldn’t be able to do any of it. I look forward to checking in and meeting some of you guys on here, and if anybody ever wants to shoot me a msg feel free I don’t ever turn others down, not what I’m about. No matter what. I’ll try to not write such big essays again bc I want to make sure others have a chance to talk, and I am not the only person in this word. I practice being humble, and reminding myself GOD HAS THE WHEEL. Took me a long time to figure that out. However for myself it’s very important I do reach out and introduce myself and share any bit of experience, strength, and hope. If that takes a giant essay, so be it 
. God bless everybody fighting the fight and prayers to the ones who are struggling and may not find the rooms like I have. I’m richie and I’m still a gratefully recovering heroin and crack addict! Thanks for letting me share and speak!!!
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Thank you so much for sharing this, it spoke volumes to myself and helped me to remind myself that shutting the door on the past is something I don’t need to do, today. who doesn’t love John Lennon also love that quote 
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You are very right. Never thought i would have wasted my life on anxeity and depression and codependency and 1,5 year on alcohol. Now 29 yrs old. I thought i would have had good friends, a kid, proud parents and the world infront of me. Instead i have no education yet and then one im taking is one i was thinking was for dummies who couldnt do other things. Because its an education where the state sends the soceitys lowest people (not to offend anyone, but im not sure how to describe it otherwise in english and its not Because i want to look down on others) and i have a bf with two kids and he doesnt want anymore, so if i wanna be with him thats something i have to live with, im mentally healthy aswell as psysical. I dont know how to find the motivation.
Think i just needed to get that out. And what do i do now. 
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Nice! Routine is key for myself in my own recovery I gotta say. I love workin out myself. I have been spoiled with the full set and machine I’ve got in the basement. I’m richie. Nice time meet ya! God bless n stay up!
Hey there hope you know that for me when I was able to forgive myself I found that all these “things” I thought I’d of had and should of had ended up falling into place. With hard work too, but I know it’s not easy believe you me. I wanna say thank you for reaching out and being so real n raw and sharing that. It spoke to me bc I relate to not feeling like “I’ve got what I thought I’d have”. I don’t have a license yet, and I’ve lived in my parents house now for almost 2 years. Talk about humbling lol. I’m 28 and by the grace of god I’ll be movin out to live with my sister and it’s crazy. If you’d of told me that a year ago I’d of said “sure yup I’m never moving out…”. It’s been a long road for me and I wanted to also tell you that school is something you can start (I know hard right now but it’s doable!). I am finishing up my first class to get a substance abuse counseling certification. Again, never thought I’d go back after 10 years of using drugs. But IM DOING IT. I say all this not to be cocky, but to show you you aren’t alone and I’ve been exactly where you are. I will say a prayer for ya and keep on reaching out! You just helped me more then you’d of thought you would. You reminded me it’s possible to have the things and opportunities I thought I’d lost. God bless and keep on keepin on! You are where you’re supposed to be!!!
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Hope getting it out helped D. And now you start the rest of your life. One day at a time and all that. It’s never too late. I went to nursing school at 40. Was in uni at 20 studying Dutch and history but just "partied’ those years away. It happened. I am sorry that I smoked and drank 40 years of my life away but it’s in the past. Today I’m happy to be clean and sober and at least giving myself the chance to move ahead. At f-ing 54 years old. It’s what it is. On we go. hugs.
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That was pretty awesome…the breath work I couldn’t do for 30mins!..both videos enlightening.
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I do see your point but no I haven’t cut out sugar. Still smoking cigarettes too. I have a quit date for smoking May 11. I’m referring to drugs and alcohol when I say mind and mood altering. These sayings I have picked from various 12 step programs are open to interpretation. Personally I classify sugar as a food addiction and nicotine not sure. Any thoughts people?
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Hope you’re alright ,.ask higher power to guide your thinking…have some food,Wim Hof breathwork is pretty awesome for focus…
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