lol I was confused too for a while
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@Jane.c. I’ve often set 6 alarms to go off at 15 minute intervals to try to catch one 
Sad. But very true 
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WOW 
look at you, where has all that time gone, oh yeah locked in doors
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Day 280. Pushed weights this morning. Windows open, cool breeze rolling through. Might see my dad today, so that’s rad.
Sat outside on my lunch and caught some sun with Jett.
Have a strong!!!
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Yeah for sure it was messing up my sleep, haven’t had it happen in a while. Gonna have to work on it. Thanks for relating tho, I was starting to think I was crazy lol
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I’ve just been writing this . We’re all the bloody same aren’t we.
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Crossing fingers 
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Wanted to check in on day 12, it’s just that my day was so busy that this is my 13th day already as of 7:30 P.M. 
Still sober tho, so who cares 
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Our playing field is even, no matter if we have 12 days or 12 years we all have to stay sober for this one day.
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You are so right. Today is all that matters!!
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Day 82. Was is a foul mood most the of day —arguing, fighting, bad state of mind. So, I just decided to put my work aside and eat popcorn in bed while I watched a show. It helped!
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Checking in 
Sober, still depressed, but now with a few smiles, during the day.
My bf said yesterday, that he thinks its hard being around me, when he doesnt know what to do, with me looking like the end of the world. Which is understandable. But what to say 
I explained that things were very hard atm and that i havent been able to get my medicine against my depressesion, for the past month, but that i have just got it,as of the same day, that he asked. Being without it hasnt at all helped on my situation and now that i got it back, it takes some time, before it works again. I hope he lasts this hard period, bc it wont be the last, with my depression tendencies. Though one thing i have learned with my depressions, is that they will past. So for me there hasnt been a worse One as the first depression, since i had no experience at all and thought it was the end of the world and that there were no way back. But i know Better now, and thats the positive thing about this (dont know if its the same for everyone, but for me luckily, its the case 
- not that the other depressions arent hard, cause they are - but there keeps being a light at the end of the thunnel).
Today was a hard day though. As some of you, might remember from my earlier posts, my parents are sailing around the world. They have now decided to come home or at least closer. They called today saying “goodbye” and said it would take approx. 4 weeks to cross the Atlantic, depending on the weather. I will then recieve coordinates every second day, so that i can follow them or report them missing, should that be the case. I know they didnt mean to come home now, but with the corona situation and the hurricane season soon to come, they didnt have any choice than to return, since nearly all marinas are closed for incomming yatchs.
My parents said that they didnt look forward to the Atlantic crossing, this time, since the weather is so unstable when you sail from the Carribean to the Azores, also my parents dont fancy the long distance sailing anymore. My dad has a very hard time sleeping, when they sail for many days. So im kind of worried. Hope my mum keeps him sane . They will make it though, they are very experienced sailors, so i dont doubt that.
I though find it very hard, with no contact, since we use to talk everyday, anxeity lvl has raised today after wishing them a safe travel and all the I love you talk -absolutely hate it. 
I will pray every single day
Goodnight
Sorry for the looooong post 
had some things on my mind to get off before sleeping
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don’t apologise, always a pleasure never a chore. wish you well.
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Thank you Paul
so after all this we’ve both ended up at day 3. Fucking awesome, that’s what I think, stop presuming what will and won’t happen BTW. We’re sober now and that’s it, that’s what we wanted and that’s what we got. Tommorows not day 4, it’s just another day sober… proud of you mate.
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Day 130
Urgh, a weird dream about my toxic mother woke me at way-too-early o’clock, and then my brain went down a rabbit hole of thinking about her, my far-from-fantastic marriage (14 year anniversary today but doesn’t feel like a celebration), my friend in the hospital, general fear of pain and death, and so on. Finally went back to sleep and woke today feeling tired both physically and mentally. Not a good start to the day.
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Hope your day gets better!
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