Day 9 today and greatful to be in recovery its my son’s birthday today and he’s spending the day with me and his sister in the past he’s not wanted to be around me or choose to spend his day with his friends or other family so I’m buzzing with joy I get my boy today !!! I’ve been doing some zoom meetings and it’s lovely to just listen and learn I’m not feeling lit up like I do with face to face meetings but it’s helping me to keep focused on my recovery hope everyone is ok and having a blessed day x x x
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I have never felt so shakey. My worst time is getting home from work and heading straight for 
. No where else to go, how do I stop this. I live alone. I visit my mom every evening with a glass in my hand. I managed to spend a few evenings with a different beverages but then sh*t happens and I fall back. Every time I reset my counter I get stuck in my head.
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Yeah you’re spot on man. I am still doing the doing my jogs and exercise I’m just exhausted from it. But I’m not even really going hard about it, and honestly I think my mind wanted to trick me into feeling this, bc my last two meditations it did this to me. My mind like subconsciously clears it’s self so that there is nothing to think about during meditation, I find myself just trying to keep focus from noise rather then thoughts and emotion. Before thoughts would run wild. But these last two meditation I noticed my mind cleared itself of thoughts before the meditation even happened, and then they nailed me once the meditation was done. I’m not sure if this makes sense, but I’m noticing now that’s what my mind did. I don’t feel in any danger of a relapse, I would of reached out last night before and always will. I know I don’t want to drink, I know what my mind is trying to do. Maybe it’s my body and mind trying to say time to try something new, you have these skill sets down now let’s learn something new
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Back to day 1 🤦🤦🤦
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Thank you Stella, yes that was me that actually brought that up before. And it was @Dan531 who made the comment. Thank you for reminding of that because it’s so true. And I like that idea, I have paint and my girls come home tomorrow, so I think we are just going to do that and pics will follow.
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After work check in. Managers are mad. One time they kick you in the ground for some mistakes made, the next time (today) it’s like we’re in this together and how to learn from this and to move forward and smiles and blablabla after the same sort of mistakes. I guess she needs me. I’m still going to leave my current job ( I refrained from telling her) but at least I got some breathing space and I don’t have to make a hasty decision or a dodgy choice. Dead tired now after a very busy stressful intense workday. It’s cool and raining but since I’m home and not going anywhere except to my bed early tonight it’s fine. What also is fine is that these sort of days do not make me crave. Using wouldn’t help. Some good sleep will. Sober and clean. Love from a wet Amsterdam.
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Mike, The fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous will helps us acquire the tools to get through days like these. 
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Day 20 and waiting for a catfish po boy.
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Checking in on day 28 
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Hey sober folks, I hope you’re all kicking ass?
I’m 911 days sober today 
My job is still stressful but it’s okay. I finally got used to sports 
Moving my body feels good, releases stress and makes me stronger.
I’m still getting better at getting better, each and every day.
Have an awesome day folks 
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I love a po boy!! Oyster is my favorite. Enjoy!!
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Day 343. On the daily grind. Got some days off coming up, so that’s exciting. Other than that, it’s just the same old same old!
Have a strong day!!!
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Nice to see you Sabrina and a lovely number of sober days today! Super! Glückwunsch! (Dreamt of an 911 when I was a kid)
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Thank you 
Nice car 
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I agree with Paul @Girlinterrupted . Abuse is NEVER the victim’s fault. Don’t go there. It’s not a trip worth taking.
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Congrats on the new place! That’s exciting. I’m sure all will go well. Just enjoy it for what it is and don’t be anxious over something that hasn’t happened yet!
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Congrats on your new home @liv_m! Very exciting and I’m sure everything will be just fine. Enjoy it!
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