@Mno Lordy, that sucks. Good luck finding online stuff in the meantime.
@bluejai Super congratulations!
@BobIsGone I do know what u mean. But if u have some bad times then u still need the help. The better times don’t cancel them out.
@anon89207786 I think the word comes from ‘psyched’.
Just checking in for today
2 days, 3hrs, 25min…
I just finished a super long (5hr), stressful, charged meeting for work via zoom (with external party - our team gets along, phew) and caught myself thinking “I can’t not have a drink after this. I’ve earned it. How else am I supposed to power down?”
But, all of your posts I’ve been catching up on the last few days wrestled the beast in my mind, and asked me the good question: “i thought you found it stressful waking up feeling awful, regretful, ashamed, and just plain no good, right?” A happy, disgruntled sigh… …and my gratitude to you all.
I will tidy off my desk instead, as I sip my soda water, and get used to the idea that I might not have to be so reactive. Then, like yesterday, I will reward myself and my dog girl with a long walk. Yesterday, we were walking by a lovely neighborhood pond, with lots of birds and cattails around it, and saw a duck and her ducklings - a kind i’ve never seen before - scurrying down to the water. I think I might have missed out on a lot of these beautiful little sights when I wasn’t simply present to each moment - each sober moment. And then? A whole bunch of other birds, larger birds, came flying overhead and a few of them succeeded in scooping up a few of the ducklings. Well - middle-aged me and my aging Golden Retriever turned and charged them, me shouting “hey! leave those ducklings alone! drop them right now!” Alas, nature took it’s course.
I had to chuckle. I probably looked exactly the opposite of sober! Ah well, I know I was, I am… sober. 
Thank you for being here, good people!
Emm
Day 7! My eye has been twitching nonstop for 7 days now. I need to sit down and make some lists and gather my thoughts, I dont really do that anymore. I have been avoiding a lot of my problems and I think I need to start addressing them in order for this twitch to go away! 
Happy sober day everyone… 
Heck yes, @M-be-free49! Good for you! That’s a long zoom meeting, and I’m so glad you came here!
Day 113
Getting back into the swing of things. Working a handful of hours a day. Just trying to stay positive about that.
Gearing up for a big air conditioning install this weekend. Come to find out theres alot of parts necessary for heat pumps lol.
Hope everyone is having a great day. Keep up the great work!
Day 6 just checking in
I would hide my bottles as well. I remember one time I had collected so many bottles in my back closet. About 2 or 3 months worth, I didn’t even put them in bags or anything. I ran out of room in there so I finally threw them out. It took about 10 trips from the house to my trash by the curb. When I was done it was ¾ full of just glass bottles of vodka, rum, gin, beer…I mean EVERYTHING you could drink. The next morning I was woken up to the sound of the trash guy putting the trash on the truck. As the arm went up everything dumped out making the sound of a car wreck or a home invasion. I was still hungover from the night before but I clearly remember the trash guy call out “Are you fucking kidding me!!! Thanks asshole!” After that I got better at throwing away my bottles after I was finished with them. That was about 8 years ago but I still think about it sometimes. Like wow… I really had a huge problem.
Checking in Day 3. Doing better. Have a pretty stressful day tomorrow as I think my manager is going to confront me about my performance and ask if I’m drinking during the day. Reading a great book “We Are The Luckiest” that really resonates with me. Grateful for that. Heading into my AA zoom. Appreciate you all.
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I would try to divide empties evenly between different recycling points, or if I was panicking to hide them from husband just put in public trash cans. What a massive waste of time and energy!
Day 323. Nothing too exciting going on. Our work from home timeline was extended indefinitely, and while I’m good with that, I couldn’t stay in the current setup, which was an insanely high dining room table and an uncomfortable chair. Hit up IKEA and snagged a colorful little desk and chair. Pretty stoked on it.
Shared office space with my girlfriend, and the cats. It’s a little cramped, but we’ll almost never be in there at the same time.
Have a strong day!!!
I saw mine the other day in the am and thought to myself, I’m going to get a screenshot of 888.88. totally forgot and when I checked it was 888.92 or something not as cool.
Nice work sober twin!!
That’s been me quite literally EVERY time I’ve ever thought “oooo I’ll hit a cool number today” I can NEVER remember to take a pic. Any who…ANY number is a good one. Happy to be here sober with you buddy 
Day 72. Been having a lot of discomfort and irritation. Physical pain is a huge trigger for me. Lapsed onto some cough medicine pills the other night. Some super lame ass junior high school shit right there. Caused me to debate getting weed delivered. Didn’t do that which caused me to debate getting booze at curbside pickup. Even looked at some ads. $5 for a fifth of whiskey. God that would make me feel awful. I hope it cools off and things start to get better here soon.
19 FREAKING DAYSSSSS 
so excited to get to 20!!!
ok what am I looking at?
Glad to see you staying strong! What is the physical pain from? Have you tried acupuncture or physical therapy? Hangovers only add to the pain!! Iol Lame ass junior high shit, I can relate to that. Hope it gets better soon!
