Aww, that was really sweet of you. Thank you 
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I feel for you Lisa.
I feel your frustration.
Sending you loads of strength and love in support
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Day 150. I ordered pizza last night for the first time in a long time and it felt good, to not worry about what I’m eating, I know I said I have been eating shitty, but I really wasn’t eating that bad. So last night I said fuck it and actually ate crappy food and it was a nice reset to my body. I woke up feeling good, the little foggy feelings that I’ve been going through these last couple of days is gone. I am feeling really good and taking a different route in a few things, just small little things but I think they will help. One being no more yankin the chicken 
, and two I’m getting rid of Facebook. It actually scares me to get rid of Facebook, so I’m thinking if it scares me then I should give it a try. Anyway have a good Thursday everyone
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Day 10 off alcohol. I’m quickly becoming aware that I have the capacity to be far more in control of my drinking habits, and far less control of sex related acting out. I am 10 days off pmo and am really struggling. It feels like the longer I go, the stronger the craving to seek out meaningless sex. Any advice during those periods of intense cravings would be really useful.
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Day 250… Feeling pretty good, putting work in everyday to my sobriety. Stay strong friends.
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One more thing, place the pie tin on a cookie sheet when it goes into the oven, keeps the bottom from burning
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@Lisa07 I’m so sorry and frustrated for you. Hopefully the IOP people get it together and get you what you need ASAP. You’ve come a long way and soon all this crap will be in your rear view mirror xoxo
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Day 495. Just woken up from a drinking dream, first in a while. Yuck. I must be dehydrated aswell as I feel hungover 
Mad how it still happens after all this time.
My boss has clearly spoken to my colleagues aswell after yesterday, probably just told them that I’m having a tough time atm. She knows about the mental health issues but no more than that and they all know I dont drink but not why. They are all being really nice, offering to meet up for chats etc which I really appreciate. It has made me feel uncomfortable tho, just goes to show how difficult I find it to show weakness/ask for help. Its highlighted that this is something I need to work on. Im certain that a couple of decades of not talking and holding everything in has led me to where I am today.
For today Im grateful for not having to sit in work Zoom meetings all day.
Have a great sober day folks 
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Your an awesome person. So resilient and strong. Keep it up. Thanks for the kind words and great insight on things. @MrsOdh
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Keep being strong and keep that freak away from your kids. Is he registered as a sex offender? Do they do that in Sweden? Rapist and pedophile. He should be in jail or a psychiatric hospital. Not walking the streets. Makes my heart sad. 
Anyway great on your sobriety count.
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Day 541.
Sending love out to those of you who are having a rough day. You can do this! Don’t think about tomorrow, just focus on today.
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Day 6 sober. Cautious and tense. I don’t want to screw up the little progress. Tiredness is a bad counselor, I must be over vigilant
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Day 11 today and I feel like I’ve turned a corner in my recovery i did a zoom meetings last night it lit me up so much … they guy had the same upbringing as myself a London family really close to eachother and he went off the rails he got a bit of clean time then relapsed he even took the same drugs as me …after the meeting I carried on and spoke to him he told me to stay close to God and stop playing around in recovery cos I’ll end up dead if i keep using … he was so harsh with me but also kind and I felt something clicked in my head no one has ever said that to me before i needed to here it… and it’s also true that I’ve not been praying like I used to … My will never works God’s will does ! So here I am feeling lit up and gonna start to enjoy my recovery again today is a fresh day … if anyone is struggling please take a moment out say a prayer cos it really does help x God bless you all x x x
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Day 6.
Grateful I have a place to come and get support,cuz sometimes I think everyone,including me has lost their fucking minds.Stay Safe and Sober 
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Maybe check out some meetings for that.
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Acceptance
After months of rehashing the same things over and over, feeling like I wasn’t getting anywhere…last night I had some realizations about my breakup, some things that I had been conveniently forgetting for the sake of being able to keep beating myself up and to keep shouldering tons of guilt and blame.
I won’t get into specifics, but these realizations I had have really felt like a true step forward for me as I try to find my way through all this. I still fully acknowledge that there are things I could have and should have done better. However I think I am now getting to a place where I can see the relationship and its end in the true reality, rather than just romanticizing and missing the good times. We had a brief interaction last night which prompted this – it was nothing bad at all, but there was something there that caused me to be able to see things as they really were.
I’ve had brief moments of peace here and there, but I feel like this is a true step in the right direction that will be more long lasting…hope I’m right.
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I get what you’re saying; I think that’s normal after a breakup. Good you can look at it from a third person perspective.
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Day 30. For some reason I never realized this was a whole month lol as silly as that sounds i was so focused on how many days…anyways we’re all here and we’re still going! Yay us!
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