fit may be pushing the boat out a bit but I’m in a real good place mentally so onwards and upwards. Your not doing bad yourself you know 
proud of you. 
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It’s chocolate and it’s cake, I don’t think we have control over these emotions
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Hey guys checking in and today I hit a new milestone and begin a new chapter …today marks 18 months of me being clean and sober and while it hasn’t been easy ( in fact my life has been far more challenging since getting getting clean ) but I’m working it one day at a time and it has been so rewarding for me on a personal and spiritual level…for me having to start my whole life over at the age 43 has been the hardest task , being a drug addict and an alcoholic robbed me of so many of the life skills I should have picked up as I grew up instead I feel like I’ve lost 23 years of my life and now I’m making up for that now , but I feel I have learnt more in the last 18 months about who I am and what my limitations are than I did in all those years …i hope any newcomers who read this see that they can do this they can get through there struggles and there is light at the end of the tunnel …today I thank my higher power for getting me here and guiding me on this journey, big love to ALL of you in recovery and remember 1 day a time X
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Thank you!!
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Thankyou mate 
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Checking in. Still lost for words. I keep coming back here and read and watch the beautiful conversations. Nothing sparks me anymore. Like I do not belong in the world. I have had hardship before in my life, like we all have. but never have I been in the situation of hardship with no resilience or outlook on improvement what soever. I get up in the morning and do what my body allows me to do. Currently stripping banisters, baking my own bread, working in the garden a bit. But I feel myself slipping. IN the few hours of sleep a day people from my past come by telling me they always knew I was a bad person, they all have been keeping records of it to show me one day when I would not be strong anymore… bizar… every night another person or group.
Over the last few months I have called out for help, a shoulder to cry on and a practical counterpart in dealing with all the hospital shit. somehow it does not work, people still think I will manage on my own, like I always did. I feel the loneliness is sucking the life out of me. I managed to keep it at bay as long as I was teaching, because giving love also rubs of… but I also need the love and attention. I have never been here, never felt like this. It does not even resemble depression. it is like a slipping out, just sneaking out…
I hesitated in posting this because these messages do not make you friends, even here I see that it needs another tone of voice to make friends or conversations. But it is this feeling I need to deal with somehow to keep afloat now.
sorry for bringing this energy here. I am save and calm. no worries about that. But maybe in acknowledging what is here now I have a window to another state of mind
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Day 9 check in.Hope everyone has a good day!!
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As John Lennon said. Being honest may not get you a lot of friends, but it will always get you the right ones
Thank you for sharing and for your honesty. 
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I’m glad you feel safe enough to post here Maria. And I admire you for your honesty. When you’ve always been self-reliant and caring to others it’s so hard to make people see this time it’s you that needs some love and attention. Thanks for sharing. Hope it helps. Hope we can help a bit. Hugs.
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Amazing achievement… fantastic inspiration…
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Im gonna keep this short and sweet as i know i tend to waffle on😂. I liked your share alot I really did and i really got something from it ,I thought it was touching and real and highlighted what alot of us go through , doing recovery alone is tough ( i know that) and we all need support and that shoulder to lean on when we are struggling and the fact the you have come on here and opened up about how you are feeling makes me admire you for putting it out there …today you have made a friend in me mate and thankyou for posting…
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aww bless thankyou mate 
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Ugh great nights sleep
Bought pizza and grinders lastnight for me and my buddies
Today is londry day and im picking a qupple black tees at wolly world
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Day 4 sober. I did deep cleaning today in home. I need physical activity. It is a way of not thinking to much. Must of my falls started in my brain
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Day 116 AF. Didn’t have the best night’s sleep, woke up 3 times, but the sun is shining and the sky is blue. It is supposed to get into the 60s today, so after starting the day with AA on Zoom I’m gonna do a 30 mile bike ride then relax around a fire in the backyard fire pit. Have a great day, everyone!
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@Girlinterrupted Your presence here always helped me, no matter your struggles, it is just your presence. Since I am here I saw so many persons disappearing. And I miss them, really. This is just an app and is not like in real life but I have been helped so many times, you are one of the beacons of light here. Believe it or not
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Congrats on 18 months of sobriety, keep on keeping on ODAAT.
Blessings and sobriety!
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60 days today.
Some days are extremely hard while other days seem to float right past me.
I hope everybody has a wonderful weekend.
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@Desire2ChangeToday Shay, how are doing? Haven’t seen you since your friend passed. Thinking of you and hope you’re okay.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Hey love, I’m okay. Thank you for checking in! I’m 280 days sober. Just haven’t been as active on the app lately but I’ve been lurking. I hope you’re still killing it.
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