- Coffee followed by work after a totally apathetic day off yesterday. Wet and grey outside, first time I really missed the gym. I suppose I have to get myself into exercising at home. Doing nothing is making me depressed. And being depressed sober makes me scared. I thought I cut out depression by becoming sober but that’s not how it works. I need to keep working my sobriety and my life. On we go. Three steps forward, two steps back. @Wunderbar Two years! Huge congrats Chad. Inspirational stuff. @ifs Keep going. Hope you see your psychiatrist very soon. @Misokatsu Hope your day is better than your night friend. @Paulaloha Yes the boredom can be a b*tch. Hang in there. @EarnIt One day at a time Jené. @everybody Have a good day all. Clean and sober. Love from Luna and me.
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Thank you! I made it through the day.
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Well done for the two years @Wunderbar!! 
Congratulations!
Day 590 
I’m tired. I’m done with all the Corona rules.
I know they are needed, but I’m just done with it 
I do not like my life this way, and I can not see how long this is going to be this way.
I do not like my job during this pandemic. I feel like a schoolteacher asking the customers to do this and don’t do that. At 4 o’clock I’m exhausted but I work until 18.30.
Yesterday I felt angry about the situation all day. I know that’s not going to help. On the contrary.
I am my own solution, I have to change how I cope. But that’s so hard.
I would like to be in quaratine right now instead of working 
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Hey Menno, working out at home is a great idea. Or just go for a run outside in the rainy weather if that’s your thing. Moving your body gets you out of your head, but I’m sure you know that already. Take care, mate! That’s such a cute cat by the way. 
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You’re totally right, Claudia! This situation sucks and the not knowing of when this will all be over makes it even worse. And the adults who act like fucking children by not following the rules. It’s frustrating.
I try to do something positive for myself everyday. Even if it’s just writing down a short gratitude list or sitting in silence/meditation, listening to some music or just taking a nap. Whatever it take to get me some positive energy.
Take care hun 
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Woohooo 2 years, I’m still right behind ya!
Great work friend, hope life is ok for you at the moment and you and Gunny are having some good adventures 
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OK its not quite 2 years but does this face look bothered.
Have a blessed day everyone and remember, love is everywhere and destiny is all. I stole destiny is all from the last kingdom on Netflix but hey why not.
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music and your mind will get you a long way, there’s a song for every thought.
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Tonight I will reach over my highest score. I’m feeling safe and sound, too. Surely keeping mindful not to slip up back into this bad habit, it looks like it won’t be terribly long before I can forget all about this disgusting mess.
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I’m afraid it’s a case of the grass being greener on the other side Claudia. One moment I hate my job but the other I’m very happy i got one to go to 4 days a week. It’s hard times yes. Uncertainty is killing. Keep going friend. @Flamestar I hate running. Or biking in the rain. Will start some core training on my yoga mat this pm. Have a good day lady.
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One day at a time - today is the day that’s important
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Hey everyone day 86, feeling meh so far. Did my cold shower but didn’t have the time for my breathing this morning. Things go back to normal next week for us at work. Got a quick almost 13 mile ride in yesterday, always feels good. Been a few days since I’ve gotten out. At least I can still hit the treadmill when I can’t the bike lol. Not much to report I suppose. Hope you all have a good Weds
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Thank you for reminding me, I needed it Menno
My thoughts are spiraling downwards. Not in a good state of mind, have to reset myself. Where is that button? 
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Hey, I hope you feel better. Can I ask what you mean by the decisions you’re making? Like do you mean being sober? Sometimes I think the same thing Honestly, just remember, for some reason I keep thinking there were good days in drinking, but honestly there wasn’t, it may have seemed like it, only untill the next morning when I hated myself and would be miserable all day untill I got home and started drinking again. And even once I started drinking again I still wasn’t really happy, I was just surpressing the shit I need to tackle in life today. Hope things get better you’re doing great
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Day 112. Not much to report. I am gratefull that I cak work in these covid times. Helps to keep my day structure going. Hope you all are doing wel!?
Have a good sober day!
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Hi everyone! I just signed up and have finally made the decision to do this for real. I’m scared, nervous, and excited. I need all of the strength I can get. I hope I’m able to set some goals and stay focused. Have a great day!
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Hey I think you are totally doing fine, I’m the same way sometimes, I think if you’re feeling exhausted and want to lay down at 6 then do it, we need self care days. Some days I say fuck it I’m gonna lay down early and just relax, and some days I’ll say nope not today we’re gonna exercise and get out and do something, I usually feel really good after doing that too. And as for eating, I absolutely will not eat untill my body tells me, if my belly isn’t screaming at me I won’t eat. Sometimes I’ll do intermittent fasting. I’ll throw a lil handfull of almonds in and that’s all I eat drink water, and then some days I’ll say ok it’s gonna be a cheat day and I’ll down a tub of ice cream lol. My mind is always switching things, and making me think all the time, sometimes I’m hard on myself and sometimes I love myself to the fullest. Just keep doing what you’re doing because you’re doing awesome, don’t try to over think things just do what make you happy. Hope this helped lol I kind of mumbled on haha
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Day 6 check in.Woke up late in a rush🙏Hope everyone has a good day
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Welcome Samantha, you’ll find plenty of awesome ppl here with plenty of knowledge and wisdom and strength to help you, don’t forget to find the strength within in you and be confident and strong and gentle on yourself. Have a good day
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