I hurt my hand lifting an agave plant that weights more than me and then I didnt let it rest and kept doing heavy concrete and stone work with it. Pretty sure its a pulled tendon on my index finger side. Not sure sticking myself with needles will help lol. The pills were dxm cough medicine. Was popping some to help get comfortable and relax which lead to me taking a bunch to get high. Not my doc and didn’t enjoy it enough to suffer these after affects. Left me with cravings for my go to docs which are weed and booze together.
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- Coffee. One more work day before a 3 day weekend. Looking forward to it. A lot. But it’s OK. I’m sober and clean. I’ll make it. Together with you. Have a good one all. Love from Amsterdam. The pic is from a community flower garden close to work. Never knew how pretty it’s there.
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265 Days. We’re starting a new project at work in teams of 2 people. There’s only 1 person I had a hard time connecting with, when I started. Just my luck, this person was assigned to me (so I thought). I was so stressed out thinking, how am I going to get through a 6 month project with this person? Should I start looking for a new job? Come to find out, she requested me. We had a call to get started and she had nothing but nice things to say. She likes how thorough I am, how I’m a go getter and how hard I work. I was shocked and relieved. Strange how things work out.
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320 days without any mind altering substance. No alcohol no drugs to deal with myself or the world around me and I’m happy for that. Things are the way there suppose to be and I have to accept that without looking for something to fix the bad days I’m fine with that too. And when I think about life without alcohol or drugs it’s really not that bad actually it’s beautiful I just had to do some work on myself to get to a point of realizing that. Everyone have a beautiful blessed clean and sober night
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Day 182! Today was okay. I had a pretty good therapy session, which is always nice.
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This quarantine has gotten me feeling nostalgic 
I love your pictures 
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Starting day 6. It’s a public holiday and going to the mountains today with family. Have a great day 
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Congrats @bluejai on 180 days sober, keep on stacking them days ODAAT. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in on day 10. Yesterday I went out with some friends, everybody has chosen a drink without alcohol. We had a lot of fun!
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What great friends you have. Keep up the good work. Tx
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Day 7 one week of my sobriety! Still very anxious about going back to work in a few weeks time I wish I could stop my mind being so crazy! My daughter had theopy yesterday and came out really upset over my past drug use she said some real horrible things to me that I already know ! I hurt her so much when she was younger by being on drugs no matter how much I tried to hide it she’s not stupid… the guilt and shame is unbearable but I know I need to make a daily amends to her and stay clean… I’m the 16 months of my journey I’ve slipped a couple of times but I can’t do thst anymore I need to put my every thing into recovery… I’ve been clean off heroin for 16 months now but the damage I’ve done hurts so much … I need to spend time today talking to my daughter I’ll be open and honest and pray things will get better in time x
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Congratz @bluejai and @Francisco1 !
@Lisa07 , hope it ‘Works’ out well , how are you btw ?
@Mno, jammer van de wachttijd maar het is het w88 waard. Heb zelf een intensieve schematherapie gedaan 3 daags pw intern voor 3 maand en ontzettend veel mogen leren over mezelf, mijn denken en het hoe en waarom in wat ik doe. Hoop dat je snel mag starten.
Me checking in…
It can always be worse, so bless what you have peopz
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I can imagine that this is difficult for you to hear from your daughter. But I think that honesty is the right way. Addiction is a sickness, you’re on the way, that’s important. One day she might appriciate your honesty, love and she will understand. You are her father and you are trying hard to stay in contact with her. That’s much more than other fathers do!
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Lol I’m her mum !!! Your so right I need to keep talking and being honest I’ve said she can ask me anything if it helps her understand x
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Day 1 check in.Angry w/myself,getting older you think I would learn.Need some prayer today 
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sorry!!
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Day 129 holy moly I thought today was Wednesday again:joy:
. Welp happy Thursday everyone, taking today off from the exercise need to rest. Did a lil meditation for mind chatter last night and going to continue it as it seemed to help actually a lil bit.
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Truth girl 
I pulled it off yesterday and will again today too. It felt good to check some things off the list that has been looming over me and stressing me out. Now waiting for the elusive motivation to return
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Stay strong, it’s been really hard, but your kicking ass and taking names. You’re aware of your triggers and respecting them. You got this!