Day 1. The past 3 months I have not cared about sobriety, just being honest about it. I’m back and ready to work at it again.
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Do you care now?
your going great, keep it real just for today 
Yes, I suppose I still cared i just ignored it I guess.
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Day 60. Happy day everyone!
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Starting day 37. Prayed, meditated and exercised. These last few days have been an amusement park ride. Up, down, round and round my mind goes. Confidence comes and leaves as my mind swirls due to job interviews and car problems. Both completely manageable but my foolish alcoholic riddled brains turns them into anxiety and a call for alcohol. IT wants me back. I SAY…HELL NO!
I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE IN TODAY.
I got the job and the car problem is now remedied. So I have learned again that I have the power to beat these thoughts. I am determined to out think my negative thoughts and replace them with my new determination to be a positive helpful caring soul instead. Thanks for the likes and positive vibes. We are all genuinely good souls that lost our way and are finding our true selves through our resiliency and determination. Remind yourselves everyday that this hard work we are doing is making a difference in our lives and all the lives that we touch.
God bless.
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I ask bc I think I’m on day 19 and I can honestly say that I have wanted to get drunk every day, this is the hardest I’ve ever had to work my sobriety. I must care or I wouldn’t be sober but I just want to get wasted. It’s an odd feeling. So well done you on giving it another shot and I wish you all the best.
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amen to that 
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Congratulations on the 11 months you have under your belt. When the thoughts of a year come, let them come and go. Don’t dwell on them. Just focus on being sober today. That’s the only day that really matters. I’m proud of you big eejit!
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Day 307 here I come. I feel like I’ve been treading water in my recovery. Not really working it. Maybe it’s just that I’m treading water in life. Working hard to stay afloat but not really going anywhere emotionally, mentally or physically. The thing is I’m not sure what to do about it. I probably need to take a long hard look at how I spend my time and make some changes. Otherwise I’ll be stuck here forever!
Hope you’re feeling better @Jennajen Well done not taking/looking for the pills. Guard your sobriety above all!
@Mno hope you get some answers for your depression. I’ve lived with it and wouldn’t wish that for anyone. Sending you a hug from Texas 
@anon35096624 and @Lionfish sending you love and Light this morning from my heart to yours! Hope the clouds lift and you both feel joy again soon.
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Ice cream and Lindt white chocolate. Sour patch and heath bars. Swedish fish and oh he’ll any candy thats not nailed down. Started to slow my roll with it past my 30 days. Shooting for a major cutback for 60 then almost none past 90. Atleast I try to excersize everyday to keep the weight gain at bay. Lol
P.S. your candy porn pics are killing me. Lmao
Have a great day @Apes2020
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Checking in:
Day 12 without cigarettes
Day 1 without alcohol
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Day 52 and it’s another cold and rainy one here in Sweden.
We’re gonna start to plan the vacation for real today.
A lot of relatives wants us to come and visit during the vacation. But for my own peace of mind I’m going to try and avoid that.
Sometimes I really hate having a huge family that wants to get involved in everything all the time. If you’ve seen the movie My Big Fat Greek Wedding you got it. Just switch the Greeks for Gypsies add a bunch of Serbians (my husband’s side) and you’ll be on spot.
For now we’re going to stay in our region and visit some small villages with an old fortress as the main goal. Along the way lives my father in law, and brothers in law who wants us to come and have a dinner with them. Well it’s actually one dinner and two fikas. At my father in laws place we’re not allowed to be inside the house because his new wife (well they’ve been married for the past 30 years) doesn’t like my husband. He was an adult when they got married so he doesn’t give darn. The two brothers in law are living in each side of the village and both wants to show their new houses and have a Fika.
Next village is the place where my sister in law lives. I woke up today to hear my husband talking in the phone loudly in Serbian. It doesn’t happen to often, he’s loud because he is deaf in one ear and hears badly with the other one. And he does speak Serbian being half part Serbian, but it’s rare that he does that in combination and in phone. Usually it’s as a greeting or conversation with older relatives.
Me who only understands a few words of Serbian, that wasn’t helpful at all thinks that someone at least must be dying so I jump out of bed trying to find out what’s going on. After a while I realize that it has something to do with a teen, knowing that my teen have a cousin in her age that she used to get into trouble with I’m starting to get anxious. But the upset level isn’t really in proportion with the kind of trouble the two of them usually starts. So I’m doing the only thing I can think of, I’m calling my teen who stays at her boyfriends house over summer. I’m calling her boyfriend and his mother too (I know they are almost adults but still) Everything’s good over there no ones in trouble, they was out on a riding tour with the horses yesterday (he lives on a ranch) and all is cool.
I’m starting a pot of coffee, talks a little to our roommate and eventually my husband is done talking.
It turns out that my sister in laws oldest kid, who just turned 20 and having a lot of trouble both behind him and in current time, with drugs and criminal records. Are going to be a father, a few weeks ago he was involved in a gang shooting and have been hiding at his mother’s place (my sister in law) ever since. His father is in my opinion a piece of shit who likes to beat the crap out of his kids still to this day, and I can’t count the times we’ve been going to get those boys out of there for the 10 years me and my husband have been married. Luckily my sister in law isn’t married to him anymore, and now this kid is going to have a kid of his own. Like that wasn’t enough the girl is a Swede, not a Serbian girl, not even a Bosnian girl or even a little gypsy she’s a pure Swede. And apparently that’s really upsetting. After some negotiations and a promise to at least pass down some traditions and the language to the future child the situation is a bit calmer.
My sister in law doesn’t have room in her house so we promised that they could stay here if needed. A little annoying but I’m deeply grateful that it wasn’t my teen who was in trouble this time.
Anyway now my sister in law needs us to come and visit to celebrate that she’s going to be a grandma.
Third stop a village next to the canal it’s absolutely beautiful and I’ve got my grandmother’s sister (The current Puridai of our family, a Puridai is the head of the family) she wants us over for a fancy family dinner with my five uncles, all my cousins and their families (well it’s actually my fathers cousins but wr doesn’t count it that way, they’re uncles and their kids my cousins) in pure English that spells C.H.A.O.S
But I’m not sure I can turn that down and still being respectful against family. I usually try to avoid my uncles because they are all criminals, but since I’m the oldest one in my father’s family and also a girl, I’ve got some duties against the Puridai.
Other times it’s a blessing knowing that family has your back no matter what. But with that Security comes responsibility to also be the one that’s there no matter what.
And if it wasn’t for all the soapopera drama I’ll have no problem with that.
Another long post, but you should be used to them by now. Staying Sober and waiting for my life to stop being a soap opera episode.
Wishing y’all a great day. 
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Thanks Paul!! You too 
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Day 35. So much on my plate. Big life changes happening. Anxiety has returned with a vengeance. Its physical manifestations scare the hell out of me sometimes. Working real hard to roll with the changes…because they are positive and keep my anxiety and wanting to drink to cope in check.
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Day 1 is better than day 0. You’re back on the sobriety train and that’s all that matters. Keep your chin up and drink plenty of fluids to rehydrate.
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Happy Tuesday, everyone! Apologies for missing check in the past few days, things have gotten busy for me. I’m thankful to be maintaining a sober life, now at Day 189 (27 Weeks!)
Have had some difficult days of late, not getting a restful sleep and feeling cranky. Still, I am able to recognize it for what it is: life. We all have good days and bad days, ups and downs. What has changed is that I am seeing it for what it is, and facing it rather than stuffing my feelings and seeking escape through drink. It is good that I can catch myself in the moment and try new ways of coping with these temporary bumps in the road. A big difference from 6 months ago! Thanks for being there and for all the support!!
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Welcome back!! You’re in the right place Day 1 is Day Won!
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Glad you’re back. One day at a time. 
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My God, can’t believe it’s been six days since my last post. 
Haven’t been to any meetings for over two weeks now, but here I am… Checking in sober on day 89. 
Gonna pick up my 90 day key coin on Friday, but I’m not sure if I’m going to continue the 12 step program. I might look for some other program which has been mentioned on here several times (forgot the name).
Have been reading and crocheting a lot in the past couple of days. Last weekend was lovely. A friend came over from Poland and we went for a hike in a national park called De Maasduinen.
I’ve started to drink water with lemon in the morning before coffee and have been doing a little more physical exercise.
Overall, mostly ups and some downs but in the end, it’s all good. 
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